The Breath of God And The Desecration of God

incense below monstrance

The incense stays in a line below the Monstrance not raising up during Adoration

April 6, 2020


For the worship of idols not to be named is the beginning and cause and end of every evil. – Wisdom of Solomon 14:27


I hope everyone had a Happy and Holy Easter.  This quarantine has been interesting for me.  I have no anxiety at all currently, which a few years back would have seemed impossible.  I thank God, my deliverer.  I think the one emotion that wells up inside the most is a deep deep sorrow.  I miss Jesus in the Eucharist.  So much so that I had a day where the Lord showed me how I had treated Him in the distant past, years ago, before I truly knew Him, and I wept with sorrow.  He showed me the lack of reverence, the talking in the sanctuary in His most Holy Presence, the nonchalant attitude in receiving Him, the particles of Him that dropped on the ground to be trampled.  I was horrified.  Thankfully I was able to get to confession.  I needed the grace of the Sacrament of Confession to lay that sorrow at the feet of Christ and step out of my shame.  And God began to speak to me about the First Commandment and how we as a church and Christian society had forgotten it.

My friend Ashley sent me this quote a few days ago from Scott Hahn which came from a podcast, the paranthesis are to give his previous context;  “When you take something Holy and Sacred and you reduce it to the good or great (temporal good or great) that’s the meaning of the term desecration.  It’s how we profane the gift of covenant.  It’s how we spurn the mercy of God.  But God loves us too much to leave us there.  So he stoops down to where we are and attempts to lift us up to make us more like him (divinization). ” It captures everything I was shown and the sorrow I felt.  The Eucharist has become a temporal good.  The Mass reduced to a community good.  The sacred worship of our Holy God and Father has been desecrated.  We have profaned the gift of covenant.

And I looked at the current situation we are in.  God is stooping down.  This is a discipline for our own good.  The Mass has been removed so that He can reorient us back to true worship and renew the covenant between God and us through the Eucharist.

Many may find my words stark and harsh and hurtful.  I can only tell you what I have felt God speaking to me, you have to discern if it rings true.  There’s plenty of blame to go around.  It’s the Priests fault, it’s the Bishops fault, it’s the Pope’s fault, certainly it’s not my fault.  Remember, you get judged for your sin, not the Priests or Bishops.  And in trying to levy blame we miss seeing the one whose fault it truly is, Satan.  He was a liar and a thief from the beginning.  He has relentlessly attacked the one thing that brings heaven to earth, the Priesthood, which brings us the Eucharist.  I want to share with you something I wrote in my journal, with some parts redacted.  As always when I write in my journal I write as if God is speaking to me.  If Holy Mother Church were to come out and say what I have written is wrong, then the church is correct and I am wrong.  I really didn’t want to post this, but I felt compelled.

April 14, 2020

Beloved Lily of the Father,


A persecution is coming.  The release of a bioweapon is meant for one purpose, the destruction of souls by destroying the Priesthood.  The evil one does not want my presence at Mass.  For those he could not turn against doctrine the assault takes place through fear.  Fear of physical well being rather than fear for your soul.

The evil one was already successful in corrupting the Rite of Baptism.  Do you not know that the breath of My Priests is my breath?  That the salt is the wisdom that gives a relish for the sweetness of my Divinity?  Teaching the Gospel, preserving the soul from the corruption of sin?  That the Priest can exorcise unclean spirits?

The effort successful to remove the physical breath of God from the initiation into my Kingdom paved the way for the assault on the Eucharist – on my Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity brought to earth through the hands of the Priest.

In the name of love and safety you will be told no Consecration, no physical breath of God, the Priest cannot breath on the host.  

All is about breath.

Breathing the very breath of God into the host, into the people.  Satan steals your breath, kills your communities, and destroys your faith.  Science becomes your God.

Satan will not stop because he wants the Eucharist gone from the table.

I AM amazed at the lack of faith of my Shepherds which has permeated the liaty.  Only a remnant few truly believe.


Pray for your Bishop and his strength and for the strength of all Bishops.


Whether the Mass gets totally decimated will be up to the Bishops.   

This purification will be short.  My will is to bring you to union with Me.  I don’t need the Mass because I AM perfect, but you need the Mass because it unites you to me.  

Brave Bishops keep the remnant fed.  To whom much is given much is required.

Mass will be hidden.  You are hidden in Me.

Do not be afraid.  I made you for these times.  I called you by name.  Do not embrace false security.  My house was built on the cornerstone of Me, the foundation of the Apostles and prophets.  

You are secure in me.   You are surrounded by a legion of angels.  I AM the God of TRUE LOVE, THERE WILL BE NO OTHER GODS BESIDES ME.  I love you.  You are mine.

Psalm 19

Your Divine Spouse

I want to be clear that after writing this I can say I know our Sacraments are valid, but what has happened is that where the Priest used to align his bodily actions with the words to show the greatness of our God, somewhere along the way some of this stopped.  I am ignorant as to how and why all of this happened and I actually don’t even like writing about it.  And as for me, all I can say is that when Mass is allowed again I will drop to my knees to receive Him.  I hope and pray I will be allowed to receive on the tongue in the most reverent way possible with no chance of particles hitting the floor.  I hope and pray that my interior disposition never ever turns Jesus into a temporal good.  I cannot control what will happen, I surrender that to God.  I can control my actions, may they always be aligned with the will of God.

Many may read this and this I am some sort of anti-Vatican II person.  I am not.  There was nothing that was written there that I am aware of that should be interpreted in a way to desecrate the Lord.  All interpretation should be for the Glory of the Most Holy.  Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God almighty.

After all of this happened to me this week, the Lord began to speak to me about the Priests and their protection.  I will be writing about that in an upcoming post.

Please pray for the repose of the soul of Gary Ast, my cousin’s husband.  He leaves behind his wife and 9 children and 7 grandchildren.  Please pray for them as well.  He passed away from COVID19 on April 8.  Praise be to God that he received Anointing and an Apostolic pardon.  My cousin Father Joel, a Father of Mercy, gave a homily in which he included the story of Gary’s passing and the account of the heroic Priest at his side.

And if you haven’t already, it is worth watching Dan and Stephanie Burke tell their story of recovery from COVID19.  Dan runs the Avila Institute and he has an underlying lung disease so his recovery truly is miraculous.

Stay safe and praise God in all things.





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I am a mother and wife as well as an RCIA and Adult Faith Formation catechist at a parish in the south. I have 3 children and a great husband.
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24 Responses to The Breath of God And The Desecration of God

  1. Amy says:

    Thank you, Susan!

  2. Tanya says:

    Dearest sister, please pray for my daughter right now. She is the one who you prayed for in the past, Bernadette. It is her feast today, and she is visiting her obstetrician right now. She is having a baby, which was due last Saturday, and we are all waiting.( she lost baby Anna over a year ago at birth if you recollect). I am a total wreak, and reading your post, which I do faithfully, always hits me in a most heartfelt way. I am suffering from fear, from anxiety and from starvation from no sacraments. I know it is an attack, but also my own fault from weak faith and hope. These times are trying and putting on a good face is next to impossible. Please pray for the whole family, I am away from my husband, and am being where I am needed, the burden is great, and I know God is loving me. Love and prayers to you, stay well, and please keep writing.

  3. sherry says:

    Something hit me so hard while reading this… I have to wonder if there is a connection to what your writing is saying and what just hit me…..
    I have copied and pasted this part of your writing because it speaks of breath….

    The effort successful to remove the physical breath of God from the initiation into my Kingdom paved the way for the assault on the Eucharist – on my Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity brought to earth through the hands of the Priest.
    In the name of love and safety you will be told no Consecration, no physical breath of God, the Priest cannot breath on the host.
    All is about breath.
    Breathing the very breath of God into the host, into the people. Satan steals your breath, kills your communities

    Okay, so I’m reading this and I’m gasping because that is what this corona virus is doing…it is stealing the breath away from the victims. They cannot breathe. Doctors have reported that ventilators are not the answer….that the ventilators are killing people. Several doctors I have listened to say that this is more like a high altitude sickness, that people cannot get their breath.
    I can’t help but see a connection to this writing and the virus.

    And why is the incense not rising in this picture??? Incense as it rises is a symbol of our prayers rising to heaven…are our prayers not rising to the heavens? Have our prayers become stagnant as our worship at Mass has become stagnant. Have we spurned God?

    I do understand what you are saying about our worship at Mass. I see much irreverence and after Mass there is no silence for those who wish to linger with Jesus a little longer. It becomes like a circus with loud talking within the church. God is forgotten. It makes me so sad.

    Oh Lord, don’t give up on us.

  4. Sally says:

    “in trying to levy blame we miss seeing the one whose fault it truly is, Satan”
    Satan is simply being who he is. Unfortunately, the gospels warn us and Jesus granted us the knowledge necessary to resist him, but it was ignored and rejected, particularly by priests. The blame is ours, for ignoring God then cooperating with satan. We were warned about becoming friends with the world, yet the world and its standards is exactly what was invited in to the Church, with open arms. So much repentance needed, from all of us. Truth also needs to be spoken, hard truths. Truths that will pierce hearts. Don’t apologize for sharing what you believe to be the Lord’s admonishments. It isn’t comfortable for sure, but necessary. Truth convicts. The softness and false mercy and priests and laity actually taking an apologetic approach to proclaiming Truth is what got us into this. Be bold, speak the truth. You aren’t responsible for the emotions or offense of the listeners. I say this because I have lived this error for a long time, and I have seen the lack of fruit and offense to the Lord because of it.

    • I say that Satan is to blame because when we blame one another we don’t walk in mercy. Of course we’re culpable for our own actions and will be judged accordingly. And we need to repent. But Christ could say, “Father forgive them they know not what they do” because he could see Satan tempting us even when we cannot and he still fully loves us. In order to fight intelligently we have to be able to “see” as Christ sees, loving our fellow man and knowing who the real enemy is. When I die I want to have totally forgiven everyone of everything the same way Christ did on the cross.

  5. Jo says:

    You mentioned that the rite is baptism has been corrupted, would you tell me more about that?

  6. Lucy says:

    Susan, the Lord has had me reading again and again the prophet Jeremiah ever since Holy Week. Especially chapters 1 -11. It is like having God the Father sitting right here next to us and explaining your post, confirming your post …to what degree His Heart is broken . I just hope people will take time to sit with these first chapters of Jeremiah and read more about what is on God’s heart now, why He has permitted our churches to be closed and withheld the Sacraments from us, until further notice. It is True what you write here. This section of Jeremiah is addressed to the House of God, to Judah and to Israel. That means us , the Church !!!
    So, let me just write here the words I have highlighted as I read Jeremiah, yet again, during Divine Mercy Hour today. In this section, we read how Judah and Israel are like two lustful sisters who have abandoned God . Not only is it about apostasy but it is the arrogance of not even saying we are sorry ! (Montage)
    “Return , faithless Israel. only acknowledge your guilt and that you have not obeyed my voice. Return , O faithless children. Return , O faithless sons. Return , O Israel… remove your abominations from my presence and do not waver. My anguish, my anguish ! I writhe in pain ! Oh the walls of my heart ! I cannot keep silent . Your ways and your doings have brought this upon you. O Jerusalem, wash your heart from wickedness, that you may be saved. This is your doom …it has reached your very heart. Because their transgressions are many , their apostasies are great. They have refused to repent. How can I pardon you? Shall I not punish them for these things? To whom shall I speak and give warning, that they may hear? i set watchmen over you, saying “Give heed to the sound of the trumpet! ” But they said: “We will not give heed”. Your burnt offerings are not acceptable, nor your sacrifices pleasing to me. They have set their abominations in the house which is called by my name . (see Jeremiah Ch.7 , especially concerning the Church , ie. the House called by His Name) Has this house which is called by my name become a den of robbers in your eyes? (Jesus quoted this passage Himself ) . Everyone is greedy for unjust gains, from prophet to priest, every one deals falsely. Were they ashamed when they committed abomination? No, they were not at all ashamed. My grief is beyond healing, my heart is sick within me…”
    Jeremiah 11 summarizes it all : Israel and Judah have BROKEN the COVENANT by giving in to IDOLATRY. It is TRUE what you have written, Susan . You have heard correctly and listened well. Thank you for sharing it with us, because it is indeed a grave and stern warning about the righteous purification of justice upon us. YET….God says 3 times in Jeremiah : ” I will not make a full end of you” . We must always Hope in His Mercy !
    Nevertheless, this is a desperate call to REPENTANCE. Jeremiah 11, v 15 says:
    “What right has my beloved in my house, when she has done vile deeds? Can vows and sacrificial flesh avert your doom? Can you then exult? Because of the evil which the house of Israel and the house of Judah have done, provoking me to anger by burning incense to Ba’al”. How far will things have to go against us before our Bishops begin to lead the entire Church in collective acts of penance and reparation ?
    Maybe the Lord would let you explain further what He means by that last part: burning incense to Ba’al. Most modern day Christians do not really know what that expression means and it might help people grasp what Babylon is and why the Harlot ( ie. atheistic hedonism ) must indeed fall
    ( see: Revelation 18) . God Our Father and Creator loves us far too much to permit us to wallow further in our abyss of hypocrisy . Indeed, just like in your photo, the incense of our prayers cannot rise to God right now because it is not worthy ! The angels are ashamed to lift them up on high to the altar of God ! When I was getting all this a couple weeks ago, the Lord did offer a REMEDY : the Prayer of Reparation, Pius XI , May 8 , 1928.
    Thank you again, Susan , for your courage. I am extremely grateful that Jesus has placed in you a far greater degree of Fear of the Lord than Fear of Man ! Alleluia !
    Oh blood and water which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a Fount of Mercy for the whole world, we trust in You !
    Mary , Mother of Mercy, pray for us !

  7. Lucy says:

    PS – Psalm 19 … Says there are 6 things for us to observe:
    The law of the Lord. The testimony of the Lord. The precepts of the Lord. The commandment of the Lord. The fear of the Lord. The ordinances of the Lord.
    It offers a powerful prayer: CLEAR ME FROM HIDDEN FAULTS. That is an excellent petition !
    In Psalm 19, the Lord is speaking about “presumptuous sins”. Those are sins tied to the Spirit of Religion, like we see in the Pharisee. It is all over us inside the Church. Cultural Catholicism. Social Christianity. Religiosity. When we think we are do’in “good” then we are really in trouble ! Notice how that has even become a popular expression over the past decade: Hey , how are you? I’m good, thanks. Want some more food , honey? No, I’m good. Yikes ! We used to know that ONLY GOD IS GOOD !!!

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  9. Mark says:

    The following was written a little while ago but I think applies well to this conversation. Your message about a bio weapon is certainly interesting. When I wrote this I didn’t discount that but take it into consideration when “natural evils” is mentioned, as it would be an actual moral evil in that case. I hope this helps in understanding the breath of God more than anything else.

    Breath of Life vs Covid-19
    From the Nicene Creed “I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life, who proceeds from the Father and the Son”, but to better understand this (“proceeds”) the technical term is the Holy Spirit spirates from the Father and the Son (the word has the same root as aspirate). The definition of Spirate is “the action of breathing as a creative or life-giving function of God.” When God created human life, he did it by making Adam out of clay and breathing into his nostrils. That breath of life is the action of the Holy Spirit. Read in scripture where the breath of life is referenced, these verses include: Genesis 2:7, Genesis 6:17, Acts 17:25, Job 27:3, Job 33:4, Isaiah 42:5, Isaiah 57:16, Revelation 11:11 and there are others.
    Why do I mention this? Satan wants to be like God but is his opposite in nature. In John 8:44 we find “He was a murderer from the beginning and does not stand in truth, because there is no truth in him.” So the Holy Spirit is the breath of Life and Satan is a murderer and a liar.
    There are what are called Moral Evils, this are the things done contrary to the will of God by his creatures (People and Angels/demons etc.). There are also what are termed Natural Evils, bad things that are not caused from the intentions or negligence of these same creatures. These include events and things such as hurricanes, tornadoes, diseases, lightning strikes etc.
    Scripture documents plagues resulting from sin numerous times (“The wages of sin is death”). The bible mentions plagues nearly 100 times. Many are familiar with the plagues of Egypt during the time of Moses leading up to the Exodus. But the Jews also received a plague stemming from their disobedience. As an example, Exodus 32:35 states “So the Lord plagued the people because of what they did with the calf which Aaron made.”. Revelation points to numerous plagues, see Revelation 15:1, 15:6, 15:8, 22:18, 16:9, 18:4, 18:8. See for a larger list of plagues in scripture.
    It is interesting that the current pandemic plague Covid-19 is a corona virus (Corona meaning Crown due to its spikey appearance (think crown of thorns)) and is a natural evil (but there are rumors this was a designed militarized contagion) that is passed from the breath. So this plague is a breath of illness or death vs the breath of life that is the spiration of the Holy Spirit. We need to turn back to God and pray for God to act through the Holy Spirit/breath of life to remove this evil. Satan is the original source of evil, scripture lays out how sin can bring on natural evils (separates us from the life of God). Our society is currently far from God, God states in Revelations that he will allow plagues to call us back. Maybe we should recognize this, turn back and pray.
    Job 34:14-15 states: “If he were to set his mind to it, gather to himself his spirit and breath, All flesh would perish together, and mortals return to dust”

    • yes I wrote about the crown of thorns in an earlier post. Thank you for this wonderful insight.

      • Mark says:

        I don’t deserve a lot of thanks for the insight, I can’t claim its all mine. I thank you for having the courage to do what you do. It is not easy putting ones self out there when they are not trying to be the focus of attention but humbly do that which God asks. I would imagine you get a lot of push back, if not down right evil at times. People need to understand when Jesus said in John 15:18-26 to the apostles et al.:
        18 “If the world hates you, realize that it hated me first.
        19 If you belonged to the world, the world would love its own; but because you do not belong to the world, and I have chosen you out of the world, the world hates you.
        20 Remember the word I spoke to you, ‘No slave is greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours.
        21 And they will do all these things to you on account of my name, because they do not know the one who sent me.
        22 If I had not come and spoken to them, they would have no sin; but as it is they have no excuse for their sin.
        23 Whoever hates me also hates my Father.
        24 If I had not done works among them that no one else ever did, they would not have sin; but as it is, they have seen and hated both me and my Father.
        25 But in order that the word written in their law* might be fulfilled, ‘They hated me without cause.’
        26 “When the Advocate comes whom I will send* you from the Father, the Spirit of truth that proceeds from the Father, he will testify to me.

        that being called to be a prophet or any servant of God is not a glamorous calling. When one Loves (actively participates in the will of God) the opposition is that opposed to the will of God, it is evil.

        May God bless you and your family and protect you.

  10. SR says:

    You know I was really feeling awful today regarding all of this, did not know really why. I think God has led me here to see my faults as well as my virtues. To get rid of my faults and make the virtues which He has given to me grow in faith and holiness. Thank you so much for answering His call for the rest of us. I see myself all over in what happened to you. Yes, if I have to crawl to receive our Lord, I am ready to do that also. Thank you so much! Love and God Bless,SR

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