Spirit Led Rosary


In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.  Romans 8:26-27

A few months back a friend of mine came to visit and she spoke to us about a Holy Spirit Led Rosary.  After listening, I knew this was something I wanted to partake in so I put the word out to see if anyone was interested.  We had ten women say yes.  This weekend six of us were able to meet (4 were on vacation), and together we prayed.  It was very beautiful.  I wanted to share with you all the fruit of what happened with it for me.  But before I do that, I thought I would outline for you how to pray a Spirit led Rosary from the instructions given to me by my friend.

Spirit led Rosary is one prayed with a group where we record what the Holy Spirit tells us in between decades.  The Holy Spirit May speak through scripture, a word, an image, or phrase.  Sometimes you may not get anything.  The idea is to pray together and at the end compare notes, and collectively see where the Holy Spirit leads the group.  Our particular group prayed with the intention of making our Diocese our parishes and ministry endeavors beacons of hope.
Here are the things you need in order to do this;
1. A Bible
2. A Notebook
3. Holy Water
4. It is recommended that women wear a veil.
5. Discern who should lead the Rosary.
6. This Rosary will be prayed at a slower pace than a normal Rosary.
7. You open with Veni Sancte Spiritus or another Holy Spirit prayer.
8. You also pray prayers of protection against false gifts and any evil.
9. You ask for the intercession of Mary and the Angels.
10. You call on the Holy Spirit in between each decade.
This is the format you should follow.  Opening with prayers of protection and the Veni Sancte Spiritus and going from there.  Prayers of protection are definitely needed because the evil one will try to attack, perhaps by convincing one member of the group that they aren’t good enough to be there, or by sending false messages.  The sacramentals are wonderful gifts to have for this purpose also.  We prayed Come Holy Spirit in between each of the decades, which were prayed at a slower pace and we recorded what was told to us in our journals.  At the end we shared with one another what the Lord told us and we began to see some themes running through our prayer.  The consecration to the Blessed Mother, or the importance of Mary in your prayer life was one.  Praying for Priests and Bishops was another.  Having Hope and staying rooted in the Sacraments.  Praying for a Pentecost for the faithful (illumination of Conscience).  And Keeping our eyes on Christ.  This was the fruit of the first Spirit led Rosary.
I wanted to share with you some of what I wrote during this.  As you already know I record what pops in my head as letters to me from God.  I will state again, if anything I have written the church ends up saying is wrong, then the church is right and I am wrong.
We had chosen to pray the Sorrowful Mysteries yesterday because we are in the Lenten Season.  It was the second Sorrowful Mystery and the Fourth Sorrowful Mystery that weighed upon me the most.  I will share the excerpts from my journal;
2nd Sorrowful Mystery


Look at my hand chained to the stone pillar.  I put my hands there voluntarily.  I held that rock pillar in the palms of my hands as the world unleashed the fury upon me.  Even those who were my own, unleashing the fury of hatred upon me as I held that rock.  So too the world and those within the church whom the enemy has poisoned unleash their fury on the rock of my church.  DO NOT DESPAIR.  Know who it is who holds the rock.  I AM and I never let go and the gates of hell shall not prevail against you.  You were made for these times.  Pray for your Bishop (named him).


It was here that I found great comfort from the Lord.  That amidst all these storms He is holding the church in His hands.

We continued to pray.  When we got to the fourth Sorrowful Mystery, I saw in my head Simon of Cyrene and Jesus looking intensely at one another.  Suddenly, Jesus turned into a Priest I knew.  And I became Simon.  And the Priest turned into another Priest I knew.  Faces of the Priests I knew carrying a heavy cross.  I just started basically sobbing, though I tried to hold it in.  (I think the other ladies must have wondered what was up with me.)  The Lord impressed upon me how much His Priests are actually carrying His cross, especially the good and Holy ones.  But His greatest sadness was for those who actually are rejecting His mercy, the ones who lack belief.  He asked me to be Simon, he asks us to be Simon.  That when the cross goes from one set of shoulders to two, the burden becomes lighter.  What if we all carry it?  What if we actually operate together?  Here is what I recorded;


Throughout my walk on the Passion mercy was extended to me in small ways by those who took part in the Passion walk.  They partook in your redemption making reparation for the sins of the world.  Veronica who wiped my face, the women who cried for me… My Mother.  Then Simon helped me to carry the Cross.  He became a conduit of MY MERCY to the whole world.  Today I ask you to BE SIMON for MY PRIESTS.  They are under attack.  Some of them reject MY MERCY and my offer of holiness.  It is for these I ask that you pray the most and to carry the cross in prayer.  Pray and sacrifice for all of your Priests.  Refrain from criticizing them.


I want to be clear here too.  He did not say, “refrain from correcting them if they are in error.”  He said “refrain from criticizing them.”  There is a difference.  And He showed me just how efficacious prayer for them is.

I cannot tell you the weight of what I felt on the Priests.  I was a mess inside and tried to keep my tears from becoming loud sobs.  Jesus’ heart is heavy for them.  He is calling us, the Mystical Body, to help lighten their load.

It is my hope that we all pray from our hearts and listen to the Holy Spirit because during these confusing times the Holy Spirit brings us the clarity we need to see the next step on the path ahead.

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How to Truly Love Mean People

Last Judgement Hellmouth

Hellmouth by Giacomo Rossignolo

 “But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. Luke 6:27-28

We know that we are in a battle with powers and principalities, but what we struggle with the most is how to battle them.  We fight people instead of demons and this is where we lose the battles.  When you are in covenant with God, by virtue of your baptism, you hand your enemies to God.  This means let God deal with the people.  We battle demons.  It requires putting on Spiritual Eyes.  It requires knowing whose voice and Kingdom you are listening to, and being able to recognize this with others.

How do you do this when toxic people seem to surround us?  How do you do this when your parent, your spouse, your child, who aren’t even your enemies, fling yet another poison arrow at you and offend your heart?  Let alone dealing with those who just are outright mean…  We know we do this through forgiveness.  By forgiving completely.  But it seems impossible when they fling poison again and again.  We respond by fighting back at them and the devil laughs as he watches us destroy our relationships with one another.  We must also understand that forgiveness does not mean people should not have consequences for their actions.

First and foremost, you must KNOW in your heart that you are loved totally and completely by God.  When you rest securely in God’s love you can walk with confidence not in self hatred or despair.  When you know God loves you, which He totally and completely does, it becomes easier to forgive because you know the poison arrows flung at you by others are not true.  You must discern what is a poison arrow of accusation, and what is actually true and where you may need to repent.  When you walk in God’s love, it is harder to be offended.  You recognize when someone corrects you and it is true and you don’t get offended, and you recognize when someone is just down right mean and you need to forgive.  The purpose of what I am about to describe is for those times when someone is just plain mean.

When someone is lobbing accusations at you that are not true, picture in your minds eye that there is a demon wrapping themselves around that person and squeezing them.  They cannot get free because they are trapped in wounds of un-forgiveness themselves.  As they hurl insults at you, just picture the demon squeezing them so hard it’s like an injection of poison instead of air that they breathe, so when they speak the only thing that can come back out is poison and it comes out at you.

You have two choices when this happens.  You can let the poison enter you and fling it back out at them in defense of yourself which actually invites demons to attack you OR you can fight spiritually.  You recognize what they’re saying isn’t true and that it says more about them and who they are listening to than it says about you.  It is in these moments that you can turn this into prayer for them.  Prayer that they be freed from the demon that is wrapped around them.  When we do this we start, by the power of prayer, to loosen the grip the demon has on them.  When we ask for the intercession of the angels and saints, they come to our aid loosening the grip and fighting the demon who has them in bondage.  The Angels and Saints are in a state of grace so they have more power than any demon because that grace was gifted to them by God.  It is how the Mystical Body of Christ should be operating, all of us working together to loosen and free people from the grip of the demonic.  The more you pray and speak love out of your mouth, the more you are a conduit to change in others.

If we can look at people this way, we would stop flinging poison back at people and we would be praying a lot more.   And we would see a drastic change in the world.  When we see the world this way we are hating intelligently.  We are hating the demon wrapped around them instead of them.  We recognize the demonic as our enemy and realize the person is not our enemy.  We actively fight the demon who is trying to crush them.  We are willing the good of the other and the salvation of the other, working with the Mystical Body to bring about a pouring of grace upon another person.  Christ could see all of this, and it is why He went to the cross to overcome it and teach us how to overcome it through Him.  This is why all things should begin in prayer.  Call upon the Saints and Angels to intercede for people who harm you.  In time the Angels and Saints who battle with us will have these people resting in their arms instead of being devoured by hell.

Jesus in Gethsamane

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The Offering


Jesus is taken down from the Cross and given to his Mother

Over the past few years whenever we come upon the season of Lent I always try to ask the Lord and what exactly is it that HE wants me to do for Lent.  This is because a couple of years back there was a time I was doing so many devotions I was overwhelmed and exhausted.  One day just before Lent a few years ago, when I was angsting over what else I should be doing, I was sitting in the chapel and suddenly the Lord told me to “stop it.”  I was shocked.  “Lord, you want me to STOP my devotions?”  He replied, “you’re trying to earn my love but you already have it.  You never lost it.  Listen to me and I will guide your Lent.” I cried in thanksgiving, realizing once again that I was trying to save myself instead of letting Him be my Savior.

This began another turning point in my prayer.  You see, I love Him so much I wanted to make all of these sacrifices,  but I was doing it of my own accord, without consulting Him.  That Lent became very fruitful for me because most of what I ended up doing (besides the Rosary which I commit to daily) was just sitting in the chapel talking to him.  I let him guide my prayer.  On certain days he would lead me to a particular devotion or scripture passage for that day, and other days we just sat;  And He wrapped His arms around me.  It was here in these intimate moments with my divine spouse that I felt the most revelation pour over me.  I have noticed that many of us, myself included, who know the truths of the church and are actually trying to follow them, sometimes we do things out of fear instead of out of love and this fear brings about a spirit of control.  This spirit will exhaust you and wear you out.  Consult the Lord in all you do because this brings peace, not exhaustion.  It also brings joy even and especially in the midst of the storm surrounding the church.  The institutional church seems to be spiraling out of control with scandals and infighting, and yet, in the midst of it, I have never felt closer to God.  This is because of surrender.  I cannot control the scandals, nor punish for them, and so I just have to let go, pray, and trust.  Jesus I trust in you.  I feel 100% certain that God is a way better savior than me (lol).   I will not lose my faith because of the scandal of men.  I believe the Lord when He says;

Beloved, do not look for revenge but leave room for the wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay,”says the Lord.  Romans 12:19

This passage goes on to say;

Rather, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head.” Do not be conquered by evil but conquer evil with good. Romans 12:20-21

So who am I that I should doubt the Lord?  I will continue to treat people with love (hopefully).

So here we are today, and I still just before starting Lent ask the Lord what He wants me to do.  This Lent He wanted me to focus on the sorrows of His Mother, which I have spoken about before along with meditation on His Holy Face.  The sorrows of His Mother who walked the path to Calvary with Him, this is a powerful devotion.

I have a peaceful place in my home where I go to pray:

Peaceful place

I kneel in front of His Holy Face and I pray the Chaplet of Sorrows.  Y’all can see the box of tissue on the floor, something I have needed quite a bit lately.   This prayer has become immensely intense for me.  I sometimes, in between each chaplet, cry and lament my sorrow to Christ and His Mother for the sins of the world.  And Mary showed me something yesterday.  She showed me herself standing at the foot of the Cross with John and the women.  She showed me herself holding the Body of her Dead Son.  She was saying a prayer.  I recognized the prayer.  “Eternal Father, I offer you the Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity of my dearly beloved Son, in atonement for their sins, and those of the whole world.”   It was the prayer of mercy that Saint Faustina gave to us.  It was as if she showed me she was the first to pray it, though she without sin, prayed it for us.  She was making an offering of Him for us.  In her humanity, in her pain, she still knew God’s plan was greater and she was offering for us because she was resting in the will of the Father.  She shows us how.  She made the offering for those who were immediately surrounding her, and for all of us.   And Jesus, had given her to John just before He passed.  A Priest at her side while Jesus made the perfect sacrifice, and she too offered Him for us.  The way the church offers Him to us through the Priest at Mass.  And it made me realize the church herself, because she is guided by the Holy Spirit, is resting in the will of the Father and the sins of men shall not prevail against her.  And I wept.

Mary, our Mother, not only said yes to birthing Him, she said yes to giving Him back to the Father so we could be saved by Him.  And I thought about the Mass and how I should want to offer all I have on the altar as well and how the church brings this opportunity to us.    To give back to God what was His to begin with because by doing this it will help me love others the way that He does; the way that His Mother does.  Myself, my spouse, my children, my home, my work, my finances, my fertility, they all belong to Him.  None of it is mine.  I should be making this offering on the altar too, placing all of that there, for His plan for all of it is greater than any plan of mine.  Every single suffering and gift I have had, if I lay it on the altar and offer like Mary did, her son can bring resurrection to my life.   I intellectually know this, but here with this devotion my heart was infused with this knowledge.

All of these devotions we have, they are connected to one another.  The Chaplet of Sorrows connected me to Divine Mercy.  The Sacred Heart, it is Divine Mercy.  The Immaculate Heart brings us Divine Mercy.  This is all linked to the Eucharistic Sacrifice.  This Mercy wants to bring us everlasting life so give all of yourself at Mass, and no matter which devotion you do this Lent, make sure you let Him lead it because He will bring you Mercy, which brings you God’s peace.

Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion — inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself.


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When Jesus Comes Again


“Then comes the end, when he hands over the kingdom to his God and Father, when he has destroyed every sovereignty and every authority and power.  For he must reign until he has put all his enemies under his feet. The last enemy to be destroyed is death, for “he subjected everything under his feet.” But when it says that everything has been subjected, it is clear that it excludes the one who subjected everything to him.When everything is subjected to him, then the Son himself will [also] be subjected to the one who subjected everything to him, so that God may be all in all.” 1 Corinthians 24-28

So these are the posts I very much dislike.  God seems to be speaking to me about His second coming.  I know very little about eschatology and the second coming.  I post this because I felt God compel me to speak about it.  Every time I pick up a book to read about these things, I just cannot seem to get through it.  Like God is telling me, STOP.  JUST LISTEN.  So I stop, and I just listen.  If the church came out tomorrow and said all I have written is wrong, I would agree, and take down my writing.  I write what pops into my head in prayer as a letter from God.  I will share with you what He spoke to me today.  What I can most glean from what He says to me is that we are not in the end times.  We have work to do, for our own souls and for future generations.  Too many things haven’t happened for it to be the end times.  I will relay what he spoke to me;


I have told you when I will return.  I came to destroy the works of the devil.  I will hand over the kingdom to my Father when the works of the devil are destroyed.  Every sovereignty and authority under my foot.  That happens when the foot of each human being created in my image and likeness steps on the head of the serpent and domain is restored to where the Father had given it.  Restoration to the Divine Will.  Your Divinization.  A new heaven and a new earth.  The 7th covenant.  Resting in ME.  Resting in MY WILL.  All things a movement towards this, creating the 8th day.  Resurrection of the Body, world without end.  A new beginning.  When this is accomplished it is because I have reached the 4 corners of the earth.  The tribulation you are in is part of the plan, but not the end.  Keep watch.  
There are some among you who will betray.  There are some who will deny.  There are many who will run away.  But behold, I make all things new and work all things for the good OF THOSE WHO LOVE ME.  Many will weep bitterly.
Look upon my HOLY FACE and KNOW what TRUE LOVE IS.  
SHALOM I say to you.
Peace that surpasses understanding. 
Pay attention to the skies.
Pay attention to the maps.
Locations where I have placed my people. 
I have BREATHED UPON YOU, and my spirit rests upon you.  
The ARK carries you.
Cling to her the way a babe clings to his mother in the dark of night.
I have chosen you for these times. 
I love you and you are mine.
Pray for perseverance.
Pray for Nashville.
Pray for your Bishop.
Pray for your Priest (a specific one)
 – Your Divine Spouse
There are a few things I want to say about what I have written here.  The first is that we know there were 6 covenants in the bible.  The first was Adam and Eve and the covenant was marriage, Noah was the family, Abraham was the tribe, Moses was the nation, David was the Kingdom, and Jesus’ was for the world.  But we also know 6 is an incomplete number.  The number of completion is 7.  On the 7th day He rested.  We should rest, in the bosom of the Lord.  Everything is a movement back to the Divine Will.  It is a story of Love that God has written.  It is an infusion of Heaven and earth, the way it was before the fall.  We are not there yet.  In fact, we are quite far from there.  Only God knows when we will be there.  But the journey for us is to do the work in front of us, being obedient to God.
I had a moment today.  It was a memory of Eva before she passed away.  She had told me back then she died on the table, she felt the other side.  She said it’s all about forgiveness.  I wept in the hallway at work today at the recollection of this memory.  This is the focus of what we do in deliverance ministry.  We teach people to truly forgive.   It really is all about forgiveness.  Christ will come again when we put our foot on the devil’s head, all of us.  And we do that through Baptism into His Kingdom, living the Sacramental Life, but most of all by forgiving others like Christ did.  This kind of forgiveness is really a Divine Infusion of Grace.  This kind of love, this kind of charity is a gift that we cannot gain on our own.  It is only through God.  It is why I pray for the illumination of conscience.  I pray for this, because this is where we will all see mercy; How we need it, and how we should give it.  Christ is making great Saints.  Saints for a time to dispel the confusion.
This Lent I will focus on the Holy Face of Jesus and ask for the Divine Grace to always forgive as he forgives.
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4 Hearts Sacred and Complete


 So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.  Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!  All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:  that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.  We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.   God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. – 2 Corinthians 16-21


My friend James created this for me.  It is the 4 hearts, Sacred Heart of Jesus, Immaculate Heart of Mary, Guardian Heart of Saint Joseph, and the Beloved Heart of you and me.  It is from images that pop in my head that I have had in prayer over time.  At first I saw only 3 hearts.  Sacred, Immaculate, and Beloved (which is my heart and your heart).   Our Lady soon started pointing me towards Joseph and his guardian heart.   I wrote the prayer of the Beloved to the Holy Family.  The beloved heart which belongs to you and me was a broken heart but it was sown back together by Christ with the thorns of suffering, with the helmet of salvation against false ideology that He wore on his head.   Our heart becomes beloved when we understand the love God has for us and stop believing the lies of the accuser.  We rest in the heart of Jesus, which is in the bosom of the Father.  Mary and Joseph, the whole Holy Family lives there. The roses of love blooming from the intercession of His mother.  Originally, I saw one white rose for purity, and one red for love coming off of the Beloved Heart.  But as Mary pointed me to her earthly spouse, the lilies of purity became part of the picture.

I showed this to James well over a year ago.  James had publicly stood next to me in the battle with our Catholic School.  I didn’t know him before that but through that ordeal we prayed a lot.   He has a great love for God.   He recently started Exodus 90 with a group of men.  He also started reading the Manual for Men by Bishop Thomas Olmsted.   He told me something he saw while doing this triggered his memory of my drawing.  Then he created this for me.  Exactly what I saw.  Isn’t God amazing?

These hearts rest in the Divine Will (God willing, mine does).  God’s timing is perfect and I feel as though God is about to do something BIG because he prompted James to create this.  May your heart rest in the Divine Will and may you all have peace and blessings today. My friend Lucy recently sent me this song. I think it portrays how God chases us so our heart will rest in his.

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Christian WAKE UP- A testimony

Jesus asleeo in the boat


Jesus was inside the boat, sleeping with his head on a pillow. The followers went and woke him. They said, “Teacher, don’t you care about us? We are going to drown!” Jesus stood up and gave a command to the wind and the water. He said, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind stopped, and the lake became calm. Mark 4:38-39


I know many of you would rather read than watch a video or listen to a podcast, but I urge you to watch this video of my friend Katherine Cantrell.    It is well worth the 26 minutes and will leave you inspired.

Saint Agustine

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The Veil was Torn in Two – The Liturgy

ghent altar piece

When Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, He yielded up His spirit.  At that moment the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth quaked and the rocks were split.  The tombs broke open, and the bodies of many saints who had fallen asleep were raised.  Matthew 27:50-52

In my work in deliverance ministry we talk a lot about covenant and how the Jewish people all knew what this was and what was expected of them in covenant.  We know too throughout history that other cultures have partaken in covenants with one another where the pact made with the group is a stronger bond than anything else.  Covenant always requires a blood sacrifice. And in the Catholic Mass, the new covenant celebrates the blood sacrifice of Jesus Christ for our sins. We have all been taught that, but I am not sure many have any idea of what that actually means.

The first time we actually see a blood sacrifice in the bible is in the story of Adam and Eve.

The Lord God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife, and clothed them. Genesis 3:21

Up until to this point Adam and Eve would not have known death.  But here, with the Lord Himself clothing them in garments of skin, we know an animal was sacrificed.  The Lord Himself was showing them how to worship. How to bring themselves back into union with Him. It required sacrifice.

Prior to the Lord clothing them, he had pronounced curses upon them.  To the woman;

“I will greatly multiply your pain in childbirth, In pain you will bring forth children; Yet your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you.” Genesis 3:16

And to the man;

Because you have listened to the voice of your wife, and have eaten from the tree about which I commanded you, saying, ‘You shall not eat from it’; Cursed is the ground because of you; in toil you will eat of it all the days of your life. “Both thorns and thistles it shall grow for you; and you will eat the plants of the field; by the sweat of your face you will eat bread, till you return to the ground, because from it you were taken; For you are dust, And to dust you shall return.” Genesis 3:17-19

One could read these statements and conclude that God is harsh and unloving, even though we know that God had given them the chance to repent, and instead of repenting they started blaming.  But to our modern eyes, we misunderstand what God was doing here.

You see, God, IS LOVE.  When the two of them listened to the serpent, it was an offense against LOVE HIMSELF, and an act borne of envy and pride.   It was an act of death.

God, even in His curses upon them, was showing them how to LOVE again.  For the woman, her pain in childbirth, in pain you will bring forth children; this is not just in the physical act of labor, but in bearing them throughout her whole life, the connection she has to her child.  The kind of love that is hard to understand because the bond is spiritual and lasting. And the prayers of a mother for a child have more efficacy than any other prayer. Likewise, a wife submitting to her husband, because of love for him, these two things get her outside of herself and looking at the other.  It also restores the authority God had given to Adam, but was never meant to be used to Lord it over her. Sure, we as humans have twisted this, but God here again, this “curse” was trying to teach us about Love, and in a spiritual view can be seen as a blessing.

For the man, God is reinstating his authority and his ability to provide for and protect the people in his care.  And the hard work the man will have to do in order to achieve this, it gets him outside of himself to provide for his wife and his family.  Anyone who has seen a man out of work sees the depression and anxiety it causes, men thrive when they can provide and protect. The toil of his hard work is not for himself, but for others.  It too is a blessing, but too often we twist this as well.

The whole of everything God was trying to teach us, even in the curses He pronounced, was all about LOVE.  How to LOVE. His sacrifice of the animal to clothe them, showed them how to commune with Him, and we see sacrifice in worship from this point forward.  His Son was sent because man, of their own accord, couldn’t redeem themselves. Jesus was sent out of love. A friend of mine recently explained it this way;

“First, Christ is the Son of the Father – but not in the way of men.  The Father is God. The Son is God. The Holy Spirit is God. All three persons are one in being with each other (consubstantial) and are all eternal.  Thus, while Jesus is truly the Son of God, the Father is the Father of God, and the Holy Spirit is the Holy Spirit of God. So it is not that God sent His Son to be tortured and die; rather, the eternal God came, Himself, to be tortured and die by taking on our humanity in the person of the eternal Son.”

This shows us THE LOVE OF GOD.  It has always been about LOVE.

So this brings me to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.  The worship we do on Sunday has inexhaustible fruits that are measured by our inward disposition.  Jesus’ Sacrifice present at every mass holds the infinite opportunity for perfection and holiness to be poured out upon us, but the measure of the graces we receive is the measure of our faith and of our love.  Faith is the prompt and complete donation of our entire selves to God, to His Will and service. Mass is actually a practice of the virtue of JUSTICE. We give back to God LOVE, getting outside of ourselves, for HIM, which also leads us outside of ourselves for OTHERS.  This is NOT A FEELING, it is from the depths of our soul.

During the Holy Sacrifice, the Epiclesis prayer calls down the Holy Spirit, and the Anamnesis prayer reaching back in time to bring us the Sacrifice of Christ.  This Sacrificial Act which was taught to us by God HIMSELF shows us how to bring ourselves back in union with God. And what greater union can we obtain than for the Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity of Christ to be consumed into our very being; uniting both our body and soul to Jesus.

The Mass is where we give God HIS DUE through our participation in the Holy Sacrifice.  We give God our LOVE and he unites it with HIS OWN. As participators in the Holy Sacrifice, and not merely spectators, we give our very selves to God, offering our own lives, just as Jesus offered His life for the Father on the cross. 

Too often the Liturgy gets humanized to be about US, and what we will get out of it. When it should be about HIM and offering ourselves to Him as Sacrifice.  When we do this we are more fully receive the gifts of HIS LOVE that enable us to go out and LOVE OTHERS as He did, with Self Sacrificing Love. Likewise, if we get too wrapped up in the legalism of the Mass and nitpick our fellow man to death on their posture, we also miss the point.

When we bring worldly matters to the Mass, like worldly equality or self-focused ideology, we miss the understanding that God’s equality is an equality of DIGNITY, which highlights the fact that we are all made in the image and likeness of God.  With this we are all equal in our dignity, which is how our Creator sees us, but we are uniquely different as well. In looking at our neighbor in this way, we begin to understand that differences in people are actually a gift. The differences in male and female, the different ways the Holy Spirit uses us, all of these things are gifts. Unfortunately, people on both sides of the spectrum are putting people in boxes of our own design with labels that alienate and will actually lead to hatred.  

The Mass IS is heaven on earth.  We have the Latin term, Lex credendi, lex orandi, how we pray reveals what we believe. And vice versa; What we believe will dictate how we pray. When we worship and pray for love of Him and believe with all of our hearts, it spills over into the outside world.  Jesus does not change when we worship, he is absolute truth and unchanging, we change when we worship, and when we believe in the Eucharist, which He is present in, He changes us.  He is present whether we believe or not, but our belief, our prayer and our worship is how we become changed into what God wants us to be.  I have stated before, God does not need the Liturgy, He is perfect.  We need it to unite us to Him in the most Holy Eucharist.  Receiving with faith in transubstantiation transforms us, it divinizes us. 

I urge us all to go to Mass with a new outlook, by placing Christ truly at the center of the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.  By letting go of our own desires and wants for what the Mass should or should not be and instead, with your whole heart, give God his due in worship; we should focus on Christ instead of the people around us, whom we cannot control.  By participating in the sacrifice taking place through your own gift of self, offering up all your cares, all your worries to the one who has the power to SAVE YOU. This is what will put Christ above all else and will allow us to truly love HIM, as he leads us to view others the way that HE DOES, which is in LOVE.  

The Mass has a specific rubric in which we are to follow.  As with all things that our Holy Mother Church gives us, this was handed down to us as such in order for us to keep our eyes on Christ; so that we will worship out of LOVE of GOD and desire to give him his proper due, which is right and just.  Intentional operation outside of the rubric comes from a Spirit of Rebellion and is not of God. Intentional operation in legalism is actually a Spirit of Control over others, and is not of God. Both of those Spirits seek division. God unites, and when our interior understands this, we are better able to love others the way that God loves us.  Everything a movement from our union with Christ at Mass into a union of the Body of Christ in the outside world.

When the veil was torn in two when Jesus died, it not only opened heaven for us, but it also gave us the ability to see with Spiritual Eyes.  The death and resurrection of Christ didn’t just raise the dead to heaven, it brought and brings heaven on earth when we embrace it. It enables us to see what God sees, and to love like he does.  Unite yourself to Christ at Mass, receive what He wants to give you, and it will be you who is transformed from the inside out. You will become a light in the darkness and be a conduit of change in others.

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