Fear, Faith, Trust, Surrender and Prayer

 

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. 

Hebrews 11:1

This summer I had a situation that made me feel overcome with fear.  It was just a routine medical procedure, but the procedure was a screening for cancer.  It was a screening the kind of cancer my mom actually suffered from.  I panicked at the procedure y’all.  I was afraid.  I was afraid that it would come back and tell me I had cancer.  I fought the fear but it escalated.  Being that I pray everyday, I was mad at myself for the fear.  I berated myself for being afraid.  When the procedure was over, and the screening came back totally clear, I felt guilty and ashamed that I had been afraid and that I had panicked, and I spent time wallowing in my lack of faith in God.   And then God spoke to me.

Why are you so ashamed Susan? Because Lord, I was afraid.  I should not be afraid.  I should never be afraid because I know you love me.  The Lord said, Susan, what makes you think you should not feel fear?  I responded, “you said perfect love casts out all fear.  I want to be like you.”  He responded, “read the verse again.”

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

I said, yeah Lord, I read it, AND?  He said, Susan, what is fear?  I answered, an emotion.  The Lord said, who gave you human emotion?  I answered, you did.  He said, is what I gave you bad?  And then he showed me something.  He showed me His own mother looking for Him when he was gone for 3 days as a boy;

When they saw Him, they were astonished; and His mother said to Him, “Son, why have You treated us this way? Behold, Your father and I have been anxiously looking for You.”  Luke 2:48

He also showed me Himself in the garden;

Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”  Matthew 26:39

And I realized that both Jesus and Mary had felt fear.  A human emotion that is a response to a real or perceived danger and is a natural thing.  Being that they did not sin, and Jesus is perfect love – there is something he was trying to show me.  He was trying to show me that fear is okay to feel, it is what we do with the emotion that can cause our issues.  He wants us to turn to Him about the fear instead of fighting it on our own and trying to save ourselves from it.  When we try to save ourselves from it without turning it all over to him the demons can have a field day tormenting us with it.  I spent so much time berating myself for being afraid that the fear actually rose to the level of panic.  Instead of acknowledging the fear and handing it to God who is the only one who can save me.

But there was something even more he was trying to teach me.  He was trying to teach me about the difference between faith and trust.  And this difference is very important because it is our trust that He needs so very much in these times.  It is why he told a Mystic Saint to have a devotion painted with the words, Jesus I trust in you.  It is this TRUST, this TOTAL SURRENDER, that forms us in perfect love.  A person formed in perfect love does not fear punishment of any kind. – See that-perfect love does not fear punishment. And this is where trust in the Father and the Son that the Spirit will work in you comes into view.

People often use the terms faith and trust interchangeably, but they are actually not the same thing.  The catechism tells us of faith;

By his Revelation, “the invisible God, from the fullness of his love, addresses men as his friends, and moves among them, in order to invite and receive them into his own company.” The adequate response to this invitation is faith. ccc 142

This lets us know that faith is a gift from God.  It is a grace because it is HIS INVITATION and our response to it.  Faith is believing in something we cannot see at the prompting of the God who loves us.

But trust, trust is something formed from tangible experience.  It is only through a life a prayer that we actually can tangibly experience the one who we cannot see – through the grace poured upon us when we pray.  When we are a child we trust everyone until experience tells us not to.  It is why Christ wants us to be like little children;

Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:3

This is because little children still have trust, the world has not yet tangibly wounded them.  Unlike faith, which is believing in the unseen thing and is a gift of God, trust is actually what happens when we make the decision to engage the gift of faith we have been given.  It is through this prayer life that we can trust because our Spiritual gifts increase and we can see what is happening spiritually even as the physical world tells us something different.  It is why someone can actually have faith in God but still act in a way that seems like they don’t have faith – because they are not talking to Him.  They can cling to God, while still questioning everything that happens without taking their questions to Him.  Trust, or rather distrust is borne out of wounds often perceived to be from God Himself.  But when we trust by actively engaging in our relationship with God, our faith, by the grace of God, grows and bears much fruit.

And it is again, why prayer is SO IMPORTANT.  A person can have faith, but if they are not talking to God daily they can be blinded to the spiritual world and where their wounds are actually coming from.  They won’t understand the chains of sin.  They won’t see that it is the devil who tries to steal, kill and destroy.  They will think that God has done this and their faith can be damaged.  They can often conclude that God must not love them because suffering has come their way.  They will seek to be healed but actually shy away from knowing the healer because of fear that He willed their suffering.  Often times they experience physical suffering, but it is their soul where healing is needed the most.  And they hide their soul from God because experience seems to tell them they don’t deserve His love.  They miss out on the healing of their soul hiding from the God who loves them.  At its worst, without prayer, faith can be lost because someone can conclude God doesn’t even exist because they cannot reconcile a God, who is supposed to be love, with the suffering they see around them.  They are blind to who the enemy actually is.

Contrast this with the person who takes everything they have into the relational conversation with God.  The person in relationship with God KNOWS God loves them.  They not only have faith but it is developed when they choose to engage in daily prayer and conversation with God.  They TRUST that He wills their good because they experience Him through the grace God gifts and increases in prayer.  But it is always a journey for the human soul to get to this point of surrender – it is the path to the unitive way that the church fathers spoke of.  A path to union with the WILL of God is a path of faith AND total surrender and trust in His will.  Our understanding of good is often formed by the world, but God’s good is growth in virtue because virtue helps purify you to form perfect love and the path of prayer is the place where God walks you to this understanding.

When we really realize GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME  in our soul we give up total control and hand all of it to God.  Many of our Saints died at young ages from physical ailments, but no one would ever accuse them of being sick because of not having faith.  On the contrary, their faith  is edifying to all of us because they grasped something beyond what most of us do.  And this is where Saint Faustina stands out as the example.  Throughout her diary she took all of her fears straight to God.  She knew that God willed her good, so much so that she was obedient to all he told her despite every obstacle she encountered.  Faustina knew that the goodness of God did not consist of her physical wellbeing, but instead in the growth of her virtue, and she TRUSTED that this was better because God assured her that it was;

My child, know that the greatest obstacles to holiness are discouragement and an exaggerated anxiety. These will deprive you of the ability to practice virtue. All temptations united together ought not disturb your interior peace, not even momentarily. Sensitiveness and discouragement are the fruits of self-love. Have confidence, My child. Do not lose heart in coming for pardon, for I am always ready to forgive you. As often as you beg for it, you glorify My mercy. (Diary, 1488)

Everything in the economy of Salvation is a movement towards union with the will of God; like it was before the fall.  But mankind seems no where near this kind of union.  We turn away from God all the time.  Nations rise up against him.  The faithful feel out of control.  The church appears to be crumbling.  But the answer lies in the words Jesus told this Mystic Saint from Glogoweic, Poland.  Jesus, I trust in you.  Or as he once told me in prayer using both the Sacred Heart and the Divine Mercy, Jesus I trust that you love me.

You see this kind of surrender teaches us that this world is of no consequence when in comes to our eternal salvation.  It is why a Saint can be dying at the age of 33 and still say, Jesus I trust in you.  I believe in my heart that God did not will Faustina to suffer, or any of us to suffer, but because of the fall of man, it is a consequence we all have to deal with.  Those who understand God’s perfection accept this and they don’t fight it.  And this acceptance allows God to do amazing and miraculous things.  It perfects us.  Faustina was able not to despair in her illness because she rested securely in God’s love for her.   She knew God alone was far more satisfying than even healing and she was willing to offer herself for others because of it. This kind of confidence in God can make one Saint offer themselves and their sickness to God, one Saint offer their life for another like Maximilian Kolbe and make one Saint into a great and miraculous healer like Padre Pio.  Each taking part in different ways in the Mystical Body of Christ.  

He sent His only Son to deal with the fall by sending Him to the cross.  And the Saints, having an understanding of the Mystical Body and the Economy of Salvation knew that their suffering united to Christ’s would be used by God to purify us all, and bring us closer to that union with His will that we lost from the beginning.  Faustina’s death didn’t just perfect her in love, it moved the rest of us closer to that perfection as well.  When we trust God wants our goodness, and we have faith in things like the Resurrection of the Body, then our earthly body can become of no consequence and we can hand it all over to him.

It was by faith that Abraham was saved.  He responded to God’s invitation by making the choice to pray which made him experience and trust in God with the gift of faith he had been given.  And his faith coupled with his trust made him the Father of Nations.

We are headed into perilous times.  My friend Lucy Patier believes (for your discernment) there will be events that take place in 2020 that will test us all.  She says the Spirit of God tells her 20/20 is a sign of God’s perfect vision.  A time when we will be able to see ourselves perfectly, as God sees.  This is why the message of total surrender is so needed right now.  Have faith, and make a decision to pray so God can grace you and you can surrender to God in all circumstances.  When you are afraid, don’t try to fight it alone. Surrender to him and trust.

 

 

About veilofveronica

I am a mother and wife as well as an RCIA and Adult Faith Formation catechist at a parish in the south. I have 3 children and a great husband.
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15 Responses to Fear, Faith, Trust, Surrender and Prayer

  1. Anne says:

    Lucy’s blog artiy you s very long….can you point to where she mentions 20/20.
    In all truth last week I had an understanding that 20/20 may
    mean 20/20 vision.
    We need it!!

    • Anne says:

      Sorry … article is very long.

    • I don’t think she does there. She told me in correspondence I had with her. I was just linking to her blog so people could know who she is. As always with the prophetic, it is something to turn to in prayer. What she is referencing is an illumination of conscience, which others have spoken of, and I feel God tell me himself. But just remember, we are not God, no one knows the day or the hour, so it’s meant for us to ponder. It would be a good idea to ask the Holy Spirit to convict each of us personally now – so we know what we need to work on ourselves before God directly intervenes.

  2. Anne says:

    We are all waiting on an experience of the fullness of Love. Just read The WArning… Mark Malletts latest… Voids of Love. We all need correction…..in His Love.

  3. Dee says:

    This article touched my heart deeper than any I have read in years. Please pray for me, and for all who are stuck in the part of the journey you describe about midway through your writing. It is apparent that you have come through that part, otherwise you could not have written about it so truthfully. Maybe I can hope for a joy-filled Christmas yet.

  4. Kathleen says:

    I read this article several times. I have come to understand that many people need healing of their image of a God, who is perfect love. The area of physical healing and the saints has always confused me and this article brought some clarity. Possibly because I am not as far along as the Saints, and also maybe because my various illnesses do not respond well to medical science, I have been astounded at God’s willingness to bring physical healing at various levels when needed. In doing so He shows me who he is, that is, Someone who is willing to bring relief to physical suffering. During the time when I was not experiencing as much physical healing, I did experience remarkable help and sustenance and divine intimacy. There is so much to be said on the topic of trust and faith as it relates to inner and physical healing. I just discovered your blog and will read more of your writings. I thank you for all that you were doing and hope to grow from knowing you through your writing. Sincerely Kathleen and Emmitsburg, md, Home of Saint Elizabeth Ann Seton and the grotto of Lourdes

  5. Christine says:

    Absolutely amazing felt really uplifted after reading it as well as challenged in my faith and relationship with god have a surrendered to his will?? 🙏 for me please

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