The Antichrist

saint anthony the great

Saint Anthony the Great – attacked by demons


Jesus went out along the sea. All the crowd came to him and he taught them.
As he passed by, he saw Levi, son of Alphaeus, sitting at the customs post.
Jesus said to him, “Follow me.” And he got up and followed Jesus.
While he was at table in his house, many tax collectors and sinners sat with Jesus and his disciples; for there were many who followed him. Some scribes who were Pharisees saw that Jesus was eating with sinners and tax collectors and said to his disciples,
“Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?”  Jesus heard this and said to them,
“Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do. I did not come to call the righteous but sinners.” Mark 2:13-17


I feel like God has been speaking to me about the rise of the Antichrist.  And I feel obligated to warn.  I am not here to tell you who it is because I don’t know.  I am here to tell you to recognize the signs.

He pointed out that there are actually anti-Christ’s everywhere, people who accept ideology that is un-Godly.  Think those who promote abortion and unethical things in the medical world.

But there will be one, one who will embody this more than others.  Saint Thomas Aquinas put it this way;

“As in Christ dwells the fullness of the Godhead so in Antichrist the fullness of all wickedness. Not indeed in the sense that his humanity is to be assumed by the devil into unity of person…but that the devil by suggestion infuses his wickedness more copiously into him than into all others. In this way all the wicked that have gone before are signs of Antichrist.”

A friend of mine recently posited that perhaps the Antichrist would be conservative or traditional.

I think this idea would shock most as I regularly see people call those who embrace leftist anti-God ideology the Antichrist… and of course to a degree this is correct.  But… those who accept the anti-God ideology have already been won over by Satan.   So how does Satan win over all of us?  By rising in the form of a ruler who implements the rules that we are all longing for.

So as in all things I took this to meditation, and Christ always points me to His passion as the way to truth.  I meditated on His Passion and God pointed out a few things to me.

The Antichrist will be inside the Church (and I most likely I think the Catholic Church, but not necessarily because Protestants are part of Church, I will explain further).  Those who condemned Jesus were His own.

The Antichrist will feed on the fact that anti-God leftists have shoved sin in our faces and people will be so fed up they will praise the person who implements the rules.

In Jesus’ time, there were many different factions of Jews, the Pharisees, the Sadducees, the Zealots, Essenes etc. Caiphas was actually a Sadducee, this was the group that didn’t believe in Resurrection, and ultimately the one who condemns him along with the Pharisees.  Today we have all these factions of Christianity.

I was taking a class this week and the professor said to the class that he considers himself a traditionalist, but that he disagrees with some of the traditionalists because some of them have said to him that having a Personal Relationship with Christ is a Protestant idea and heresy.  I WAS ASTONISHED AT THIS.  Every Saint speaks of this personal relationship, so how could anyone possibly think this?  Then it dawned on me, these people are Sadducees and Pharisees both. Some probably don’t really believe in Resurrection because if they did, personal relationship would not be so foreign to them and others just believe they can save themselves.  The Sadducees rejected belief in angels so there will be no protection because it won’t be called upon.  And the Sadducees enjoyed a better relationship with Roman leaders, making me think too that whoever this person is will have a role to play in world leadership and the politics of it.

And the betrayal of Jesus’ was a blaspheming of the Holy Spirit.  A rejection of mercy.  So too in this time, will the Antichrist reject mercy.  And people will be glad to accept it because they will have had so much leftist Godless ideology shoved in their faces they will be looking for a worldly way out, the same way both Judas and Peter did.  People sick of persecution turn to worldly ways and the Antichrist becomes the enactor of what they think God’s justice is, while those who weep bitterly in humility will be saved.

Those who are true Christians who follow the law, but eat with tax collectors and sinners, they will be condemned.

It is the path of Christ.

Leftists and sinners who refuse to repent implode on themselves.  But even in this, God’s mercy is far reaching because he will know those who “knew not what they did.”

Sadducees and Pharisees don’t think they need a Savior, even though they have been taught – they will surely see God’s true justice…

Ultimately the Antichrist does these things, though we may not know it at first;

  1. “Whoever denies that Jesus is the Christ. Whoever denies the Father and the Son, this is the antichrist”(1John 2:22).

A person who does not believe in personal relationship is actually denying him.


  1. Let no one deceive you in any way. For unless the apostasy comes first and the lawless one is revealed, the one doomed to perdition, who opposes and exalts himself above every so-called god and object of worship, so as to seat himself in the temple of God, claiming that he is a god…But the one who restrains is to do so only for the present, until he is removed from the scene. And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord [Jesus] will kill with the breath of his mouth and render powerless by the manifestation of his coming, the one whose coming springs from the power of Satan in every mighty deed and in signs and wonders that lie, and in every wicked deceit for those who are perishing because they have not accepted the love of truth so that they may be saved. Therefore, God is sending them a deceiving power so that they may believe the lie, that all who have not believed the truth but have approved wrongdoing may be condemned.” – 2 Thessalonians 2:3-12


We know apostasy comes FIRST – That is already here.

Then comes the lawless one – but he is a liar – and we will believe the lie because we actually aren’t grounded in the truth of mercy saving, we will be looking for worldly justice.


  1. So when you see standing in the holy place ‘the abomination that causes desolation,’[a] spoken of through the prophet Daniel—let the reader understand— 16 then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. … For false messiahs and false prophets will appear… Matthew 24:15-27


It will be a false messiah – and people will believe because it won’t be so obvious to them that it is false and we will end up fleeing.


  1. And Saint John Damascene said this; “During the first part of his reign — of his tyranny rather — he plays more the part of sanctity; but when he gains complete control, he persecutes the Church of God and reveals all his wickedness. ‘And he shall come in signs and lying wonders’ — sham ones and not real — and he shall seduce those whose intention rests on a rotten and unstable foundation and make them abandon the living God, ‘in as much as to scandalize (if possible) even the elect…’”

We will be fooled by the supposed sanctity that seems true to the faith.

It is here that our Protestant brothers and sisters can help us.  Their focus on the personal relationship is actually something every single saint talks about.

I think there is a lot of fear in Catholics about the Protestants. We should never ever make decisions out of fear.  We can feel fear, but hand it to God, and walk in his confidence.  Fear is a beast that will eat you alive.  We are told so much that the Catholics have the fullness of the truth, which IS TRUE, but if the devil uses it to convince us that they are our enemy, then it becomes part of our own demise. Personal relationship through prayer is wholly important in our salvation. The Protestants who are listening to God and being obedient in all things will be led to the Catholic Church by the Holy Spirit – through their prayer. All roads lead to the Catholic Church for all Christians.  We don’t just need to disciple those who accept sin, but also those who live only by justice and cannot accept mercy. This is why Divine Mercy and Saint Faustina are so paramount.  This is the middle way.  It is imperative in these times to call on Saint Michael and his legions to protect our minds from the deceit of the evil one.

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Prayer to the Holy Spirit to Illuminate Mankind


“The Advocate, the holy Spirit that the Father will send in my name—he will teach you everything and remind you of all that [I] told you.” John 14:26


Lord Jesus, you came to destroy the works of the devil and to call us all children of God. 

You sent us the Advocate so that we may know your truth and rest in the bosom of the Father.

Hear our prayers and supplications Lord as we beg of you to help us in this time of darkness and confusion. 

Send us Angels in sufficient rank, number, power and authority to fight the demons off and away from us, to fight the demons off and away from our families, our communities and our nations.

We ask Our Lady and the entire Communion of Saints to intercede and pray on our behalf.   

We are your Mystical Body, and we ask for healing through forgiveness and restoration. 

Lord Jesus, rain down the Holy Spirit upon all of Mankind. 

Illuminate and convict each of us of who we are in your eyes. 

Show us how much you love us and comfort us as you reveal to us our faults.

Give us the strength and courage to surrender our sin to you, who alone can make us whole. 

May we turn back to you with our whole heart and be transformed in your image.

We implore you through the intercession of Saint Michael, lift the veil of confusion that plagues us. 

Lord, show us your mercy.

In this we give thanks and praise.

All Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, Amen.

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Betrayal – A Word To Our Leaders


and the Lord turned and looked at Peter; and Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how he had said to him, “Before the cock crows today, you will deny me three times.” – Luke 22:61

I was recently blindsided by something that left me momentarily feeling exposed, even betrayed.  Because I know God is in all things I took it to him to try to process what happened.  I knew clearly I was supposed to meditate on Jesus’ betrayal.  I did that for several days, and this morning God spoke.  He told me I was looking at it wrong.  He wanted me to meditate on how the Apostles felt betrayed by Jesus.

WHAT?  I exclaimed, “Lord, you are Perfect.  YOU DON’T BETRAY.”  “I know,” He said, “but do what I tell you.”

So I changed the perspective of how I was looking at things and I decided to put myself in Peter’s shoes instead of Jesus’.

It struck me then.  From the perspective of an Apostle, they could have felt betrayed by Jesus.  Here they had spent three years with Him.  They knew he could cast out demons, he could feed 5,000, he could heal the sick, heck, HE COULD CALM THE SEA.  Yet, here they find themselves with this Man who they thought was their Messiah, and he is being taken away, imprisoned, tortured and sentenced to death.

Peter reacts.  He draws his sword and begins to fight.  He knows Jesus can lay these people out flat.  Right?  Right?

But Jesus doesn’t.  And Peter STILL doesn’t understand.  This is because Peter doesn’t see from God’s perspective.  He STILL HAS A WORLDLY VIEW.

Peter wanted to conquer.  He just couldn’t see that Jesus is conquering.  He probably felt betrayed and confused.  He went into a very human mode.  FEAR.

Jesus was walking Peter down a very dangerous path, according to the world, and exposing him as a follower of Jesus.  He was putting him in harms way.  Peter, relying on himself, had to figure out a way to save himself.  Deny, deny, deny.  Peter feeling betrayed by Jesus, denies him out of fear because he couldn’t see what the heavenly realm was doing.  The things he thought were solid were just sand.  He had to have his whole perspective REBUILT on the solid ground of God’s Kingdom.  Because God knew, and knows still now, worldly danger is something we can conquer or overcome, but losing your salvation is far far more dangerous.

Peter’s first step as an actual leader of God’s people is an act of humility.  Weeping bitterly when he realizes what he has done after hearing the cock crow.

He went out and began to weep bitterly. Luke 22:62

This is his moment when he realizes Jesus never betrayed him, but it was he who, in his denial, betrayed the Savior.  This is the moment Peter leads.

It got me pondering too, that the one person who always had the Godly view in her heart was Mary.  She is the Mother of Mercy.  It is the reason why two of her sorrows are also two of her joys.  There is the view from the world that when she takes Jesus to Simeon and he prophecies that a sword will pierce her heart, this becomes a sorrow for her.  Knowing the path will lead to suffering.  Likewise, when she searches with anxiety for her lost child in Jerusalem.  But the Godly view recognizes these as joys.  The prophecy is that THE MESSIAH HAS COME TO SAVE US.  The finding in the temple, the prefigurement of the Kingdom of God.  HE IS IN HIS FATHERS HOUSE, AND SO SHOULD WE BE.  This is why even if she felt an emotion of hurt, she responds without sitting in the offense of it.  She trusts God’s larger plan.

So this pondering brought me to the church today.  There are two kinds of betrayal.  The kind that Judas did, which was outright evil and intentional, and the kind that Peter did, which based on his weakness and made out of fear.  He wasn’t intentionally trying to do wrong, but he did, because he relied on himself in reaction to the emotion of fear.  He was able to be lifted out of that because he repented in an act of humility which is how great leaders rise up.

I realized a couple of things, first, in my own situation, it actually had little to do with the other person, and everything to do with God’s perfection of me.  But second, it brought me to the current church crisis;

We are in a place where we see Cardinal against Cardinal, and Bishop against Bishop, as the prophecy of Our Lady of Akita speaks about.

I feel certain that there are Judas’ involved.  Those who intentionally chose evil.  But I also feel that there are Peter’s involved.  Those who out of fear acted relying on themselves instead of God.

The true leaders who fall into the latter category should weep bitterly and become transparent.  Be exposed.  Don’t get me wrong, all should repent, but the true leader would be like Peter;

When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.” He said to him, “Feed my lambs.”  He then said to him a second time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.” He said to him, “Tend my sheep.” He said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” Peter was distressed that he had said to him a third time, “Do you love me?” and he said to him, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.” [Jesus] said to him, “Feed my sheep. Amen, amen, I say to you, when you were younger, you used to dress yourself and go where you wanted; but when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.” John 21:15-18

As leaders, whether you are a Priest, a Bishop, a Cardinal or a Pope, you have the ability to heal, or to crush someone’s spirit.  Your job is to lead to heaven.  Lead us.  Even if it takes you in this world where you don’t want to go, because the alternative is harmful to your own soul, and to ours.  And Mercy wants heaven for you.  Mercy wants heaven for all of us, if only we would humble ourselves and listen.





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Tidbits, Timelines and Dates

Padre Pio

For prophecy never had its origin in the human will, but prophets, though human, spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit. 2 Peter 1:21

A word of caution here, I am not a big fan of prophecy chasing.  What I mean by that is I definitely believe in prophecy and I definitely believe in heeding the warnings of prophets.  Especially the warnings of Fatima and Akita.  I believe it is okay to read and ponder all that has been said.   What I don’t believe in is trying to know the future, as if we can exact some measure of control over it.  God is the one in control, not us.  When we try to grasp at that which is not ours to grasp we will get smacked down and humbled.  Every. Single. Time.  At least I do anyway.  Whenever I think I know what God planned, I get shown how I didn’t know.  And how God’s plans are beyond my comprehension.  And when we try to know the future it induces fear and anxiety, which pulls us away from God.  We can have a general idea of things, we can even know possibly some detail, but what we don’t know is much larger.  And it is in not knowing we must hand ourselves over to complete trust.  Mostly when God points something out to me, he tells me to PAY ATTENTION.  I do pay attention, I record what He tells me, but it is often only in hindsight that I get the full meaning of what He was telling me.  There is one thing that He tells me over and over, and that is what He seeks from us is union with His will.  He wants us to walk in trust regardless of the storms around us.  He wants us to guard our hearts from evil, which includes not spitting vitriol at our fellow man, which is so so common these days.  The preparation He wants is Spiritual.  Ask for the Gifts of the Spirit.  Ask for your heart and mind to be guarded and call on the angels to assist you with this.  Saint Michael, in particular, should be called on for guarding your mind against false ideology.

So with that said, I just want to simply point out something God keeps showing me.  It is certain dates and certain things to pray for.  I have no idea what it actually means or when they become very important, but I know God wants me to pay attention to them.  As with all things use prayer and discernment.

First, he has been telling me to pray for Panama for almost three years.  He asked me to start praying before it was announced as the place for World Youth Day.  Why?  I don’t know.  We should always always be praying for our Youth, especially for protection of their innocence.  He also pointed out to me that the Blood Moon happens just before World Youth Day.

He also insistently tells me to pray for the Pope.  That’s a no brainer, we should all be doing that.

The date that most often is pointed out to me is September 23.  That is Saint Padre Pio’s Feast day and the day that he died in 1968.  But it also happens to correspond with the following;

Tradition teaches that John the Baptist was conceived on September 23.  He was the prophet who paved the way for Christ.

On September 23, 1973, 5 years after Padre Pio’s death, the Statue of Mary started weeping in Akita, Japan. 

On September 23, 2017, we saw Revelation 12 happen in the sky.

On September 23, 2018 the Jewish Sukkot, also known as the Feast of Tabernacles, started.

This year, the Feast of Tabernacles starts on October 13, 2019.  This corresponds with the last appearance of Our Lady at Fatima.

I don’t really know why this all stands out to me, except I know we are supposed to pray.  I know that we need an outpouring of the Holy Spirit.

As with all things pray and discern.  I thought I would let you all out there know, not so you can worry, but so you can pray.  As you know prayer is powerful and can change things.

God Bless all of you during 2019, may we all grow closer to the Lord.


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Suffer Well


Mystical Body of Christ

For as with the human body which is a unity although it has many parts — all the parts of the body, though many, still making up one single body — so it is with Christ. We were baptised into one body in a single Spirit, Jews as well as Greeks, slaves as well as free men, and we were all given the same Spirit to drink. – 1 Corinthians 12:12-13


By: Ashley Blackburn and Susan Skinner


We are one body in Christ.  I don’t think we understand this yet.  Until we do, we will live in a perpetual state of discord.  The Mystical Body of Christ will heal when we understand and want the salvation of other people.  Not in the sense that we want to control them, which comes from a spirit of control, but because we love them.  From that love we want to know them and see them as part of the Mystical Body of Christ.

If we picture all of us as part of this Body, we would stop slinging poison arrows at one another, and we would start trying to heal the broken part.  We all focus so much on our own suffering and wanting out of it that we forget that our responses and reactions affect other people.  Suffering is part of this world.   Christ told us;

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

People tend to think that holiness means you don’t suffer.  We look at the Blessed Virgin, who is the perfect human being and we think, “She is perfect,” and we conclude that it must have been easy for her.  It’s true she was born without original sin.  So was Eve.  And the biggest difference between Eve and Mary is that Mary actually knew what evil was.  Eve didn’t, she had never seen it.  But did this perfection of Mary mean she didn’t suffer?  Of course not.  We need only look at her sorrows to see the stark realization of how much she actually suffered.  She suffered more than most.  So the question becomes what did she do with the suffering?  She used her suffering for us. 

Redemptive suffering is a sacrifice of our own free choice, putting aside our human will in order to choose the Will of God, imitating Jesus’ passion and participating in the redemption of the collective Body of Christ.  Mary exemplified this.  It does not always mean we endure physical pain in order to participate in redemptive suffering, though that is certainly one way we can. There are many ways that we participate in this, both big and small. For example, praying for our neighbor is a smaller sacrifice, but a sacrifice nonetheless. Praying for others usually takes us away from our own plans, our own prayers for ourselves, our own agendas. It means offering the time we spend in prayer for another, instead of for ourselves, or maybe spending more time in prayer than we typically do in order to offer up the additional prayers for those in need.  When was the last time you prayed for someone who irritated you?  Instead of railing against them, and calling your friends to complain and gossip, what if you actually prayed?  Even and especially if you didn’t feel like it.  We should not be ruled by feelings, but by our soul which should be aligned with the Will of God.  

This small sacrifice to pray for our neighbor is no small thing at all. In fact in our offering prayers for our neighbor, we are actually participating in the redemption of the collective Body of Christ.  All sacrifices, both big and small, are an act of love for another, where we lay down our life for our friend. For the majority of us, this does not mean actual martyrdom like Jesus did for us. Rather it is a setting aside of the happenings of our own life, in order to offer support, through prayer and sacrifice, for another, in order to build the collective Body of Christ. Jesus tells us and showed us that this is the greatest act of love, to lay down our lives for our friends.  When we begin to pray for others as if they were part of our own body, something amazing happens to US.  Not to mention what the prayers do for them.  This is why we are a COMMUNION OF SAINTS.  We are not meant to be in this alone.  

In order to understand HOW to do this we must look to Jesus’ passion, where he laid down his life for us. Meditate on the Passion of Christ.  What we will notice is that Jesus didn’t resist the suffering in any way. He endured to the end in humble obedience to the plan of his Father. Jesus knew that his passion was in God’s plan, he trusted that God’s plan was better than what his human will was telling him. In the Garden, Jesus asked God to remove the suffering, a request of his human will, but only if it meant God’s Will would still be done. His human will wanted to avoid the suffering, but he ultimately chose to submit to the Will of God and was obedient to that over and above his own will.

During the passion we also know that Christ forgave his accusers and executioners in the midst of his suffering. He didn’t hold a grudge. He looked at them through the eyes of Divine Mercy. So amidst the sinful people that surrounded him that day, as well as all those who lived both before and after him, Jesus showed us how to make reparation through our suffering for the sins of others. His freely giving of himself for all of humanity and loving despite the injustice, ingratitude, misunderstanding, denial, rejection and everything else that humanity has done and will do to him, is the ultimate act of reparation. If we want to overcome our suffering, we must follow what Jesus did, which was to forgive and love others despite his circumstance and despite their not having done anything to deserve his love. Unconditional love is what defeats the attempts of Satan to break us down and convince us to sin because of the intense suffering that we are in.

Redemptive suffering is more than just offering a prayer for someone in the midst of our pain. It is repairing the damage done to the collective Body of Christ through the sinful acts of others. It is an ever weaving thread of Gods love that mends the broken parts, heals the sick parts and restores the damage done to the body, bringing it back to life. Jesus, the Body of Christ, who is the full revelation of God’s Word, accomplished this in his passion and death. We, the faithful who collectively makeup the Body of Christ, are called to do the same. To participate in the redemption of the Body through our own self sacrificial love for others.  Mary lived this.

The vast array of human beings who make up the collective Body of Christ are living in many different parts of the world and are in varying degrees of personal relationship with Christ. With Jesus as the head and the heart of the Body, through which we are led and given life, the rest of the Body must sacrifice itself, along with the head and heart, in order to aid another part that is hurting. The hurting body part may be in pain from it’s own doing, just as the executioners of Jesus were intentionally causing pain and suffering to the Body of Christ. But Jesus shows us that even in this situation he chose to forgive, to exemplify self sacrificing love in order to shower his Divine Mercy out upon them in the hope of their healing and restoration. He sacrificed his very life, although he could have stopped the whole thing, in order to forgive and heal instead of cutting off all the people who had turned away from him and choose to give in to their own will instead of choosing to follow the Will of God. Likewise, our own acts of self-sacrifice love, despite the deservedness of the other, is what makes reparation for their sinful presence within the Body of Christ. But instead of cutting them off completely, they remain through Divine Mercy.  If our own physical body was not functioning, we would make every effort to get it to function, especially through prayer.  We would have mercy on our broken body part, so we must extend this mercy that we would give to ourselves, to others.  Love God.  Love your neighbor as yourself.  One freely flows from the other.  

If we look back on our lives, we all have been helped by other parts of the Body during times of our own sinfulness. As Jesus explained it to Mary Magdalene and the disciples, those who are forgiven much, love much.  In this same way, those who have been suffered for and prayed for because of their sin, those who have come out on the other side restored back to the Body and saved from their sin, are those who have the capacity of great love for other sinners in the Body who are struggling. It is those saved sinners who have the duty and call to that same self sacrificial, often times hidden, love from one part of the Body to another.

The promise of God is perfect union with Him in eternal life. This is what we are called to hold onto in all things, the good and bad, because we trust in God and believe that he wants what is best for us for all eternity. Our journey on this earth is short and it does not include the promise of a life free of suffering in this world. Just look at the numerous stories of God’s people in scripture. Just read the story of Job. But the promise of God is true and it is revealed once and for all through the resurrection of Jesus. As Christians, our hope lies in what is to come, our eternity. But we don’t have to wait until eternity to bring the Kingdom of God here.  Our Saints showed us what this looks like.  It is called complete sanctification.  It is our duty to help make reparation for all sinners until they are able to come to their own personal conversion and eternal reward. Through our self-sacrificial love, imitating Jesus Christ in his passion and death, we too participate in the redemption of the world.   We are one Body in Christ, and we do not stand alone.  Don’t waste your suffering.  Suffer well, it brings healing. 

Have a safe and Blessed New Year!

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Strange Dream, Strange Day, and the Illumination of Conscience

Russian Orthodox Priest1


With one heart all these joined constantly in prayer, together with some women, including Mary the mother of Jesus, and with his brothers. Acts 1:14

Perhaps it’s because it was the darkest day of the year, or because of the full moon, but I had a very weird dream last night that I am still trying to unpack because it seemed so very real.  Then at Mass this morning I had a moment with God.  I will try to explain all of it here.

First my dream;

In the dream my neighbors,  who had moved away, came back for a visit.  And the family who bought their house left to let them stay for awhile.  When I went into the house to say hello it was different, bigger on the inside… Almost like the interior courtyard of a Castle, with outdoor space in the center and a stage.  They told me they were getting ready for our Bishop to come over to the Castle to say Mass because he was going to confirm their son, and they were good friends with the Bishop.  I tried to call my family but I had one of those old flip phones and I couldn’t get it to work right, when I finally got through it was my brother who I ended up talking to.  He said he already went to Mass but he sent my daughter over.

I sit down waiting for Mass to begin and there’s like 10,000 people that show up and fill up the courtyard.  There appears to be stadium seating, and the people coming in are more like the dregs of humanity.  My daughter ends up behind me, and I end up in between these two men who I think are scammers.  They are both tattoed all over.  They actually pull out and start doing drugs next to me.  Cocaine.

I don’t get scared I get MAD.

I ask them “don’t you believe in Jesus?”  A few gather around me in a circle and laugh.  It’s very intimidating, but I am angry.

One of them says he does believe.  But he is high as a kite, eyes glazed over, total tatoos, like arm sleeve of tatoos and an injured arm.

I look at him super intently and I say, “Do you believe in Jesus?”  He says, “yes.”  The other men laugh.  I say louder “DO YOU BELIEVE IN JESUS?”  He says, “yes.”  I say, “Do you want to be healed of this addiction? “ He cries, and says it can’t happen.  I say, “DO YOU WANT TO BE HEALED OF THIS ADDICTION?”  He says very weakly, “yes.”

I realize at this point that I am actually surrounded by demons.

I close my eyes and I call out “Lord Jesus, I ask you to send angels in sufficient, rank, number, power and authority to surround me, this place, and this gentleman here, so they can fight the demons off and away from us.”

I place my hand on his chest.   I am not nervous AT ALL, and the words are fed to me from heaven.  I can actually feel them physically pour over me.  I say, “Lord Jesus, all the angels and saints who I ask for intercession, I ask that the Holy Spirit be poured out upon this man so he can be made whole.  I command, Jesus in your name, that the spirit of addiction leave this man now.  I ask for total healing and health for him.  He is your child and you love him. In your name I pray this, Amen.”

I open my eyes, all the other men that had been there have walked away.  It is just me, my daughter and this guy.

He is crying.  All of his tatoos are gone.  His skin is smooth.  His eyes are clear.  His arm has experienced healing.  He is just thanking me.  I tell him it wasn’t me and I turn to see if the Mass has begun and where we are in the Mass.  I try texting some friends to tell them what happened but the phone is all shot to hell.

I grab my daughter and go up to the front and people are lined up… but it’s not for communion.  It’s like they replaced communion with something else and they’re trying to get people to sniff this incense.  It is a pipe looking thing that has smoke coming out of it and smells like incense.  A woman stands next to me and wants to receive communion, but tells me she isn’t Catholic.  I look at her and tell her she can’t receive but also that this isn’t communion and I don’t know what they’re doing.  The Priests look like they’re from a different Rite because of how they’re dressed.  Upon looking it up it the morning I recognize it as Russian Orthodox.  Children are in the center of the field putting what looks like matza wafers on a tray.  I wonder if it’s those that will be used for communion after the sniffing of incense is over.

I can’t figure out what’s happening or going on.  It’s all very confused, and I don’t want to sniff the incense.  I get a bad feeling.

One of the Priests puts his hand on the non-Catholic lady’s head and blesses her, but I can’t understand the blessing, she starts to cry.

Suddenly my husband appears in a car and says we have to get out of there.  I can’t find my daughter though.  I get in the car and we proceed to look for her.  I feel certain she is with the other children putting the matza on a tray.   I wake up before I find her….

After I woke up I pondered this for awhile.  There were so many things going on.  So many things that stood out.  The main thing to me though was that it was the children who seemed to be preparing for communion.

Then he said, “I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven.  Matthew 18:3

I didn’t have a lot of time to think over the dream because we had to get ready for Mass.  The Mass was beautiful.  The Priest talked about the first time he personally encountered Christ and how it changed his life forever.  He reminded us to help bring that encounter to those who will come on Christmas.  If we can help them encounter Christ, perhaps they will come more than twice a year.  He was so passionate about his encounter with Christ, you just KNEW it happened.

After communion I came back to my pew and knelt down to pray.  The Lord just started pouring over me.  As you already know, I try my best to interpret what is being said to me, and I write it in the form of a letter from God to me.  I wrote it down as soon as I got home because it was words and a vision in my head God gave me while I was in prayer.  This is what I recorded;



The illumination of conscience, the warning, a rescue for many, will happen when the faithful collectively ask for it.  Understand you are one body.  Like when a sickness or a cancer attacks a body, the rest of the body must respond trying to repair.  The white blood cells attack the sickness,  changes appear in the body, and thousands of reactions take place to begin to heal the sickness and not let it take over.  If the body does not work properly the sickness can bring death.  The body of Christ must also react properly to help save one another from death.  The spirit resides in each one of you and with one heart the faithful constantly joined in prayer can, through my power, heal the whole body.  Call upon the spirit to convict the hearts of your fellow man and I will send down the spirit like a violent wind with tongues of fire from the sky.  I will show all of you who you are.  I will show all of you how you are loved and how you have rejected my love.  It is my hour of mercy before the day of justice.  We are one body.  Operate that way. 

Be fearless and speak out. 

– Abba

He showed me the Apostles and Mary praying in the upper room before Pentecost.

We all tend to be angry at our fellow man.  It is like being angry at your leg if it is not working properly.  We may actually do that, get angry at our leg.  But what we wouldn’t want is to cut it off.  We would do everything in our power to help our leg work properly.  It is the same with our fellow man, and fervent prayer, asking God for conviction of heart for all of us, this will help to heal our Mystical Body.

In my prayer, I physically saw a sick body, but it lit up when collective prayer was prayed… You could see the light killing the dark sickness, the way electricity or lightening lights up the sky at night when it’s dark.  It eradicated the darkness and brought light to the body.

He impressed upon me that we all need to be shown who we are, and that all of us will be humbled.  ALL OF US.  He is making us holy. We need to ask the Lord to convict us and others. Conviction shows us we are totally loved and it compels is to change our sinful ways.

On this, the eve of Christmas eve, I don’t really know what to make of everything.  I think God wants to send His mercy, His healing power upon us.  What He most wants is for us to walk in His will.  There are five things that bring us the Kingdom of heaven.  These are actually things we can embrace and do here and now;

  1. Be baptized by water and the Spirit.  John 3:5 (Baptism, Confirmation)
  2. Eat of His flesh and Drink of His Blood.  John 6:53 (Eucharist)
  3. Confess with your mouth and believe in your heart. Romans 10:9 (Faith)
  4. Turn from your sins and be like children. Matthew 18:3 (Repent, Confession)
  5. Do the will of the Father in Heaven. Matthew 7:21 (Do God’s will)

Embrace your Baptism and Baptismal promises.  Embrace your Confirmation that brings the gifts of the Spirit. Repent of your sins by going to Confession.  Receive the Eucharist with a humble and contrite heart, one filled with faith and belief.  Ask for your will to be one with the Father.  And pray for your fellow man.

Have a Blessed Christmas.  May we all become like little children as the Christ child comes into our homes.

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Circle of Authority



Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.

Ephesians 5:15-16
I have written to before about how people who are changed by Jesus have a personal encounter with Him.
We are living in very strange days.  News travels instantly.  We know of many wrongs committed on the other side of the world within days.  Technology can be a blessing because we can use the knowledge we gain to pray for and help people.
But technology can also be a curse.  It can muddy the waters of our circle of authority which can cause feelings of hopelessness and rage.  Satan will feed on the rage.  Satan will use the rage against you to convince you of your “rightness.”
We all have authority given to us by God.  It is our domain.  The devil stole our domain in the garden.  He constantly tries to steal it today by tempting us to sin.  People give their domain away all the time.  They give it to the devil by sinning.  Sometimes they try to give it to you when they don’t know how to handle something.  Counselors would call this a boundary issue.  I call it a domain issue.  Stay within your circle of authority and your life becomes more manageable and less anxiety filled.
For most of us our domain is ourselves, our homes, our spouses, our children, and our work.  When we step beyond this area, where we actually have God given authority, we can get ourselves in trouble.  This is because we actually end up taking on demons that aren’t ours to take on.  And then suddenly we find ourselves out of control.
Facebook is a MASTER at stealing domain.  Suddenly we have access to people, places and things that are WAY OUTSIDE our normal circle.  And then when a conversation spirals out of control, then up a clock tower we go with rage.
For every interaction we have, we should be asking God and ourselves, what is actually under my control in this situation?  9 times out of 10 none of it is, except for the fact that we can pray.  That is in our control.  This lack of control makes us react in strange ways.  Mostly I see anger, rage, emotional exhaustion and tunnel vision.
As time moves forward and the world gets more and more in a frenzy it is important to stay within your area of authority that God has given you.  People have sometimes asked me to speak for them or act for them.  I do not feel guilty saying no.  What they want me to speak or act about doesn’t fall under my domain.  And if I speak for them I take on their demons.  And life gets a lot harder.
Pray always.  Know where your authority lies.  Exert your authority with love.  Deal with the people right in front of you and not beyond that.  If you go beyond that you will burn out with exhaustion or be filled with fury.  I see many people withdrawing from social media now.  They have taken on too many demons not their own.  When this happens it is actually wise to remove yourself.
In the coming days Satan is going to try everything, and I mean everything in his power to take that domain and have you reacting instead of consciously acting in the will of the Father.  Be awake and aware.  Do not fall asleep.
But if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God who gives to all generously and ungrudgingly, and he will be given it. James 1:5
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