Hard Love

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Cortinthians 12:9

I have spent the past several weeks often feeling like I was drowning. Between recovering from COVID, digging out from the mountain of work I had waiting for me in my job, helping my teenagers who are often struggling, and caring for my aging mom, I was and I am exhausted. It is a feeling that I am not enough and can never be enough. So many things have fallen through the cracks. I have never felt weaker. It is a great realization that is actually a wonderful thing, when you finally realize, in every fiber of your being, that you are not your Savior.

I have spoken often of surrender, but it is in these past several weeks that the word has been plastered on my heart. The world becomes ever increasingly out of control and I see so clearly that the only thing we can do is rely totally on the God who loves us.

How many of you out there have felt almost despairing that your children are away from the faith?

How many of you are staring down a sickness that you see no way to conquer?

How many of you feel trapped or forced to do something against your will?

How many of you look at the state of the church and actually worry in anxiety that the gates of hell might prevail?

It is in these precise moments, the ones that are totally out of our control, that Divine Grace falls from heaven and meets us in our human mess. When we surrender all we have, we choose to love God anyway, and we decide to trust Him, Divine Grace rains down. His grace is sufficient for you. In fact, it is all you need.

His promises are true.

This realization, this surrender, it becomes a turning point for the miraculous. But it is an odd thing, because you surrender, not because of the desire for miracles, but because you want nothing but Love Himself, who is the only one who you are certain can fix this mess. And you stop trying to tell Him how best to do this and just rely on Him.

There are many who reject this grace, who think they can fix everything, who in their pride think their human answer is better than God’s. Don’t be one of those people. Be one who asks for that Divine grace to be poured over you. Let the power of God have some place to rest by resting your own heart in His.

I have been astonished to see, in the middle of this exhaustion, many of my relationships begin to heal and flourish. This is the place where God has descended. He actually wants to come heal his human family. It is when we finally let go in our hearts, we accept the suffering that has come, we face it, we love in the middle of it, and we don’t try to fix or save anyone ourselves.

I have spent many days crying physical tears, but also thanking God. Life is good and beautiful and Our Creator is awesome.

As my mom has been winding down these last days of her life, I have seen people around me love in astonishing ways. I have seen hard love from my husband, my kids, my siblings, my friends, and even from you out there who have never personally met me, but who have reached out in the middle of my suffering and lifted me up. Hard love faces the suffering and keeps going towards heaven wanting that those you come across are heavenly bound too.

I know the world seems awful out there at times, but I am telling you, God is bigger, God is better, God is good, and we really should have no anxiety. I was awakened at 1:43 am to tell you this, and I am not worried about the lack of sleep. We all may be in the desert, but Easter is around the corner.

Hold on to hope and surrender all you have to God.

May God Bless you and keep you safe.

Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. Romans 5:2

About veilofveronica

I am a mother and wife as well as an RCIA and Adult Faith Formation catechist at a parish in the south. I have 3 children and a great husband.
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24 Responses to Hard Love

  1. Judith says:

    Oh my gosh. You have no idea how I needed to hear this. Yes, God is still in charge! That you for your beautiful and encouraging words.

  2. Jackie Anderson says:

    That was absolutely beautiful and I know Jesus wanted me to read this! Thank you so much for your faithfulness to God! You and your family are in my prayers🙏❤️

  3. Claudia says:

    Thank you for your encouragement! You remind me to stop pretending to be strong and to be humble. “When I am weak, I am strong.” Only with God’s amazing grace🙏🏻💕

  4. charliej373 says:

    Susan, this is my favorite ever! This sort of surrender is exactly what I try to get across. And blessed are they who go through it now, for it strengthens them for later, when it will be needed most and needed to be spread most. This is truly wonderful.

  5. mkg2428 says:

    Hope, especially when placed entirely in the Lord, is a theological virtue to live by. Your piece wonderfully illustrates how this works in our day to day lives. Thanks for posting!

  6. Anne says:

    Brilliant Susan.raw honesty…which is where He is trying to bring us all. To be in an honest open relationship with God,ourselves and each other. Authenticity…true inner healing.
    Counter culture… Open to recieve more of His Love…so we can be rivers of Living Water to others .
    God bless you all. A-ma

  7. Wow Susan, thank you for putting this into the very words I needed.,. and so many of us need to hear🙏🏼
    I’m so sorry for this chronic heaviness you have been through…but know you recognize the merit we are being offered in “offering” our surrender.
    I’ve shared that my aging Mom with early dementia has come to live with us. These last 9 months have made me hit the deck in tears, not being charitable and loving when called to be, begging for Gods Mercy and Grace to cope. It has been a daily, if not hourly exercise in rededicating myself to Live in His divine will. (& lots of confessions repeating my weakness in this)
    More opportunity presented itself last week. We actually got a chance to go to Montana for a week to ski with our friend Bishop Parkes…Mom went to visit my brother. Alas, my husband took a hard fall and completely fractured the femur neck. Surgery next day for a total hip replacement. Two days later after we both turned ourselves inside out to board a plane back from Montana back home to FL. Know it was from God, many prayers, our Guardian angels…& our Blessed Mother’s intercession ✝️
    Now Mom is back here too. She needs skin cancer surgery 3 places beginning tomorrow …caring for hubby too w/ rehab, PT, basic skills. I’m gonna need to keep praying. 😉God sure knows what we need
    I continue to pray for you and your family ….please pray for us all here who are thankful for your witness, vulnerability and frankness. May God bless you ♥️

  8. Stacy says:

    Susan, you really bless us with your writings. Thank you for sharing.

  9. Mary Therese says:

    We all have different issues. Some seem overwhelming…. Thanks for waking up at 1:43 to encourage us, Susan. More much-needed encouragement for the journey Home….
    I always delight in and need your messages! Blessings and prayers for you and your family 🙏🏻

  10. maypeacebe says:

    Perfect timing for your beautiful message! May God continue to shower blessings on you and your family!🙏

  11. Dan says:

    Wonderful, Susan. Thank you and may Our Lord enfold you and your family within His Sacred Heart.

  12. These past few months I’ve been learning all that you posted about here, most of all that I am actually moving forward only when I stop trying to be God and to do His work. I suspect that I tend to meddle in God’s work when I’m not doing mine – which is living my thanks, lifting my heart in praise and quietening my spirit. I meddle when I start to get scared and forget to trust. These are all things I know – and yet, I learn them all over again each day.
    I feel for you and what you’re going through, Susan. There’s a lot you’re contending with. I too am exhausted here, running on empty but the road ahead is long, the journey not over. The way my country has responded to Covid has messed up our lives.
    But God tucked a little gift into my heart a few days back, Susan, and it gave me a lot of strength to rise up and to do it better. I’ll place it here for you and hope it helps you too.

    Blessed are they who have kept the word with a generous heart, and yield a harvest through perseverance. ~ Luke 8:15

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