That Thing With SSPX

Posted on July 2, 2026 by veilofveronica

I wrote this 8 years ago and what I wrote I still stand by.

The Center of the World – The Mass

Posted on October 24, 2018 by veilofveronica

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“Worthy are you, Lord our God, to receive glory and honor and power” for you created all things; because of your will they came to be and were created.” Rev 4:11

Before I post everything I want to say here, I want to clarify a few things.  I was born post Vatican II.  I do not know what it was like back then so everything I am about to state is filtered from a perspective of not having lived through what others have lived through.  Second, my purpose in posting this is NOT to judge people, either those in authority, or the rest of us, God explicitly tells me not to judge because that is for Him to do.  The purpose of this post is also not to degenerate into “Liturgy Wars.”  There are good and holy things happening at Mass, whether it’s a Novus Ordo or the Extraordinary Form.  We are meant to be united, not divided, judging what we do as “better” is like the Gospel from Sunday, Lording ourselves over another.  Jesus specifically asks us not to do this.  Conversion is in the heart and is an act of the Holy Spirit.  The Holy Spirit can, and WILL act anywhere.  I also have agonized about whether to print this or not.  I sometimes tend to be impulsive and in hindsight regret my swift action.  I know I will be held to account for every word I speak, so I have learned to be much more careful with what I say and do.  If my interpretation of what God is telling me is wrong, I apologize to God and to all of you.  But in reading today’s Gospel I felt I was called to print this.  In my limited understanding I can only write what I feel God tell me and relay it as best as possible.  This post is meant as a call to prayer, not as a call to shoot poison arrows at one another.  I will not comment on Vatican II, the implementation or the documents, I am not knowledgeable enough.   I also understand that I am out on a limb here so if I get told to take this down I will.  Any comments that shoot poison arrows or claim that “my way is better” I will delete.  With all of this said, I want to relay what happened to me on Saturday, October 13, 2018 at my first High Latin Mass in 26 years.

I went to my first Latin Mass since 1992 on Saturday, October 13, 2018.  I remembered the Latin Mass being beautiful, but this experience was very surreal.  In 1992 the Basilica in DC had permission to do them in their Crypt church, but I was too young and dumb to spiritually grasp what was going on.  I was ignorant back then, and even today, of the history surrounding the Mass changes and the fight of Archbishop Marcel Lefebvre.  For me, we just have different forms of Liturgy that have all been deemed acceptable by the church.  I still feel this way, but I have a new perspective.

Anyway, now we have Latin Mass in my Diocese and in a twist of what I would classify as a fluke, but God probably would not, I found myself at one on that Saturday.  The Mass was a High Latin Mass and was probably the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life, seriously.  Which then made me mad because none of us in the pews knew what we were doing and I was angry at the church authority for ever having taken this form away in the first place, so I mentioned that to God.

I observed a couple of things at the Mass.  Every movement that the Priest made, every movement of his BODY was a movement toward God (not toward the people).   You could clearly see that the Priest was the Guardian, and the Keeper of the Kingdom of Heaven.  It was happening there on the altar.  His mind, his body and his soul, aligned with God’s will as he gestured what was actually something that was handed to Adam in the Garden.  He had Dominion to bring Heaven to us.  Bring Divinity to us.

For me it was like witnessing the Theological Virtues in Action.  Faith, Hope and Charity in alignment with the will of God, those virtues a grace gifted by God.  Everything a movement towards those virtues.  I actually found it to be quite charismatic, though it is probably opposite of what most others think of as charismatic.

So in my anger about the loss of this form of Mass for so long, I said a prayer to God about it.  This Mass had several things our Mass now doesn’t, including the bodily movement of the Priest, the Latin which is a unifying language and the devil hates unity.  By going to the colloquial language we separated people.  We constantly have separate Masses for separate languages.  That’s why the devil hates Latin so much.  It unifies the whole church.  It also had all movement directed towards heaven, instead of towards the people.  The choir was in the back so you couldn’t see them, but only hear their voices which were projected towards the altar.  The Procession was silent, which was very awe inspiring, you could see the reverence.  There were just so many things.   In my spiritual progression I could just see things in a way I had never seen them prior.  God was at the center of this.

After communion I came back and was praying, and I got VERY OVERCOME AND OVERHWELMED.  I felt as though God showed me the timeline of Salvation History, which has happened to me before.  And that when the catechism speaks of the Passion of the Church (CCC 675, 677), that this Passion of the church actually began right after Christ’s Resurrection.  The walk of the timeline of the history of the church is the walk of Christ’s Life, Death and Resurrection.  The Mystical Body will do the same as Christ.  For example, I was shown the early church persecutions and death were parallel to the slaughter of the innocents.  Pentecost was the Nativity.  The Ascension was the Annunciation.  The public ministry of Christ parallel to Constantine legalizing Christianity.  There was so much I was shown, I cannot remember it all.   The rise of Christendom is like when Jesus was out healing publicly and people were in love with him.  We have entered the time period of the corruption of the leadership, in much the same way as the Pharisees were corrupt.  And we have Judases inside the church who are shiny and smiley and “tolerant” on the outside but empty and devoid on the inside. Jesus has become about being nice.  All the while, demons have trained us how to think. Watching all of this was like a movie playing in my head.  And time, it is just different for God, so different than what we know.

Then God turned me towards His mother.  Just as Mary appeared sporadically throughout the Gospels, so too she appears to the Mystical Body throughout the timeline of history.  At his Passion, she was there the whole time, just like she is continually appearing at Medjugorje right now.  I understand that Medjugorje is not an approved apparition and I have spoken about that and about how I will accept whatever the church rules.  I am just speaking about what I feel I was shown, that she is here now, as she was back then.  Her purpose to show us what faith looks like when faith seems impossible.  Hope in the hopeless.  Love for the unlovable.  A human with no divinity doing God’s will.

The stripping down of the Mass, the disunification, this is part of the scourging.  I believe we will enter a time period where the Mass won’t be recognizable and perhaps the Eucharist is gone, in the name of ecumenism.…. We should be ecumenical but not at the expense of truth. I feel like what I was shown was that the church will take on all the worlds sins inside of her.  The way Christ took on our sins inside of Him on the Cross.  It looks like being forsaken.  Almost every Catholic will walk away from the faith.

On Sunday, the day after attending Latin Mass, I went to my regular Novus Ordo Mass.  I felt sad.  We, have humanized the Liturgy so much it becomes about us and how we feel, instead of about the Divine.  Not that it isn’t valid, or even beautiful, God impressed upon me that it is valid and said, “these are my broken people, pray for them”.  What I see is all of us so broken and wounded and hungry that the Mass is about that and about validation of that that it seems like we are not resting in the love of God and being secure in it.  People don’t really believe they’re loved and forgiven, so they’re looking to feel better.

I think the best way to explain it is, the Mass we have now seems to be about emotion and feeling.  The Latin Mass went much deeper and was actually about the Spiritual World being brought to the human world and us receiving it, instead of the reverse.  The key for each of us, no matter the Mass we attend, is to interiorly know who it is we are receiving, and as an act of our will, to ask for union with the will of our Creator.  I am not judging the souls of the people at a Novus Ordo, just making an observation.  I know these souls and they are beautiful, and God loves them and the effort to bring glory to Him.  And we are all following the path the authority set out for us.

And God basically said, this is just the path you’re on and I am walking with you to Calvary.  The last stop— Physical pain.  Just like anything that starts in the spiritual world and takes root in our emotions it moves to our physical body. And that old Mass which aligned all 3, spiritual, emotional and physical with God…this new one doesn’t, though for an individual it can since it’s an interior disposition too.  I will pause here and say too, that even a Protestant can have the interior disposition, but it is much much harder without the physical Eucharist, but because Protestants have relationship with Christ, they can actually be sanctuaries of God (Luke 9:50).  We are all supposed to be living sanctuaries.  What I felt is that God, not people, is supposed to be the center of everything.  If we put God at the center, we actually treat people better, we love like God does because He is the source. But God also told me he has this, and it is part of His plan.  What I felt God showed me, just left me with a feeling of resignation to His plan, knowing it is better for us, but seeing that it will be extremely painful.  He kept telling me to watch for the removal of the Eucharist.

I am not a Liturgist so speaking about this makes me feel ignorant.  I also am not a sedevacantist, the Pope is our authority, needs our prayer, and none of us can know his interior.    What I see is all part of God’s much larger plan to actually have us embrace what Jesus came to teach us… so we can, like Him and through Him put the devil under our feet.  He is the means to that end.  He wants us to have our dominion back, but he is allowing our total breakdown in order to do it because it will be the way we completely surrender.

This is not for me an Old Rite vs. New One.  For me, it just is.  I am told not to judge the souls of the people on this path.  But to pray for them.

When I had this experience it was also clear about obedience to authority. This is something I struggled with.  It’s like Marcel Lefebvre (who I really know very little about, but am trying to relay what God showed me) was correct about not changing the Liturgy, but totally wrong to disobey.  I have a hard time grasping that.  That for something so HUGE, I would have felt the need to fight like he did, but it seems to me God was letting me know he was wrong to do so.  He kept showing me Padre Pio as the example and saying Marcel Lefebvre was right and wrong all at the same time.  It’s about waiting for God, which most of us don’t do.  We take it into our own hands and we try to manipulate God when God has a larger plan at play.

It’s easy to obey a good and holy leader, but when the leader is in open rebellion against God (at least from your perspective)… it’s just very hard to comprehend.  This is not a judgment on Vatican II, again, I cannot know the interior disposition or what was going on at the time.  It’s also why I believe Gods view of blessings and curses are very different from our own.  This is something reading the book of Job taught me.

So to be clear, this is not a condemnation of the current Mass.  God gave the church the authority.  What it binds on earth is bound in heaven.  The question becomes, what are we binding? And for me, this just is the path… the same walk Christ made… and our prayer and sacrifice unite us ever closer to Christ.

It was here when he was talking to me I kept seeing a Fulton Sheen quote, “who is going to save our Church?  Not our Bishops, not our Priests and religious.  It is up to you the people.  You have the minds, the eyes, and the ears to save the Church.  Your mission is to see that your priests act like priests, your Bishops act like Bishops, and your religious act like religious.” So there is something the laity is supposed to be doing, as God wills it,  which includes ardently praying, but I couldn’t quite grasp what else.  Our role is different on this walk than that of the clergy.  I am not clear yet on exactly our role besides praying, but there is another role.

With each stripping down of the Mass we have scourged the Mystical Body.  Doctrine will be nailed to the Cross…

You see, God Himself does not actually need the liturgy.  HE IS PERFECT.  We need the Liturgy to unite us to Divinity.  His humanity and divinity brought to us.  When we stripped the Divinity out of the Mass by “making it easier for us” we humanized everything so much (except at the consecration which brings us both the full humanity and full divinity of God) and became more and more distant from the Creator.  We take on the sins of the world, and eventually we will breathe our last, looking totally dead.  Only a few remaining standing at the foot of the cross.

It was interesting to note that as I was experiencing this, I also learned that April 3, 2019 is 50 years since the institution of the new Mass.  April 3, 33 AD is the date given in the documentary, Star of Bethlehem, as the day of the Cross, the first Good Friday.

God told me that if we really want to know the “signs of the times”, we needn’t look any further than the Mass.  The church is the center of the world.  The way she goes is then echoed out to the world.  Look for changes to the Mass and Scripture if you want to know what happens next.  Scripture is already being changed.   Just after I had this experience I read that China removed all bibles for sale because they are writing one that will conform with the state.

The one thing I feel about Mary, is that back then she stood with her son and will now be standing with us, the Mystical Body to grace us with those theological virtues, which are a gift of grace.   That is why she is the key.  This is the triumph of her Immaculate Heart, she stands with us to see us through to Resurrection.  I have ideas of what this could look like, but I am usually wrong when I try to interpret things on my own.

Know too I feel dumb saying all of this because I am not do not possess the knowledge of history or of liturgy in these areas.  This is all just what I feel I have been told. And I try to interpret as best as I can.

And it’s very overwhelming to look at from my small perspective.

About a week later after writing all of this down about the Latin Mass, I was walking and God kept repeating, “whose sins you forgive are forgiven them.” and “what you bind on earth is bound in heaven.”

Let me see if I can explain how that was shown to me.

Some of the things people are doing are objectively mortal sin.

BUT because demons have trained people how to think, many do not know it.  And the church has not taught it for the better part of 50 years.

So when a person is “welcomed” into the church, sitting in that sin, and the authority does nothing to correct it, and tells them they’re forgiven without need of change, they actually are granted the mercy of purgatory based on the authority the church has and their lack of knowledge and understanding.

But there are those in authority do know better (though I suspect there are some who are poorly formed who for one reason or another may not know better).  What they “bind on earth, is bound in heaven.”  They are actually binding curses on the church itself because they’re violating covenant with God.  Which is why we are on a Passion walk.  Many faithful who know and recognize truth will break away from the authority as the church continues on a trajectory against Doctrine and against Christ.  But this isn’t right either.  Christ allowed the authority to take him all the way to death.  And we are supposed to be like Christ.  In the current world scenario this is what I see, I believe the “Herod and Pilate” who are the secular leaders who crucified Christ, is China.  The Judases are the ones who are betraying Christ from the inside by denying His teachings.  But there will be many who will break away from the walk to Calvary in an effort to save themselves, but not others.  Christ wants us all in this together.  The people of God are a communion.

At the core of the church the Holy Spirit is the head, so even if the authority is blind and deaf the ship will be directed the way the Spirit wants and we need to remain on the ship even when we can’t see through the storm.  She will get safely anchored, after this giant storm, between the two pillars of Mary and the Eucharist.

Pray without ceasing for the unity of the church.  Not a false unity, but for unity in TRUTH.

My commentary today, July 2, 2026 is two fold. First, disobedience is the mark of the evil spirit. Second, I referenced something the laity should be doing that I wasn’t sure of. The years have taught me that “doing the thing out there” is not what God is asking. The thing we should be doing is cultivating holiness in our homes with our family. The domestic church should mirror the Holy Family. There may come a time where that is the only place where the light can be found. I will expand on this in another post hopefully in the future.

The Center of the World – The Mass
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A Disappointed Heart

Posted on June 24, 2026 by veilofveronica
Blessed Chiara Luce Bandano was disappointed to have to repeat her first year of High School and only later was able to give it all to Jesus

 Be strong and bold; have no fear or dread of them, because it is the Lord your God who goes with you; he will not fail you or forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6

The following is what I felt the Lord speak to me in prayer over several weeks. I write in my journal what pops in my head when I ask the Lord to speak to me. If what I have written the church says is incorrect, then the church is correct and I am wrong.

June 11 – June 22, 2026

Beloved Lily of the Father,

One small act of love is greater than any act of service done in the wrong motivation of heart. Do not seek accolades. Do not seek power.

Seek ME. I AM love.

I am tearing down the false ideology of what the world thinks love is. Man is so far away. Your open and docile heart is what I desire. I desire to give you my Sacred Heart. I desire for you to give me your heart, that we may beat in unison. Trust me that I can and will do this in you.

A disappointed heart is a heart looking in the wrong direction, still immersed in the world. The world does not know the joy of the Kingdom of God.

When disappointment creeps into your heart, look up at ME and let love abound.

Know that there is nothing hidden that will not be exposed.

I am the Light of the World.

  • Your Divine Spouse

John 8:12

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Harmony of the Soul

Posted on June 10, 2026 by veilofveronica
4 Hearts – Jesus, Mary, Joseph and Mine (depiction of what I saw in prayer made to a graphic by James Bowman)

My brethren, consider it a cause of great joy whenever you endure various trials,  for you know that the testing of your faith will develop perseverance.  And let perseverance complete its work so that you may become perfect and complete, and not be deficient in any respect. James 1:2-4

I am in Ann Arbor, Michigan this week finally completing my Spiritual Direction Certification through the Heart of Christ Program in partnership with the Avila Institute. It has been a long road to get here, as many of you may remember I had to pause my pursuit of this certification to care for my mom and dad.

After the death of my mother, I spent about a year just recovering. I slept a lot. It has really been just this year that I feel I have really started grieving my mom. I miss her. The her that I used to call daily just to chat. The her that before the dementia ravaged her brain – had once given me wisdom from on high.

Mom’s favorite Psalm was Psalm 91, the Psalm of protection. It was what we posted on her prayer card at her funeral. So when this week in the school we were asked to reflect upon Psalm 91 in our prayer I didn’t know how I was going to handle it. Those years caring for mom had almost crushed me, though I know that any crushing God was doing was to produce new wine. I went through a period where it felt like I lost everything. I had felt unsafe and unprotected. I didn’t feel at the time that the Psalm had been true for me. I was so exhausted and I was wavering. I had let the Lord know this, for I didn’t know where else I could go. So today when I reflected on the Psalm I felt the Lord speak to me. I am sharing this with you because I know many of you are suffering and the Lord wants you to know that your suffering is not in vain if you allow it to draw you near to him. If the church says what I have written is wrong, then the church is correct and I am wrong.

June 10, 2026

Beloved Lily of the Father,

Dwelling in the shelter of the Most High means that within you the Kingdom of God is at hand. It means that all ungodly ideology has been purged from your heart, soul and mind. As you progress in the Spiritual Life, access to the inheritance is opened because of new receptivity and docility. Suffering that draws you near draws you into the Kingdom power. But it is never power you should seek, it is charity you should seek. When you take a look back on your life can you not see that in the midst of what you said made you feel “unsafe”, that I was actually purging from you what was actually unsafe for your eternal soul? Ideologies and behaviors that are not of my Kingdom. I will not abide in idolatry of self and rebellion. Pride needs purging.

I AM. Cling to Me alone. That is where safety lies. In that perfection of love is the power to conquer even death. The psalm is the fulfillment of the Kingdom in you. Not because you earned it, but because you surrendered to it recognizing your identity in Me.

Fear not. You are loved. Become Love. If you love when you suffer there is rejoicing because bigger, harder love is something to rejoice about.

  • The Most Holy Trinity

My friends, God knows what he is doing. He knows which crosses will perfect you if you let him. All is a gift. The closer you draw near to the Lord, the more your soul is in harmony in the middle of suffering.

To have harmony of the soul in the worst possible circumstances means that you have totally surrendered to the idea that God is nothing but goodness and love and that your suffering is not ever his fault. It is just a product of our fallen nature. He wants to divinize our nature but there is a lot of muck and mire that needs to go. This type of great suffering draws you near, it humbles you, so you no longer get in the way of God’s saving grace, and charity is infused. A place where love grows bigger than ever. How could there not be joy? Love is indwelling, demonic ideology is abolished and love is all that’s left.

Suffering brings this about to a greater degree because it is hard to accept and surrender to God’s goodness when we suffer and even harder to love in these circumstances, so when we do accept and surrender it is an enormous amount of charity that is infused. That is what we see in Saints. Stop doubting God’s goodness and watch the storm inside you become calm.

 But ask in faith, never doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. For the doubter, being double-minded and unstable in every way, must not expect to receive anything from the Lord. James 1: 6-8

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Paradise Found

Posted on May 13, 2026 by veilofveronica
Photo taken Easter Morning 4/5/2026 by Taylor Foster at Flagler Beach Florida no alterations or filters have been applied to this photo

I have recently been reading a book called Saint Mary Magdelene, Prophetess of Eucharistic Love by Father Sean Davidson. I love the book for many reasons, especially for explaining why we need to reclaim the tradition that Mary Magdelene and Mary of Bethany are the same person. This post is not about that, but the book is worth the read and shed’s light on this amazing Saint.

I want to focus on one part of the book that struck me. I will just quote from it directly:

In the 19th century a famous French Dominican, Blessed Jean-Joseph Latatse, who had been plagued by severe health problems, was granted the privilege of kissing the skull of Saint Mary Magdalene, and in the moment he did so he received a profound insight about the Virgin Mary and Mary Magdalene, who were standing side by side at the foot of the cross: the first was perfect innocence and the second was perfect penitence. He understood that in the New Covenant the greatest sinners have the power to become the greatest saints and to be counted among the most faithful disciples of Christ. At the moment Christ needs friends the most, the lukewarm will be nowhere to be seen. Only innocence or profound penitence can stay faithful to the end. (Pages 62-63)

Skull of Mary Magdalene at the basilica of Saint-Maximin-la-Sainte-Baume, in Southern France.

When I read this, I thought, there’s someone else who stayed faithful to the end. The perfect guardian – of what is sacred. John. The Beloved. While no doubt John also has perfect penitence, he is something else entirely, a ministerial Priest. This image of the women and the one Apostle is the image of the church. Mary, the Mother of God, made perfect by Christ outside of time, is pure and innocent in her Immaculate Conception. Mary Magdalene, the one whom 7 demons came out of (Mark 16:9) is the perfect penitent, representing all of us, a total surrender to God. And John, the beloved, to whom Jesus granted the guardianship of His Mother (John 19:26), but he is not just the guardian of her, by virtue of his Priesthood he is the guardian of the Sacraments that do for us what Christ did for Mary Magdalene.

In the prayers that Ashley and I have written, we have referred to Joseph as the Guardian Heart, and he is. He is the one who was tasked with caring for the entire Holy Family. But in order for Jesus to be crowned King, even if it was with thorns, we know he had to succeed his earthly Father, so Joseph passes away before Christ’s mission is complete. And Christ hands the task of Guardianship to John at the Cross. Christ’s mission doesn’t end at his death and resurrection, it continues on, in the church, born at Pentecost, seen in the perfect human person, Mary, the perfect penitent Mary Magdalene, and the perfect guardian of these sacred people, John. This is not to say that we are all perfectly innocent or perfectly penitent or that Priests are perfect guardians, but Christ brings his perfection into those who surrender daily to his will.

In this image at the Cross we see a Holy Family. One, Holy, Catholic and Apostolic family. These people, so perfectly surrendered to the heart of Christ that his blood poured out upon them as it can upon us daily at each Mass. The heart of Christ keeps beating on in them even while he is dead. Though they do not know exactly what will happen from there, we can be sure that the love of Christ was in them alive and would burst forth in power after Pentecost.

I wrote the following in my journal on May 11, 2026. If what I have written the church says is wrong, the church is correct and I am wrong.

May 11, 2026 – Cathedral of the Incarnation

Beloved Lily of the Father,

A great storm is upon your nation. Division is all around. I have come with a sword. I want to set the world on fire. The sword of the Spirit can draw you into my Sacred Heart. The fire can drive you away or draw you near, the choice is up to you. Purification.

Many people are undergoing immense suffering. I do not desire or will for you to suffer. Suffering entered the world as a consequence of the fall, a consequence of sin. Those who accept suffering as part of the fallen world can be elevated.

You can be joyful in suffering. If it is joy you seek, charity must increase no matter the circumstances.

Charity sits in eternity growing where it is embraced. Faith, trusts me in the present moment. Hope knows I have the future in my hands.

Innocence, Penitence, Guardianship, a Trinity of Paradise Found. Cling to Holy Mother Church. Paradise in your midst.

Do not be afraid. These things must come.

Persevere and joy will be yours.

The entire communion of Saints and the Holy Mother are praying for you.

  • The Blessed Trinity

2 Thessalonians 2

Image of Apparition at Knock Ireland – Mary, Joseph and John – with the Lamb on the Altar August 21, 1879
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Purgatorial Soul

Posted on April 24, 2026 by veilofveronica
From Purgatory museum, burned hand of purgatorial soul via atlasobscura.com

“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.”  2 Cortinthians 4:17

This morning at Mass I had what I can only say was an experience of a Priest who I used to know who passed away several years ago. It is not the same Priest that I dreamt about in years past. This Priest, like the one in the dream, did not preach truth. He did not believe in hell. He advocated for gay marriage and contraception. There were many other things he did that I will not go into here. I will also not state his name publicly because though I feel what happened to me at Mass came from heaven, it is not for me to be telling people where souls have ended up. I am not God. I would ask though that you pray to God for this Priest. God knows his name and his grace covers the details.

So while I was at Mass this morning, during the consecration and Eucharistic prayers while praying with my eyes closed, I was very overwhelmed with the presence of this Priest, who I really had not thought about in a long time until yesterday. I could see him weeping. I knew he was in purgatory and at a very low level in purgatory. In fact, it felt like hell but I knew it was not. He was being made to witness the Passion of Christ. The scourging, the crowning with thorns, the crucifixion. Over and over, like a continuous loop from Holy Thursday to Good Friday. He wept and he wept. Wailing actually.

I asked the Lord what was happening and the response I received was this,” he did not speak rightly of me. I did not come to die and take away your sins so you could be taught to remain in sin.” I asked if my prayers for him would matter. “Yes, everything for me is grace and mercy. He won’t be released though until I say so.”

I knew that this Priest would be in hell if not for prayers for him specifically by those in authority and of the faithful, and of course for the mercy of God, which is unfathomable. I sensed this Priest would not be released from purgatory for a long while, though only God knows.

I believe I was shown this so people will pray. But I also believe I was shown this because our eternal salvation is not something to mess around with. Jesus meant what he said in scripture, no matter what the world tells you.

This particular suffering in purgatory makes sense to me for a Priest who defies teaching. The purification of his soul involves really understanding what Jesus went through to save us. This Priest did not really know who Jesus was and is. But now, in being made to watch the Passion, he does.

Take your salvation seriously and cooperate with God to be purified here. As the Saints tell us all the suffering here amounts to very little compared to a suffering soul in purgatory.

I cried at Mass today because of seeing this. It is excruciating to be separated from God. I have had Masses said for this Priests soul.

Please God, purify your people. Let us know you, love you and serve you in this life so we can be with you in the next.

 Blessed is that slave whom his master will find at work when he arrives.  Truly I tell you, he will put that one in charge of all his possessions. But if that slave says to himself, ‘My master is delayed in coming,’ and if he begins to beat the other slaves, men and women, and to eat and drink and get drunk, the master of that slave will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour that he does not know, and will cut him in pieces,and put him with the unfaithful. That slave who knew what his master wanted, but did not prepare himself or do what was wanted, will receive a severe beating. But the one who did not know and did what deserved a beating will receive a light beating. From everyone to whom much has been given, much will be required; and from the one to whom much has been entrusted, even more will be demanded. Luke 12:43-48

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Burning But Not Consumed

Posted on April 7, 2026 by veilofveronica
Domenico Fetti – Burning Bish

when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you. Isaiah 43:2

On March 23, 2026 I went to the Cathedral to spend time in prayer and go to Mass. Three times in my prayer I heard, “war is coming”. I did not feel afraid, nor did I know exactly what it meant, except for a change in what is now. Of course, a cursory glance of the headlines and it doesn’t take a prophet to see this could be on the horizon. But I sensed this is more than just physical, it is the war for our souls that happens inside of us, and I sensed the need to pray for perseverance and pray for our loved ones. But I also felt a great sense of hope and of peace.

I went to the chapel today. I wrote down what I felt the Lord say to me. If what I have written the church says is wrong, then the church is correct and I am wrong.

April 7, 2026

Beloved Lily of the Father,

Burning but not consumed. I can alter the laws of nature. When you try to alter the laws of nature the fire consumes you, burning from the inside out because you make a god of yourself. A nuclear meltdown. When you humbly surrender to ME there is no meltdown. I AM overwhelming fire that does not consume you, I divinize you. For in everything, I glorify my people. I help them in all times and all places. War is coming. Do not be afraid. These things must come because man tries to glorify himself. My hand will protect my people. My people will pass through as one nation – the Kingdom of God is at hand. Do not be afraid, you were chosen for these times. Be at peace. It comes from within where you dwell in My will. Do not let anxious thoughts take you where I AM not going. Be with me Now. Loving. Believing. Persevering. Nothing is impossible with ME.

  • The Most Holy Trinity
  • Wisdom 19

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You have need of Nothing

Posted on March 9, 2026 by veilofveronica
Blessed Aleandra Maria Da Costa

And why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin,  yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not clothed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?  Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For it is the gentiles who seek all these things, and indeed your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.  But seek first the kingdom of God[ and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

 “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today. Mtthew 6:28-33

On Saturday evening March 7, 2026, I went to the Vigil Mass. As I entered into Mass, I had a lot on my mind. I was troubled by the news of war in Iran and the prophecies of World War III. My heart was heavy and I prayed to the Lord to let him know.

As the consecration came, I was overwhelmed by a sense of profound peace and gratitude. The sense I got from the Lord was that there is nothing to be afraid of and that His grace really is enough. I sensed too that God wants us to stop relying on ourselves so much. We try and try to plan and think of future possibilities and this actually blocks us from relying totally on Him. When it comes to planning we need to listen to what He is telling us and not to the noise of the world. He showed me Blessed Alexandra Maria Da Costa. She is a Saint who subsisted on the Eucharist alone without any other food or water. It was not lost on me that the reading was the woman at the well.

but those who drink of the water that I will give them will never be thirsty. The water that I will give will become in them a spring of water gushing up to eternal life.”  The woman said to him, “Sir, give me this water, so that I may never be thirsty or have to keep coming here to draw water.” John 4:14-15

Though for most of us this is a Spiritual Truth of baptism, for Alexandra, it was literally true. He really is enough. That is what I felt. I recorded in my journal what I felt God speaking to me. If the church says what I have written is wrong, then the church is correct and I am not. Know that as you discern.

March 7, 2026

Beloved Lily of the Father,

There is so much fear in the world. Do you not know that you have nothing to be afraid of? You cannot be defiled by things on the outside, it is what is in your heart that can defile or sanctify. Therefore, set your eyes always on me. You do not think enough of me. I can sustain you. You need nothing but me. Do not cling to your worldly ways, but surrender all that you are and all that you have to me and you will be in need of nothing because you will have everything of me. You will have your inheritance. A wellspring of living water welling up inside of you, the font of life. You will not hunger or thirst.

You look around and see darkness and evil. I make all things transparent. These things must come. Let them draw you nearer and nearer to me. Never doubt my goodness.

I am preparing you for a New Pentecost. You will do greater things because you will be in my will. Every kind of fruit tree will grow, the leaves will not wither, nor the fruit fail, because you are to be perfected in love. You are a temple. The temple houses me. You are a sanctuary, the river of life flows out. A wellspring of eternal life. Do not be afraid. I say again, do not be afraid. Eat from the tree of life and live. You have been chosen for these times.

  • Abba

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Purgatory is Real

Posted on February 13, 2026 by veilofveronica
Gustavo Dore’ Purgatory

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” – James 1:2-4

I am currently enrolled in a class to finally finish up my certification in Spiritual Direction through Avila Institute and Heart of Christ. It has taken me longer than I ever thought because I had to take a break from the classes when I was caring for my parents. God willing, I will be done in June.

The class focuses a lot on Ignatian teaching, combined with Carmelite teaching and it has been very helpful. Over the past several weeks we have been studying what Saint Ignatius said about discernment in decision making and he speaks about something called “the principle and foundation.” This is the opening of his Spiritual Exercises, and if you don’t have this down, it becomes very difficult to discern the will of God. The principle and foundation says this;

Man is created to praise, reverence, and serve God our Lord, and by this means to save his soul. All other things on the face of the earth are created for man, to help him attain the end for which he is created. From this follows that we must use created things insofar as they help us toward our end, and free ourselves from them insofar as they hinder us. Therefore, we should make ourselves indifferent to created things…so that we desire and choose only what is more conducive to the end for which we are created.

This means we should not desire wealth over poverty, health over sickness, honor or dishonor, long life or short, but we should only desire that which helps us praise reverence and serve God our Lord. It is called Holy Indifference and it doesn’t mean we are cold and unemotional, it simply means that the most important thing to us is what brings us closer to God. All else is an attachment that is not of God. We are to work on purifying ourselves of attachment. When we have the principle and foundation down, we are in the will of God.

I have pondered this often in my own life, particularly when I felt one path was better than another and I found out the Lord thought differently. I was attached to something he didn’t want for me. Often the thing I was attached to stroked my pride and ego. I pray to be purified of that.

This class coupled with a conversation I had with a friend about an immense suffering in doing ministry made me take all of it to prayer. And I felt the Lord speak to me about purgatory. If what I write the church says is wrong, then know the church is correct and I am not. I write as if the Lord is speaking to me based on what pops in my head in prayer. This is what I felt was being said about purgatory.

February 6, 2026

Beloved Lily of the Father,

Sin has consequences and though your sin is forgiven when you repent and confess the temporal punishment remains. This is the spiritual consequence of the sin committed, the repair to be made. Heaven has no need of repair. Heaven has no attachments other than to me. The temporal punishment means “in time”, so it is tied to the earth and the created things. While purgatory is a process of purification, it takes place in time and space. It is not in eternity. The consequences are tied to earth and to time and space because that’s where the sin and the spiritual repercussions took place. Gravity slows down time, purgatory is in the center of the earth where time is slower and the sense of it gets lost.

You can live your purgatory on earth while alive – body and soul together – by loving in the middle of the sin and the consequences of sin. Often, you feel separated from me, but the more you learn to rely on me, the more you love. I AM love. It is far better to suffer on earth than to feel those consequences after you die because that feels like hell but isn’t. The separation you feel now, is small in comparison to the separation you feel after you die, but your love becomes perfected which is why the suffering is so immense because you know what you’re separated from.

You cannot merit grace on your own because all grace is from Me. But you do merit by participation with me. When you resist concupiscence, endure suffering and choose love when it costs something, there is real spiritual fruit I attach and that is what you merit. Your actions and your participation mean something. Your choices matter.

If you die imperfectly attached to something not of me, you learn what real separation feels like and you work out those consequences in time and space surrounded by what you once knew, feeling the effects of the needed repair.

There is so much more that you do not see and do not know. But the earth is affected by all of this. The earth is affected by sin, the earth is affected by Godliness. All things are connected.

Participate in your purification now. Be detached from your lowly desires and attached to heavenly desires. You’ll fly to heaven when you accept and do not battle against My Will.

Pray for the souls in purgatory. It is a great sorrow for those who have no one to pray for them.


Therefore, he had this expiatory sacrifice offered for the dead so that they might be delivered from their sin. 2 Macabees 12:46

Abba

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Rebellion

Posted on January 26, 2026 by veilofveronica
This painting by Edith Pons known as the Triumph of Saint Michael won honorable mention in the Catholic Art Institute Sacred Art Prize. It took my breath away. Please remember our Scared Artists and those who promote Sacred Art.

For rebellion is no less a sin than divination, and stubbornness is like iniquity and idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord, he has also rejected you from being king.” 1 Samuel 15:23

Over the past several weeks in the daily Masses we have been reading about the first King of Israel, King Saul. We learn that Saul wasn’t a very good King. Before David ever even enters the picture, Saul is in rebellion against God’s commands. We see in the book of Samuel God gave a command to destroy the Amalekites and all the spoils. Saul does not obey, spares the Amalekite King and takes the spoils to “sacrifice to the Lord.” And here we learn;

rebellion is no less a sin than divination.

Rebellion is equivalent to witchcraft, rebellion against God is the same as seeking insight, knowledge and practicing occult. These things seem to go hand in hand. All these things are an effort to control, which really leads to things being out of control. Over and over we think we can control things and save ourselves. Over and over when we don’t turn to God, we get humbled by chaos and fear. When we disobey the commands of God, discord becomes our way of life. Discord is a spirit.

We see later, in Saul’s jealousy and murderousness towards David, that discord has taken over his heart. David on the other hand keeps his eyes on the Lord and spares Saul, even though in human terms it wouldn’t make sense to do so. David is not in rebellion. Even though David is a sinner, he is quick to repent and gentle of heart. A man after God’s own heart.

All of these things make me think of America today. How much of what we see happening is a rebellion against Gods commands and an effort to control. A discord has taken over and along with discord comes lies. It’s as if a demon stands between people like a fun house mirror distorting perception and causing division. Lies of misperception are constantly spewed and demons latch onto the words spewed out carrying discord to each ear that will hear. This is a Principality. Law and order go by the wayside and a stronghold overtakes certain geographical areas. Hatred is fomented.

Last night I dreamt about the movie the Blair Witch Project. It was a movie from the late 90’s. The kids in the movie go in search of the Blair witch. To do something like this is an act of rebellion. We should always go in search of God, not in search of witches. Though I never watched the whole movie, nor do I want to, my understanding is that the kids start to mistrust one another. This is what the spirit of Discord does. This mistrust is cultivated into a frenzy, a frenzy fear feeds, and bad decision after bad decision is made. This is because the mistrust that Discord causes focuses on evil.

When we distrust everyone and everything, we are focusing on knowledge of evil. This knowledge of evil, grasped when we’re not aligned properly with God leads us to judge souls, and have hatred in our hearts about our fellow man. It is why Adam and Eve who grasped at the tree of knowledge of good and evil before God offered it, fell so hard. They weren’t in a place of maturity to repent and ask for mercy. A heart that is not mature cannot handle it. A heart that doesn’t fully know the goodness of God runs with the evil straight into the pit. As it gains knowledge of evil it loses focus on the knowledge of the goodness of God.

Conversely, the one who is in right relationship with God, who does not rebel, who obeys even when it’s difficult, has a mature heart. In fact, this kind of heart has the Holy Spirit. While the Spirit brings peace and joy, that is not the only nor even primary mission of the Holy Spirit;

And He, when He comes, will convict the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment; concerning sin, because they do not believe in Me; and concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father and you no longer see Me;  and concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world has been judged. John 16:8-11

Did you catch that? The Holy Spirit comes to convict. This means He comes to correct you. He will show you your own sin and how it has harmed the church, that is, harmed your relationship with God and in turn harmed other people. He will show that Jesus is the way. He will show who is the judge. He lets you know who is in control and it is not you. He will show you how demons distorted your vision.

Much of the lies and distortions we are seeing and reading today are distractions meant to make you keep your eyes on a storm rather than on the Keeper of the storm, Jesus Christ Himself. If you allow your soul to focus only on the evil you will eventually rebel. You will think you have some secret knowledge that perhaps others don’t know. And you won’t see that you have been distracted and it will blindside you. You will find yourself trying to control through human means that which only God can set right. You will find yourself in the way of the Holy Spirit. Because of your knowledge of evil you will try to save yourself.

I often ponder the confidence of the prophet Elijah. He walked into the worst of situations, yet his focus was on how good God is. His focus was on the knowledge of the goodness of God. And this focus called down fire on the gods of Baal. Do you realize how fearless he had to be? This too can be said of David. Scripture this past week told us;

As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him.  Reaching into his bag and taking out a stone, he slung it and struck the Philistine on the forehead. 1 Samuel 48

David ran quickly towards Goliath… my Lord and my God, that is complete confidence in you. That is total focus on your goodness. That is perfect love of you that has cast out fear even in the face of the knowledge of the evil confronting you. It wasn’t that David wasn’t a sinner, it was that David completely knew who God was and is and who he was in light of that. That is why David was a man after God’s heart. David’s mistrust of others did not keep Him from obeying God and being confident in him. David was laser focused.

Both Elijah and David had time to listen to God. In the stillness and the quiet. There were no 24 hour news reels, no cellphones, no TikTok or Instagram.

I urge you brothers and sisters to turn off the noise and listen in the stillness. Ask, no beg, the Holy Spirit to convict you, and when He does don’t justify, just humbly submit. And remember how good God is. He can shut the mouths of lions. He can send angels to minister to arrow wounds. He can make the sun spin and dry out the wettest of rain. The opposite of rebellion is obedience. A word most of us don’t like. Ponder it though. It is the thing that will help save your soul.

Saint Philomena

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God Sings

Posted on January 9, 2026 by veilofveronica
This is an AI image of what I saw in my prayer at Mass on January 6, 2026. While I really don’t like AI art because it steals from the human artists whose ability to create is heaven given, this was a helpful tool to show what it was that I saw.

While at Mass on January 6, normally the Feast of the Epiphany, I saw an image in my head in prayer that resembles closely the one above that AI created when I described what I saw.

As this image came over me, I seemed to have this understanding that I want to try to relay. The image was relaying to me a truth about Mary and the Church.

There is but one mediator between God and man and that is Christ Jesus. Christ brought forth the perfect satisfaction to atone for our sins, to atone for the fall, which had infinitely offended because God is infinitely good. This infinite gap, this distance between God and man, was reconciled because He is true God – which is what was needed to atone for the sin, and true man – so it atones for all of mankind.

But there was a pathway God chose to take to bring this reconciliation to us and that pathway was through the womb of the Blessed Virgin Mary. She was made immaculate by God through the prevenient grace of the Cross. But from the beginning of her existence, she prepared her heart and her soul to be receptive. A long mediation. The first place God came to on earth was the womb of the Blessed Virgin Mary. That is actually where the incarnation took place. The Incarnation was inside of her. He became flesh inside of her. Bone of her bone and flesh of her flesh. God was so in her, both spiritually and physically, she gave birth to Him. God did not give Himself more fully to anyone but her. She mediated for God and man; not the same way Christ did, but she was part of the plan. The plan is all God’s design. The execution of the plan required her free will consent. Her role – to point us to Him and His glory.

We humans look at things through the lens of competition as if when one good thing happens for one person, it takes something away from another. This is a deficient ungodly view. God’s view is very different. It is not a competition for God, who IS love. Because God IS love he shares His love with all His creatures. He elevates. And no one was more elevated by God than the Blessed Virgin Mary, so much so, she is given a share in His mediation. She is the pathway through which God became Man. God shares His gifts. God shares Himself. Even the Saints become mini-mediators when they spread the good news of the Gospel. It isn’t complicated to understand.

And too, the Blessed Virgin Mary represents the Church. The graces of the Sacraments, the graces of the Eucharist, come through the church, so in this sense the Church is mediating between God and man as well. This is the image I saw. I saw grace from God flowing through Mary and flowing through the church. Mary far surpasses any creature, she gave birth to the one who as the second person of the Blessed Trinity holds the universe in existence. The Church, whom she is Mother of, brings the sanctifying grace to God’s people. The Holy Spirit brings Jesus down in the Consecration, but the church is the place where this happens. God wants to share His glory with His people. He isn’t a glory hoarder.

There’s a passage in the book of Zephaniah that says;

The Lord, your God, is in your midst, a warrior who gives victory; he will rejoice over you with gladness, he will renew you in his love; he will exult over you with loud singing as on a day of festival. Zephaniah 3:17

This is the only passage in the bible where God sings. The passage is about Jerusalem. Mary is the new Jerusalem. She is the City on a Hill. I imagine when she was assumed into heaven God was singing.

God wants to give us a share of her Immaculate Conception, so through the grace the church provides in Christ, one day we will experience the Resurrection of the Body and there will be no more tears. This is why I have repeatedly said, Consecration to Jesus through Mary is a wonderful thing. Consecration to the whole Holy Family is a wonderful thing. We can be mini-mediators and know the glory of God.

In these times of chaos, look up, and believe in the power and glory of God like Mary did.

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