Jesus said to them, “If you were blind, you would have no sin; but now you are saying, ‘We see,’ so your sin remains. John 9:41
I had another of those surreal dreams on Saturday night. One where it I remember it vividly.
I was vacationing with my family and we had been invited to this house of this very wealthy and powerful family (who it was I couldn’t tell you), the city seemed Vegas like, but the house seemed Old and Victorian. Old world and old money hidden away in a new and shiny city.
There were children everywhere, but they were unsupervised. All of the adults were off working. And I noticed a 6 year old child still in diapers, who may have been disabled, but not enough to still be in diapers. I was trying to care for her but I couldn’t find any diapers or anything to help her with and she was dirty and soiled. At some point she ran off.
There were secret passages all over this house, and secret meetings. And the children knew how to navigate through the house without being caught by the rich people in their secret meetings.
There was this double decker pool outside, and we decided to go swimming. My son fell from the top deck to the lower one, and I remember thinking I shouldn’t worry because he will be fine, and I looked down and he was just swimming in the pool below, though that pool seemed bottomless, I knew it wasn’t. But I felt inside not to worry about him, that I have to let him be without me navigating things and he will be okay. My other kids and husband were all next to me.
Suddenly a rainbow appeared in the sky, but it wasn’t a real rainbow. It was humming, and the colors were more dull than the colors of a real rainbow, so it appeared with like a pinkish/reddish hue throughout. I was trying to take a picture of it, but it was like I was blocked from doing so. Then suddenly a movie overtook the sky, and it was like we were watching real stuff go on around us but in the sky, and in the movie the man was surfing on what he called a vaping cloud. But the weird thing was the movie surrounded us, so that you couldn’t distinguish reality… earth from sky. It was dizzying. And I had to close my eyes to know what was actually real. And I was telling my family to close their eyes. And I knew I had to walk blind in order to know what was real. Then I woke up.
As I pondered this upon waking, I realized it actually didn’t seem far from reality. The digital world has sucked us in and the constant barrage of media, much of which is propaganda, is thrown at us incessantly. So much so that it is hard to know what is really true. I am sometimes astonished at “news” stories and how seriously flawed they are. So clearly pushing a story line that isn’t reality. The children are largely being raised by this digital world as most of them have a device in their hands. It is hard to know Truth. That is, it is hard if you don’t know Jesus. I close my eyes and I pray, and truth becomes clear. And like the dull rainbow, the devil mimics beauty, but it’s beauty is somehow off and your interior knows because you see with the eyes of faith.
The reading at Mass on Sunday was from Year A because we were celebrating the scrutinies. Jesus heals the man blind from birth. I thought about how spiritually blind we all are. In my dream I had to close my eyes to see. I had to close my eyes to hear God speak, walking blind and trusting God in what is ahead. We do not know what the future holds, but when we see spiritually, we trust that God will guide us. We must be steeped in prayer and the Sacraments during these times so God’s truth can prevail in our hearts.