Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6
I told you all in my last post that I would expound on what happened on my drive home from the funeral I went to. I will be posting the journal entry I wrote as a result of that trip, but before I do I wanted to add a few things that happened since I have been back home.
First, like many of you my husband and I have started some home projects. When you are stuck at home you start to see where things need to be changed. We had dropped our oldest son off at college, a joy and a sorrow for me, and our youngest daughter, who is a tween mentioned she is wanting to not be in bunk beds anymore. My husband and I set out to disassemble the beds and get her a new one.
As we were taking the beds down, part of the frame of the bed slammed on my left ring finger; right on my wedding band. My finger began to swell and I immediately removed my wedding band so as not to have to get it cut off from swelling. Though the pain was great, my heart hurt more removing my wedding band which I never take off (except when I was pregnant because of swelling then to.) I iced my finger and I am waiting for the swelling to go down so I can put my wedding ring back on.
I went to a low Latin Mass today instead of the regular Novus Ordo I usually attend. I figure what a better day to go than on the feast of Our Lady of Knock. I was excited. It is only my 4th Latin Mass ever. I wasn’t expecting what happened to me. I don’t know why I wasn’t. You all know how I feel about the Latin Mass and I see the Mystical Body in the Liturgy.
To be clear, I do not think the Latin Mass would solve all of the church problems, but there is definitely something about this Liturgy that transcends. I sobbed my way through. For the first time in a while I felt totally spiritually protected in worship. I felt like I was in the womb of the church surrounded in mercy. Though I still don’t know the Mass, I did not have to lead, I did not have to save myself. Christ was clearly the head saving me. I felt totally surrendered and in that felt freedom, which was a respite from the oppression of the world.
As I looked down at my swollen, wedding bandless, finger, I felt as though I myself was a representation of the church – the Body – and swollen with Pride and Idolatry, I was not prepared for the wedding that was meant for my salvation.
Then he said to his servants, ‘The wedding banquet is ready, but those I invited did not deserve to come. So go to the street corners and invite to the banquet anyone you find.’ So the servants went out into the streets and gathered all the people they could find, the bad as well as the good, and the wedding hall was filled with guests.“But when the king came in to see the guests, he noticed a man there who was not wearing wedding clothes. He asked, ‘How did you get in here without wedding clothes, friend?’ The man was speechless. “Then the king told the attendants, ‘Tie him hand and foot, and throw him outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’
“For many are invited, but few are chosen.” Matthew 22:8-14
The world has gotten into the church instead of the church changing the world. We really don’t look very different from everyone else. This time period is a time period where we all must focus in prayer on our own purification so we are prepared for the banquet. Confession, humility and prayer are so key.
I will leave you with what I recorded in my journal after my ride home and these experiences. As always, if the church came out and said what I have written in wrong, then the church is correct and I am wrong.
Beloved Lily of the Father,
Come to me all you who labor and are burdened and I will give you rest.
Everything, all of Creation, is in and through me. I AM.
My mother held all of creation in her womb as she held me in her womb.
She is Theotokos.
The Glory of God’s creation is meant to be housed in you. It is meant to be housed in the church.
The church holds all of creation in its authority because the church holds ME the Eucharistic Christ.
The way the church goes is the way creation will go.
When the church worships my Glory, the church and creation are glorified.
When the church worships idols and brings scandal and sin, she walks the path to crucifixion.
Creation, like my Body on the cross, grows ugly and dark. 3 Days of darkness.
The air turns to poison like sulfer.
But the Mother of God is the Mother of the Church.
In her Immaculate Conception, her ever-Virgin purity, her Divine motherhood, and her Assumption she becomes the Ark through which the faithful are guided Eucharistically, because I will it. Mediatrix of Grace. Sharing in redemption.
I will send an Armada of Angels, equipped like warships to guide the barque back to where it belongs, between the pillars of my Sacred Eucharistic Heart and her Immaculate heart.
Endure and persevere in suffering with a trusting and grateful heart.
The breath of God will feed the air you breathe surrounded by a refuge of angels.
Take part in this cross and God’s glory will shine in a way the earth has not seen since before the fall.
Be grateful, even in the sorrow.
The contrite and pure heart is the key to the Kingdom.
Give thanks to the Lord for He is good. His mercy endures forever.
Your Divine Spouse
Thank you… I’m very glad to have read this post and the previous one since I was on the brink of giving up today; on the brink of despair, and then I realized that despair is not of God’s. I surrendered everything to Him again. Reading your post is so timely since it reminded me to keep trusting in God and and not cave in to the darkness that seems to engulf me lately. If you could please include me and my family in your prayers, I would be grateful, and I will include your intentions in mine. God bless you always!
praying for you now. Asking God to surround you in his Holiness and his goodness.
SIRACH (EcclesiastiCUS 34:13-17 – “Fear the Lord” (Encouraging Scripture!!!)
Just read your last 2 posts. Like the previous commentator C.A. I have been on the brink of giving up. A friend took me to A&E because I was seriously suicidal. I got involved with a so called ‘healer’ after suffering from depression. She took my life savings. I actually trusted her to give it back to me. Then heard she was dead. My bank are investigating and Action Fraud here in UK. That was my son’s inheritance. At 44 he still has unresolved issues and does not work. I am a single parent and rent social housing. I am suffering from panic, anxiety and depression and my son is under strain trying to look after me. I feel so guilty, ashamed, embarrassed and beating myself up for being so stupid when I could have avoided it all. Am over halfway through 54 day rosary novena, saying Surrender Novena but constantly worrying. I am trying to trust but all the ‘what ifs’ keep coming in. I don’t know how I will ever get over this and am praying for a miracle for the bank to have mercy on me. I would be so grateful for your prayers even though I think you have enough on your plate. I have a friend who lives with and with necessary help looks after her mother who has very advanced Alzheimer’s. Very hard. I used to nurse dementia patients on a general medical ward so have some idea. Going to offer up my sufferings for you and C.A. today. Thank you for your blessed blogs.
Julia, you can rest assured that you will be on my prayer list. I am so glad you had a friend who took you to get help. Even if it’s hard, try to rest in gratitude. Start with that, a Thank you Lord for that friend. Thank you Lord for my son. Remember also that guilt and shame is the enemy trying to destroy what God made good – you. You have the authority to say, “I am a loved daughter of a good King, and in the name of Jesus Christ I rebuke any evil that tells me otherwise and send it to the foot of the cross. I ask angels of sufficient rank, number, power and authority to fight this evil off and away from me. Lord send me your Holy Spirit to convict me of how much you love me. Gently show me my faults, not in condemnation but in loving conviction, so that I might grow closer to you and your holy will for me, which has gifts for me and a purpose and a destiny. Surround me in a perimeter of protection and love. I ask this in your most Holy Name and by the power of the Most Holy Trinity. In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
Thank you so much, that brought tears to my eyes xx
God Bless you.
Dear Susan. It is with gratitude I am writing this to thank you for your prayers. The bank refunded all of the money this morning. I and my son are so relieved. All I can do is keep thanking Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Blessed Mother (54 day Rosary Novena) St Joseph and other saints. All glory and honour to them. I am awe struck at this miracle. I will remember you in my prayers of thanksgiving when I say my Rosary. Blessings to you and for Veil of Veronica. Much love in Jesus and Blessed Mother. Julia xx
ROMANS 9:16 – “So then, everything depends, not on what we humans want or do, but only on God’s Mercy.” – Reference: Good News Bible GNT
SIRACH (EcclesiastiCUS) 34:13-17 -“Fear the Lord”
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My family is enduring with worry many unanswered and confusing times due to unexpected and sudden health issues for my husband. Praying for guidance and strength to face whatever is to come. I have lived my life from childhood to now as always offering up what is painful. Your story was here as that reminder in this time.
Prayers for your husband.
ROMANS 12:1-2 – “Offer yourself as a living sacrifice…… “Reference: Good News Bible GNT
“Beloved of the Lily”… could you please tell me where you were quoting from?
It’s how I hear God speak to me in prayer.
my name Susan means “Lily”.
Mother of God, Mother of the Church???
Mary gave birth to the vessel that contains the Word of God, which is Jesus. She is not God’s mother as God always is and it was the apostle that started the church movement under Jesus’ direction. Mary was a sinner also in need of redemption through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
In her magnificent psalm uttered while carrying the Christ child, she exclaimed, “My soul doth magnify the Lord, and my spirit has rejoiced in God my Savior” (Luke 1:47). Observe that she referred to the Lord as “my Savior”—not merely “a Savior,” or “the Savior.” No sinless person needs a Savior. Clearly this statement implies that Mary was a sinner just like the rest of us (Romans 3:23).
Sorry The Early Church Council in Ephesus declares Mary the Mother of God in 431. Jesus is one person with two natures (human and divine) not two people. What you’re saying would make Him not God and is heresy. The Council denounced Nestorius’ teaching as erroneous and decreed that Jesus was one person (hypostasis), and not two separate persons, yet possessing both a human and divine nature. The Virgin Mary was to be called Theotokos a Greek word that means ;God-bearer (the one who gave birth to God). Mary was also Immaculately conceived, yes Jesus is still her savior, by keeping her Immaculate.
Wonderful post Veronica! I am most happy that you find TLM special. Those of us who grew up with it and now return to it know how lacking the NO is. The TLM prayers are so beautiful. I use my missal from 1963 and the prayers therein give Our Lord His due and give us to know that He leads and cares for us, without a doubt. So sorry those 50 years of NO have eclipsed the beauty of the Holy Sacrifice for so many. Our Lady of Sorrows pray for us.
God Bless you Amen.
The bible very rarely ever mentions Gods wife, our Heavenly Mother, but we find traces of her mentioning in the below verse.
The children gather wood, and the fathers kindle the fire, and the women knead their dough, to make cakes to the queen of heaven.
I am glad you have such a bright sense of spirituality and love.
Keeping you, your husband, and your children in my prayers.
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