The incense stays in a line below the Monstrance not raising up during Adoration
April 6, 2020
For the worship of idols not to be named is the beginning and cause and end of every evil. – Wisdom of Solomon 14:27
I hope everyone had a Happy and Holy Easter. This quarantine has been interesting for me. I have no anxiety at all currently, which a few years back would have seemed impossible. I thank God, my deliverer. I think the one emotion that wells up inside the most is a deep deep sorrow. I miss Jesus in the Eucharist. So much so that I had a day where the Lord showed me how I had treated Him in the distant past, years ago, before I truly knew Him, and I wept with sorrow. He showed me the lack of reverence, the talking in the sanctuary in His most Holy Presence, the nonchalant attitude in receiving Him, the particles of Him that dropped on the ground to be trampled. I was horrified. Thankfully I was able to get to confession. I needed the grace of the Sacrament of Confession to lay that sorrow at the feet of Christ and step out of my shame. And God began to speak to me about the First Commandment and how we as a church and Christian society had forgotten it.
My friend Ashley sent me this quote a few days ago from Scott Hahn which came from a podcast, the paranthesis are to give his previous context; “When you take something Holy and Sacred and you reduce it to the good or great (temporal good or great) that’s the meaning of the term desecration. It’s how we profane the gift of covenant. It’s how we spurn the mercy of God. But God loves us too much to leave us there. So he stoops down to where we are and attempts to lift us up to make us more like him (divinization). ” It captures everything I was shown and the sorrow I felt. The Eucharist has become a temporal good. The Mass reduced to a community good. The sacred worship of our Holy God and Father has been desecrated. We have profaned the gift of covenant.
And I looked at the current situation we are in. God is stooping down. This is a discipline for our own good. The Mass has been removed so that He can reorient us back to true worship and renew the covenant between God and us through the Eucharist.
Many may find my words stark and harsh and hurtful. I can only tell you what I have felt God speaking to me, you have to discern if it rings true. There’s plenty of blame to go around. It’s the Priests fault, it’s the Bishops fault, it’s the Pope’s fault, certainly it’s not my fault. Remember, you get judged for your sin, not the Priests or Bishops. And in trying to levy blame we miss seeing the one whose fault it truly is, Satan. He was a liar and a thief from the beginning. He has relentlessly attacked the one thing that brings heaven to earth, the Priesthood, which brings us the Eucharist. I want to share with you something I wrote in my journal, with some parts redacted. As always when I write in my journal I write as if God is speaking to me. If Holy Mother Church were to come out and say what I have written is wrong, then the church is correct and I am wrong. I really didn’t want to post this, but I felt compelled.
April 14, 2020
Beloved Lily of the Father,
A persecution is coming. The release of a bioweapon is meant for one purpose, the destruction of souls by destroying the Priesthood. The evil one does not want my presence at Mass. For those he could not turn against doctrine the assault takes place through fear. Fear of physical well being rather than fear for your soul.
The evil one was already successful in corrupting the Rite of Baptism. Do you not know that the breath of My Priests is my breath? That the salt is the wisdom that gives a relish for the sweetness of my Divinity? Teaching the Gospel, preserving the soul from the corruption of sin? That the Priest can exorcise unclean spirits?
The effort successful to remove the physical breath of God from the initiation into my Kingdom paved the way for the assault on the Eucharist – on my Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity brought to earth through the hands of the Priest.
In the name of love and safety you will be told no Consecration, no physical breath of God, the Priest cannot breath on the host.
All is about breath.
Breathing the very breath of God into the host, into the people. Satan steals your breath, kills your communities, and destroys your faith. Science becomes your God.
Satan will not stop because he wants the Eucharist gone from the table.
I AM amazed at the lack of faith of my Shepherds which has permeated the liaty. Only a remnant few truly believe.
Pray for your Bishop and his strength and for the strength of all Bishops.
Whether the Mass gets totally decimated will be up to the Bishops.
This purification will be short. My will is to bring you to union with Me. I don’t need the Mass because I AM perfect, but you need the Mass because it unites you to me.
Brave Bishops keep the remnant fed. To whom much is given much is required.
Mass will be hidden. You are hidden in Me.
Do not be afraid. I made you for these times. I called you by name. Do not embrace false security. My house was built on the cornerstone of Me, the foundation of the Apostles and prophets.
You are secure in me. You are surrounded by a legion of angels. I AM the God of TRUE LOVE, THERE WILL BE NO OTHER GODS BESIDES ME. I love you. You are mine.
Your Divine Spouse
I want to be clear that after writing this I can say I know our Sacraments are valid, but what has happened is that where the Priest used to align his bodily actions with the words to show the greatness of our God, somewhere along the way some of this stopped. I am ignorant as to how and why all of this happened and I actually don’t even like writing about it. And as for me, all I can say is that when Mass is allowed again I will drop to my knees to receive Him. I hope and pray I will be allowed to receive on the tongue in the most reverent way possible with no chance of particles hitting the floor. I hope and pray that my interior disposition never ever turns Jesus into a temporal good. I cannot control what will happen, I surrender that to God. I can control my actions, may they always be aligned with the will of God.
Many may read this and this I am some sort of anti-Vatican II person. I am not. There was nothing that was written there that I am aware of that should be interpreted in a way to desecrate the Lord. All interpretation should be for the Glory of the Most Holy. Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God almighty.
After all of this happened to me this week, the Lord began to speak to me about the Priests and their protection. I will be writing about that in an upcoming post.
Please pray for the repose of the soul of Gary Ast, my cousin’s husband. He leaves behind his wife and 9 children and 7 grandchildren. Please pray for them as well. He passed away from COVID19 on April 8. Praise be to God that he received Anointing and an Apostolic pardon. My cousin Father Joel, a Father of Mercy, gave a homily in which he included the story of Gary’s passing and the account of the heroic Priest at his side.
And if you haven’t already, it is worth watching Dan and Stephanie Burke tell their story of recovery from COVID19. Dan runs the Avila Institute and he has an underlying lung disease so his recovery truly is miraculous.
Stay safe and praise God in all things.