But rejoice to the extent that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that when his glory is revealed you may also rejoice exultantly. 1 Peter 4:13
August 23, 2015
Sometimes at night as I am falling asleep I will be awakened by an intense anxiety. I begin to have flashes in my head of children being ripped apart in the womb because of abortion. Often I see older children who are being abused. I see war. I also start to feel extremely anxious and ashamed about my own sin. I become unsettled, unable to go to sleep. I get very distraught and often begin praying just to ease my distress.
It is I who am showing you these things. There are many offenses against my Son’s Sacred Heart. He died to take on these sins and in Him, if people believe, they can become whole and new. I have only shown you a minuscule microbe of the offenses, for if I showed you all I see and feel, your human heart would explode from distress. I rejoice when you pray. I ask for reparation and prayer, that you sacrifice for others. Sacrifice for others as my Son did. Become one with me. I will infuse grace in those who ask. I will give you grace to overcome sin. Apart from Me you are just pride and ego, but with Me you become humility, mercy and grace. Make time in adoration. Go to confession frequently. Pray for the lost souls that commit heinous sin. When you make reparation even the hardest hearts can be changed. Do not fear me showing you the sin, instead hold vigil and pray, pray, pray.
- A side note – these nights often distress me greatly, this song embodied how I feel on these nights. – Sarah Hart, Praying with a Broken Heart. This conversation today in the 1871 chapel has helped me greatly to know what to do. I must pray and sacrifice for others, go to adoration and confession.
- (About my God dialogue;I write my worries, prayers and thoughts to Him. Then in the stillness I sit. The random thoughts that enter my head I record. This is not automatic writing. It is a compilation of the thoughts that pop in my head when I speak to Him. If it contradicts Doctrine, it is wrong.)
I have been noting that this call to save children, babies, is going out to more and more people. More spirits are being awakened and inflamed to join in the Prayer War to save children.
With so much to do and a job to go out to each day, I sleep far less than what I need, so I desperately crave sleep. A few weeks before, I felt a quiet but strong urge to “make a Holy Hour” of sorts before the early morning madness of getting kids ready for school. I wasn’t sure how I was to do that since I struggle to open my eyes every time the alarm goes off every day. But I went ahead. I began by praying for various prayer needs, but that soon evolved into praying for children, the unborn, and those that peril the lives of children.
The need is very great, indeed.
I always think about the verse with the millstone around the neck…Matthew 18:6. We are harming our children terribly in many ways in our society.
That is one verse that has the power to sober up any parent or parent-figure. It makes me think of the far-reaching effects of the things I do and say, the example I set, for younger ones, impressionable minds. It’s a serious reminder that I cannot and should not swing through life with considering the impact of my actions.