Transhumanism, Mind Control and the Goodness of God

For He Himself is our peace, who made both groups into one and broke down the barrier of the dividing wall , by abolishing in His flesh the enmity, which is the Law of the commandments contained in ordinances, so that in Himself He might make the two into one new man, thus establishing peace, and might reconcile them both in one body to God through the cross, by having put to death the enmity. Ephesians 2:14-16

I really don’t want to write this post, but feel compelled to after being sent so many things by a variety of different people regarding what is going on in the world today.

We all know something is off, we can all see the trajectory of control, we can all see the evil, those of us who know the faith, that is. But I am seeing an alarming trend that hits at the core of the goodness of God.

I have been sent things about Nephilim being people who are half demon, half human. St Augustine and Saint Clement addressed this, but for me and my part I know this cannot be true because life is created through an action of the Holy Spirit. Demons cannot create life, they can only mimmic or trick. The Holy Spirit does not create life for the purpose of evil. To believe as such is to believe that God is not really good.

I have also received things about scientists trying to create transhumans and about mind control.

Daniel O’Connor has an excellent piece on mind control and why it cannot be.

Don’t get me wrong, there probably are people trying to create transhumans. There probably are people who want to control your mind. And while the material nature of your physical body can be damaged, the intellect, memory, and will that belong to you, cannot be forcibly removed from you.

The deepest core of who you are, your soul, by nature was made for the goodness of God. Your baptism adopted you into His Kingdom. If we are to believe that we can forcibly have our mind, our heart, our soul, handed over to hell without our consent, we are teetering on blasphemy. For not even God messes with our free will. And it is an offense against hope.

For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and produce great signs and omens, to lead astray, if possible, even the elect. Matthew 24:24

The elect could be deceived by seeing the false prophet as false, but attributing too much power to him and losing hope in God.

All of these things are distractions that keep us from knowing the power, truth, and goodness of God.

Christian, know your dignity. Know the dignity of others.

We cannot trust what we see with our senses. It can “seem” as if these things are true. But it is smoke and mirrors like the Wizard of Oz. It is a spell, no where near the power and glory of God.

Christ did not die so we could attribute powers of man, or powers of Satan, to being stronger than He is.

This is where it is so important to know God and trust that he is good all the time.

God the Father is power. Sins against Him are sins of weakness. This is important to know because God the Father knows our weakness and He sent His only Son so that His power may be made perfect in our weakness. We cannot believe that all people who are weak in a decision because of forcible coercion are lost.

God the Son is truth. Sins against Him are sins against truth and the nature of who we were created to be. If we believe our mind (intellect, memory and will) can be forcibly taken from us, that is a sin against truth. We cannot believe that truth gets taken without our consent.

God the Holy Spirit is goodness. To believe in transhumanism, or hybrid humans, is an offense against goodness. It presupposes that what God created in life, cannot be redeemed. That is a sin against the Holy Spirit. It is the rejection of goodness and mercy, and it is the unforgivable sin if we go to death with that belief.

Now is the time to hold fast to the truth. It is so important to know God. Knowing Him means we can be transformed into His Love and into His light; the light that conquers the world.

All of these false beliefs can lead you to be ruled by fear, or worse, lead you to dehumanize another person making it easy to hate and kill.

People often ask me, “don’t you want to know what’s going on in the world? Don’t you want to know the evil?”

My answer is, I want to be awake. I want to know the good, which in knowing the good, elevates you above the evil, even as you see the evil. I want the Tree of Life, not the knowledge of evil. If I drink from the Tree of Life then the power, truth and goodness of God fill me, and I have no need to worry about the evil because the serpents head is crushed.

It seems to me we border on some kind of strange Mysticism when we want to “know”.

This kind of Mysticism seeks to know things that are meant for God so that we can then in our worldly ways somehow try to control it. It’s the opposite of surrendering to God what belongs to Him. We cannot control all of these things, but we can control our faith in God to overcome them if we surrender to His Will.

Pray to believe in the Power of God. Pray to know the truth, not the future. Pray to keep hope that God is complete goodness all the time, even if our senses can’t see it. Pray for your human will to rest in the Divine Will.

Believe God loves you enough not to leave you orphan. Be not afraid.

Psalm 42

As a deer longs for flowing streams,
    so my soul longs for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
    for the living God.
When shall I come and behold
    the face of God?
My tears have been my food
    day and night,
while people say to me continually,
    “Where is your God?”

These things I remember,
    as I pour out my soul:
how I went with the throng,[a]
    and led them in procession to the house of God,
with glad shouts and songs of thanksgiving,
    a multitude keeping festival.
Why are you cast down, O my soul,
    and why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
    my help and my God.

My soul is cast down within me;
    therefore I remember you
from the land of Jordan and of Hermon,
    from Mount Mizar.
Deep calls to deep
    at the thunder of your cataracts;
all your waves and your billows
    have gone over me.
By day the Lord commands his steadfast love,
    and at night his song is with me,
    a prayer to the God of my life.

I say to God, my rock,
    “Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I walk about mournfully
    because the enemy oppresses me?”
10 As with a deadly wound in my body,
    my adversaries taunt me,
while they say to me continually,
    “Where is your God?”

11 Why are you cast down, O my soul,
    and why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
    my help and my God.

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The Domestic Church

My Family at My Dad’s funeral

Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it. – Proverbs 22:6

The Domestic Church – Confirmation Parent Talk

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Divine Maternity

Then Jesus told his disciples, “If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit them if they gain the whole world but forfeit their life? Or what will they give in return for their life? Matthew 16:24-26

I was talking to my friend Ashley the other day and she said, “I feel like Mary’s Immaculate Heart is the one Holy truth of the Church, and that is what will triumph. It is the hidden treasure the remnant will find and sell all they have to keep.” I told her I see the truth in her statement.

The Blessed Virgin Mary embodies all that we were meant to be. She IS the Immaculate Conception and truth was held always in her heart and when He became incarnate Truth was held in her womb. This is why she is the Mother of the Church, so the truth of her Son, can be held within the womb of the church. The doctrines of the church, they are to be held inside our hearts with love. They are not changing because truth does not change. It always was, is and ever shall be.

The remnant are those who hold the truth of the church, the truth of the Mother of God within their hearts and sees what God sees when it comes to God’s creations.

I went to Mass this morning on what was traditionally the Feast of the Divine Maternity of Mary, but is also the Feast of Saint John the XXIII. I felt the Lord speaking to me throughout Mass.

I record in my journal as if the Lord is speaking to me. If what I have written the church says is wrong, then the church is correct and I am wrong. I reference some dates, that I have referenced before, about 5 years ago, in this journal entry. I have not before, nor now, understood what these dates mean, nor do I have any kind of timeline of anything. I simply write what I feel spoken to me. The rest is for your discernment and my submission to the church.

October 11, 2021 – Feast of Divine Maternity

Beloved Lily of the Father,

I AM the 2nd person of the Blessed Trinity. I became incarnate to reconcile the world. To sanctify what God made good. My Kingdom Come.

When I came, I, who am TRUTH, entered the womb of the woman clothed in the sun. Her Immaculate Heart beat only for me. Beat in unison with mine. She became the Mother of God’s truth as she is the Mother of God and her heart will triumph when the Mystical Body accepts and houses the same truth. Her human will was handed fully to the Father. She entered into my suffering from the moment of her FIAT. She entered into the suffering of the judgement of man. Joseph entered into it with her when he listened to the angel and took her into His home. He entered into the suffering of the judgment of man. John entered into the suffering of the judgement of man with my Mother, the judgement against me, who was totally innocent, when he stood at the Cross. They knew the unchanging truth.

Truth does not progress in the ways of man. It is unchanging.

Doctrine is nailed to a tree. The remnant will stand at the cross and enter into the suffering with My Mother.

You will see who you are.

Some will be so shocked at the state of their Human Heart. It is so dark. You will see what you did to me.

Those that surrender will experience my Power and Glory because of my mercy.

Beauty will then unfold.

You will experience a new Pentecost. It is the era of the Holy Spirit; the uncreated Immaculate Conception who is united to the created Immaculate Conception.

Man has tried to control and fix the darkness without purifying themselves of sin. Your meager attempts at purification, the attempts that try to purify the body and not the heart, not the soul, hinder your actual purification. The more you try to control, the more the darkness gets fed. The wages of sin is death. I came that you might have life and life abundantly.

All movement towards union is a surrender of the human will, a surrender of your heart to truth, to love.

Do not be afraid.

Peace will come when you surrender to the truth of who I AM and who I made you to be. Her Immaculate Heart will triumph. The truth will be made known. Human hearts will be purified.

December 7 is the day that will live in infamy. December 8 is the hope for tomorrow, the Immaculate Conception.

They show that what the law requires is written on their hearts, to which their own conscience also bears witness; and their conflicting thoughts will accuse or perhaps excuse them on the day when, according to my gospel, God, through Jesus Christ, will judge the secret thoughts of all. Romans 2:15-16

  • Your Divine Spouse
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Spiritual Maternity

But He answered and said to them, “My mother and My brothers are these who hear the word of God and do it.” Luke 8:21

Susan Skinner Talk on Spiritual Maternity Goretti House Retreat, Nashville, TN

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My Sacrifice and Yours

Father Joel Rogers, CPM, at my father’s funeral Mass

The Church affirms that for believers the sacraments of the New Covenant are necessary for salvation. “Sacramental grace” is the grace of the Holy Spirit, given by Christ and proper to each sacrament. The Spirit heals and transforms those who receive him by conforming them to the Son of God. The fruit of the sacramental life is that the Spirit of adoption makes the faithful partakers in the divine nature by uniting them in a living union with the only Son, the Savior. ccc 1129

When the Father’s of Mercy were here last week for our parish mission, Father Joseph asked us what we offer when the Priest speaks the words, “pray brethren that my sacrifice and yours may be acceptable to God the almighty father”? I pondered this question for awhile, because though I do make an offering of myself at this point in my life and have for several years, there was a time I offered nothing. There was a time I did not pay attention to the words. There was a time I didn’t understand how God seeks our cooperation in His Sacrifice. True love is self-sacrificing, and Christ asks us to partake in this as part of His Mystical Body. When we do, sacramental grace pours over us, so that in offering ourselves in the sacrifice, God can lift us higher, for we know we cannot do it on our own. Our being lifted higher, partaking in Divine Nature, spreads outward to the rest of the world. This happens when we receive in a state of grace and when we recognize that we are not the center of everything, God is. With God nothing is impossible.

And in realizing what was happening when we do this, how that sacramental grace flows from Christ to each believer and how it then flows out from the believer to the rest of the world, I felt a profound joy and a profound sadness.

I felt joy because I realized how God can extend His grace to those who need it most, by His sacrifice and ours…. Our sacrifice united to Christ, in and through the sacraments, can be applied to our loved ones, and even to our enemies, in order that they might be saved. And all of it is done through the Pascal Mystery, through the Sacraments. I can place my fallen away loved ones in that chalice with me and sacrifice, for them. Christ already did it for them, our cooperation in that makes the sacramental grace flow. Everything flows through the sacraments. The light shines in the darkness.

And then I became profoundly sad because I realized that when our guardian angels approach the altar with what we have to offer as our sacrifice, many of them go forward with empty hands. I know mine did for a period of time. Not only does this put our own souls in jeopardy, but it cuts off the sacramental grace that could flow from us to others. And we wonder why the world is in the state that it is in.

We have spent so much time wondering what we can “get” out of Mass, missing the grace we receive, and offering nothing to give. It’s the tragedy of our time. When we sacrifice with Christ, when His divine nature fills us, our relationships with others are healed, creation operates in harmony, and souls are saved. We are so far away from this.

The Saints did have an understanding of this. Saint Therese of Lisieux, before she ever became a nun, prayed and offered sacrifice for Henri Pranzini, a murderer that all of France hated. Before he walked to the guillotine, he kissed the wounds of Christ on the Crucifix. It could be that the only place Henri Pranzini received the sacramental grace that could save him were through the prayers and sacrifice of Saint Therese of Lisieux united to Christ. How many souls did she offer for? How many repented before their particular judgement because of her offerings? Christ is the one mediator, and we are His Mystical Body. Would that we all pray and sacrifice like Saint Therese.

Henri Pranzini and Saint Therese of Lisieux

We are at a point in time where I do think it will take an illumination of conscience for mankind to understand all that we have lost by our lack of sacrifice with Christ. Today, October 3 in 1847, the people in Mexico experienced an illumination. It took place one day after a major earthquake in Ocotlán, Mexico. The city was destroyed and 40 people died. The parish church was destroyed. They held a Mass outside the day following the earthquake. An apparition of Christ crucified appeared in the sky for approximately 30 minutes witnessed by 2000 people. People cried out in contrition for their sins. It became known as the “miracle of Octolán”, and it serves as a reminder to purify your conscience with the sacraments, from which the grace flows.

We must stay on the path of purification and learn to offer sacrifice, even and especially when we don’t feel like it. The next time you go to Mass, think long and hard about the offering you will hand to your angel to carry to the altar, it just may help someone get to heaven.

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Holding the Hand of Purity

Saint Damien of Molokai

When Jesus had come down from the mountain, great crowds followed him; and there was a leper who came to him and knelt before him, saying, “Lord, if you choose, you can make me clean.” He stretched out his hand and touched him, saying, “I do choose. Be made clean!” Immediately his leprosy was cleansed. Matthew 8:1-3

Our world has everything backwards. It views purity as health and beauty for our eyes to see. It misses out on the interior purity of a heart that loves. We have all watched for months as our society has deteriorated. Riots, hatred, and pandemic madness have taken hold of the vast majority of society. People are regularly judging and condemning one another. It is the antithesis of Christ; an anti-Christ mentality.

Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Those who believe in him are not condemned; but those who do not believe are condemned already, because they have not believed in the name of the only Son of God. John 3:17-18

Vaccines and masks and whatever else you want to throw in the mix are all distracting us from Christ. We are viewing other people as diseases instead of persons made in the Image and Likeness of God. Mandates that violate our conscience are distracting us from Christ. The question becomes, in the midst of all of this, can we love as he loves? I think for most of us the answer is no. Or perhaps, not yet.

I pray, “Lord make me into another you. May you dwell within me. May I love as you love. Show me how.”

How do we fight for what’s right? I look to your Holy Face, Jesus. I stand in the way of evil, but I do not return evil for evil.

You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be children of your Father in heaven; for he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the righteous and on the unrighteous. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers and sisters, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. Matthew 5:43-48

This is the perfection of God. There was no caveat to this. Jesus didn’t say love your enemies except when it’s really really hard. Are we even trying to attain the perfection of God? Diabolical forces are trying to distract us from it and suck us into apostasy. We see the world closing in and we lose faith in the God who loves us. But Jesus is the Way. His light spreads in the darkness when His light is seen inside of us.

Right now my parish has a mission being run by the Fathers of Mercy. This order of Priests is able to preach the word with astonishing clarity.

We have had adoration every night. Last night in adoration I closed my eyes and pictured myself like Saint Peter, in the boat, seeing Jesus walking on water. I looked straight ahead and I could see Jesus. As I looked to the left and right I saw waves and heavy rain, they sometimes bore demonic faces. Jesus called to me. I told him I was scared. And then I felt her grab my hand. The hand of purity, the hand of Our Mother. She covered me in her mantle. The wind, rain and waves bounced off of her mantle as she whispered, “keep your eyes on Jesus, see Him in every person you come across.” I stepped out onto the water and the water was like foam blocks holding my feet up firmly. I made it to Our Lord. I could see their hearts glowing with the light of love. Sacred and Immaculate, they call me Beloved. We have no idea of the love that’s in store for us. We have no idea of the goodness to come.

Star of the Sea by Tianna Williams

I have always been fascinated by the Saints, particularly the ones that willingly walked into the storm without fear. Saint Damien of Molokai walked into the leper colony, seeing Christ in all of them. He did not see disease. He saw Christ. He risked his own health for the sake of others. He KNEW Christ. I think of this a lot as I see the madness unfold around us. We have forgotten who we are and from whom we came. We have forgotten our call to Sainthood.

We have Christ present physically at every Mass. The more we receive in a state of grace, the more we can be transformed into Him. May he make our hearts one with His. May He purify us totally and completely. May the God of peace be in our hearts.

“…I saw one like the Son of Man, clothed with a long robe and with a golden sash across his chest. His head and his hair were white as white wool, white as snow; his eyes were like a flame of fire, his feet were like burnished bronze, refined as in a furnace, and his voice was like the sound of many waters. In his right hand he held seven stars, and from his mouth came a sharp, two-edged sword, and his face was like the sun shining with full force. When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. But he placed his right hand on me, saying, “Do not be afraid; I am the first and the last, and the living one. I was dead, and see, I am alive forever and ever; and I have the keys of Death and of Hades.”Revelation 1:13-17

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Humiliation is good for you

Then Peter and the other disciple set out and went toward the tomb. The two were running together, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first.  He bent down to look in and saw the linen wrappings lying there, but he did not go in. Then Simon Peter came, following him, and went into the tomb. He saw the linen wrappings lying there, and the cloth that had been on Jesus’ head, not lying with the linen wrappings but rolled up in a place by itself. Then the other disciple, who reached the tomb first, also went in, and he saw and believed; for as yet they did not understand the scripture, that he must rise from the dead. Then the disciples returned to their homes. John 20:3-10

I had been pondering lately why Jesus would have chosen Peter to lead the church when Peter had denied Him. From my human perspective it seemed to make more sense to me that God would choose the one who more fully surrendered, the one who stood at the cross, the Evangelist John. But the other day, I finally understood. I will do my best to explain.

John the Evangelist had the gift of prophecy. I will veer off a little bit here to talk about prophecy and the responsibility of it and the dangers of it. The prophet is to always call people back to God and to repentance. The prophet sees things that others don’t see, this is the gift, to see with more clear vision. But it’s important to understand that Satan can come in to try to twist this gift. If the prophet isn’t firmly aligned with the will of God, if he isn’t to point of purification the Lord works upon us, then the prophet can easily slide into pride and judgment, thinking he is better than another.

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 1 Corinthians 12:2

And it was here that I saw the wisdom in Jesus’ choice. Of course it seems silly for me to question the wisdom of God. But being the limited human I am happy God dealt with me gently.

Jesus chose the one who got humiliated to lead. It was the humiliation of Peter that made him a great leader. He would always remember it. It enabled him to hear correction from Paul. Peter’s humiliation led to true humility. And for John, having to be obedient to Peter and defer to him as He did at the tomb, it keeps the gift of prophecy from becoming prideful. Obedience and humility are the key to true charity.

If we cannot love the person standing right in front of us and want well for them, then we have all missed the mark. Because in these dark times we are all living in, there is one thing I am certain of, we will all be humbled.

Being right has become more important than being loving in our society. This is why true prophecy shows the way to love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Can you go through that list above and honestly say that you are living that? Even when you are right and someone else is wrong? Are you trying to force your will upon another? God doesn’t force or coerce. God invites. God’s love is complete and it looks like the cross.

Sometimes I wonder if the world is under a spell. We have all become so blinded the narrow path of true love seems scarcely seen.

The devil, diabolus, is the divider. He is running rampant.

I will close leaving you with a curse breaking prayer. A prayer to protect you and hopefully help you to love others. I did not write it. I cannot remember now where I came across it. I did adapt it some, but my prayer is that if we are under a spell, God can break the chains.

A Curse Breaking Prayer

I proclaim that “Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: ‘Cursed is everyone who hung on a tree’” .(Galatians 3:13)

Having forgiven as I am forgiven and repented of my sins, in the Most Holy Name of Jesus, I pray for the blessing from the fullness of his cross, death, blood, and sacrifice, his resurrection, life and empty tomb, his authority, rule and dominion upon me and my family.

I ask the Most Sovereign Queen of Angels and Mother of God, Mary Immaculate, to intercede on our behalf.

In the Most Holy Name of Jesus I ask judgment to be brought from His throne against every foul power, principality, witchcraft, black art, curse, hex, spell, portal, astral projection, and pharmakeia.  I plead Christ’s blood over me and my family against all curses that have been raised against us – through media, technology or in person – anything written, spoken or unspoken, or transferred to us and all curses of death, murder, sexual curses, curses of never, discord and sickness, all curses on my marriage (if married), health or finances.  

I bring the blood sacrifice of Jesus Christ, the Son of God, his blood shed upon the cross, against all blood sacrifices and rituals and their every claim against me or my family.

I bring Jesus Christ, the Son of God, sacrificed for me, against all ritual sacrifices and their every claim against me or my family.

I bring the dedication of Jesus Christ for me in death upon the cross against all ritual dedications.

In the name, and by the blood of Jesus Christ, I break the power and hold of every curse that has come to me through ritual or ritual sacrifice.

In the name and by the blood of Jesus Christ, I break the power and hold of every curse that has come to me or my family through transfer by another human being. 

In the name and by the blood of Jesus Christ, I break the power and hold of every curse that has come to me or my family through words spoken.

In the name and by the blood of Jesus Christ, I break the power and hold of every curse that has come to me or my family through occult practices.

In the Most Holy name of Jesus, I declare every legal hold and every legal ground of the enemy broken, disarmed, and destroyed.  Satan has no hold over me or my family now through curses or occult practices, through sacrifices or ritual of any kind.  Through the blood of Jesus Christ, I am free.  Thank you Jesus, for setting me and my family free.  I order these curses and claims utterly disarmed and dismantled now, through the power of the blood of Jesus Christ and His Most Holy Name.

In the Most Holy Name of Jesus, I command all demonic spirits that have gained access to me or my family through curses and rituals cut off and banished from me and my household, in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Jesus I ask you to send your holy angels now to completely disarm all curses and black arts from me and my family, disarm their every device and render them destroyed.  I ask your angels to remove all foul spirits involved in these curses and black arts and bind them to your feet for judgment.

I now ask for the prayer of the communion of Saints to surround me. I ask for the mantle of protection of Our Most Holy Mother. I ask for the heavenly blessing the Father has given to me and my family in Christ Jesus. I claim those blessings right here in place of all cursing, by the power and authority of Our Lord Jesus Christ. May these things be accomplished in the mighty and Most Holy Name of Jesus. I give honor, thanks and praise, to the 2nd person of the Blessed Trinity who became the Incarnate Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth to destroy the works of the devil and save me from my sins. May the Holy Spirit dwell with in me.

In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen.

Peace be with all of you as we navigate these tough times.

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Facing the Darkness

Photo by Bridget Touhey

 to open their eyes so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.’ Acts 26:18

It seems that everyone I speak to these days is experiencing anxiety and fear. Even people of great faith have come to me, the fear can be so overwhelming. I have experienced it myself. One glance at the headlines and the thoughts start spinning through your head.

I am not here to tell you that bad things won’t happen. In fact, I am quite certain they will. I am here to tell you that God is still good. These things we are afraid of, we cannot control them, but God, He is in control.

And so, what are we to do when we have trouble trusting and letting go of the fear? We are to take the fear to Jesus and let Him walk us through it.

What do I mean by this? I mean go to your biggest fear, with God, and have Him walk you through it as if it has actually already happened. Instead of hiding from your fear, stare directly at it, with God, and have Him hold you as you face it together. Use your imaginative prayer to do this and let God lead you where He will.

You see, we tend to get stuck in our fear, or even try to fight against it. We try to hide it. We do all kinds of things with fear, except actually facing it. What if the worst thing you can think of actually happens? Stare at this serpent on the staff.

When you stare at the fear God can reveal to you where he wants to heal you. He can reveal to you how to radically trust him.

What is your biggest fear of the future? Is it being forced to do something against your will? Is it global collapse? Is it just simply that you worry your children will never come back to faith? Is it that people won’t love you?

Take it to God as if it has already happened. Stare at it. Don’t run away from it. Don’t let the fear eat you alive.

If you do this, the infinitely good God will show you how big His hand actually is. He will not show you the future, but He will speak to your heart, and He will show you how light overcomes darkness. He will show you a way that you don’t see.

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it. John 1:5

You see, there is one thing I have noticed, and that is, when something I have feared actually happens, it never actually plays out in the way I had worried about, and always in hindsight, I could see God’s hand. The fear and anxiety I had prior, dissipate as I can clearly see how I was walked through the fear.

So, by taking the fear that plays over and over in our heads to him first, and having Him walk us through it, we begin to see that we are always, always, his little children. And though a Father does discipline, He does not harm.

For once you were darkness, but now in the Lord you are light. Live as children of light— Ephesians 5:8

Children of the Light understand that what God allows to come their way is for their good, for their purification, for true love to shine in the world. And your perspective begins to change.

I was actually afraid of getting COVID, and that fear was sometimes overwhelming because of my caring for my elderly parents. Then I got COVID, and I saw the hand of God’s protection all the way through it. From the fact that my parents did not contract it, to the fact that my husband organized a plan to care for my parents while I was in quarantine. I got much needed rest and my husband was raised up by God to a higher level. I came to realize that even though the media throws around fear and accuses you, God is the author of all life. He decides when we stay and when we go. There is so much relief in letting God be God.

I was afraid of one of my parents dying, and then my dad did die, and I saw the hand of God all the way through it. And I saw how good God is. In fact, God answered everything that I had asked for in that process.

So the effort becomes to realize this beforehand – To trust that what has always been true will always be true – That God does not abandon his people and we can trust Him.

In fact, it is us who usually abandon Him. Not the reverse. And what He is asking is that we don’t leave Him the way that He promised He will never leave us.

Know that I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” Genesis 28:15

God is looking for souls in this time through whom His promises are made true. He is looking for the souls who don’t run from the cross, but those who embrace it with Him. It is here that we will see the power and the glory of God.

I believe, though we are entering into darkness as a society, that we are about to see an abundance of miracles.

So we have the prophetic message more fully confirmed. You will do well to be attentive to this as to a lamp shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts. 2 Peter 1:19

The call for all of us is to be the light of Christ that shines in the darkness. Take your biggest struggle to Him and let him show you what He can do with it. Remember The Blessed Virgin as your guidepost during this time and pray to trust like she did.

Do not be afraid, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Luke 12:32

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Rejoice in Suffering

My beloved child, delight of my Heart, your words are dearer and more pleasing to me than the angelic chorus. All the treasures of My Heart are open to you. Take from this Heart all that you need for yourself and for the whole world. For the sake of your love, I withhold the just chastisements, which mankind has deserved. A single act of pure love pleases me more than a thousand imperfect prayers. One of your sighs of love atones for many offenses with which the godless overwhelm Me. The smallest act of virtue has unlimited value in my eyes because of your great love for Me. In a soul that lives on My love alone, I reign as in heaven. I watch over it day and night. In it I find My happiness; My ear is attentive to each request of its heart; often I anticipate its requests. O child, especially beloved by Me, apple of my eye, rest a moment near My Heart and taste of the love in which you will delight for all eternity. – (Jesus to Faustina Diary 1489 Conversation of the Merciful God with a Perfect Soul)

The dreary routine has set in after the funeral of my father. The funeral itself was beautiful. It was a family reunion. The exhaustion of it was overwhelming. Then came the Sunday after all the people had left and it was just me and mom. My kids have gone back to school, my husband is back to work. I do have help from amazing caregivers, but it’s the moments alone at night with mom that are the hardest.

Right now I live in some version of 50 first dates or Ground Hog Day. Mom’s memory is rapidly declining. She gets agitated in the evening and I spend the majority of the time trying to convince her to stay with me rather than going where ever it is she thinks she has to go. Last week it was a wedding, yesterday a college reunion, the glimmers of the outgoing social butterfly my mom once was come through in all the confabulation of her thoughts.

But then comes the remembering. She asks me if “my Mike” is gone. She calls him her “main man” and she realizes he is dead, and the sobbing is body shaking sobbing. I climb into bed with her. I hold her as she asks me why I didn’t tell her (which I did), why I didn’t take her to the funeral (which I did). I lay there with her and we cry. It’s all I can do, hold her and cry with her.

As I laid there in bed with her the other night, I felt the Lord whisper, “there’s more grace in this one act of holding your mother than in anything else you have ever done.”

I knew that all the writings I have written, all the classes I have taught, all the retreats I have put on, paled in comparison to the minutes I laid in bed and held my mother. I was not able to fix any of what was happening, I was just in the suffering with her. And though I have been known to complain about what I am living right now, in that moment I welcomed the suffering and asked God to let it continue because grace was flowing like a river.

As I climbed into my own bed that evening I picked up the Diary of Saint Faustina and I read the above passage. I read how he withheld chastisement from us because of her love. And I understood it.

I came to realize that God’s view of suffering is vastly different from our own. The only suffering for God is our sin; it’s that we love something more than Him. And God, who is love, knows that when we love something more than Him, we are actually turning from love and we become dark in our hearts. It’s why acts of pure love are so filled with grace, because heaven truly resides within them. It’s why the world is in so much pain because we cling to our comforts, our health, our science, our money, other people, more than we cling to him. And in doing this we actually miss out on how to truly love other people.

I scan the headlines these days, but try not to get sucked into them. The world tries to give you an idol and tell you it’s love. But the truth is nothing the world offers can even come close to the love that the God of creation offers. He has been asking us to repent, to stop trusting the ways of the world more than we trust him. It’s why he told Faustina to paint, “Jesus I trust in you.”

I can see the storm we are in and the trajectory we are on. We actually deserve chastisement. We as a society have turned to sin and darkened hearts, but as I read the above passage from Saint Faustina’s diary, I realize how much just one soul who lives in the love and the will of God can do for the rest of mankind because of the God of love dwelling within them. I want to be one of those souls. I hope you do too.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 1 Corithians 13:8-13

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The Silence

“We must go a three days’ journey into the wilderness and sacrifice to the Lord our God as He commands us.” Exodus 8:27

I write in my journal as if the Lord is speaking to me. If the church were to declare what I have written is wrong, the church is correct and I am wrong.

Beloved Lily of the Father,

All of Salvation History from beginning to end is held within the Triduum, the 3 days.

My Mother marks the trajectory. Pay attention to her.

All things are being made transparent to those who KNOW me. If you know me, you know the Father and the Spirit dwells within you.

Have no fear or anxiety about the future. I AM already there. I hold you in the palm of My Hand.

The Smoke of Satan has entered the church.

They have made a God of science, it will reap destruction. Like those who worshipped Baal saw that the God of Israel is a consuming fire, so too will you witness this in these days.

You shall have no other Gods besides me.

Heaven and earth will shake.

Then will come the silence.

All will see who they are.

You will see what you did to me, what you did to my body on the cross.

The more communion you have received in a state of grace the more grace you will have to endure this sight. The sight of my broken body. You will see what you did to me, you did to yourself, you did to others. The shock of it will be immeasurable. It will be your Garden of Gethsemane, seeing what I saw. Held within the Triduum.

You must turn to my mercy at that hour, for the hour justice will come swiftly for those who reject my mercy.

The earth will tremble, fire will fall.

All will be dark for 3 days. If it were any longer you couldn’t bear it.

Prepare your heart to be a sanctuary, a refuge.

I love you and you are mine.

Revelation 8:1-5

Your Divine Spouse

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