The Stronghold of Unforgiveness

Posted on July 8, 2019 by veilofveronica

Destin Florida

View from the 9th floor balcony of the Palms in Destin, Florida

….he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the holy Spirit. Whose sins you forgive are forgiven them, and whose sins you retain are retained.” John 20:22-23

This is one of those posts I really didn’t want to write.  I didn’t want to open up and tell everyone what goes on inside my head.  But God said, “SPEAK. ” And so I will.

Before I tell this story, I want to remind readers of a dream I had on December 20, 2014.

In my dream I was attacked by a demon, and when I awoke I knew it was real.  Prior to this I knew that the devil was real because I knew that evil was real and I knew that God is not the orchestrator of evil.  But this day, this dream changed me.  I knew for sure that the devil was an active entity, a real entity, one that was trying to steal, kill and destroy.

I bring this up because I had known and established a relationship with God and knew I could hear Him speaking, but I don’t think I realized that the “voices in my head” could also be coming from Satan.  I had thought it was either my own voice, or God’s, but after this dream I knew there was a third voice, and it was one that wanted my destruction.

Discerning where something is coming from can be hard, but the nearer you draw to the Lord in prayer, the louder the Lord gets, and it gets easier to discern when the enemy is trying to derail you.  It’s how I know that my post-partum depression and anxiety contained the spiritual attack on my motherhood.

I tell you all this so you know there are 3 voices that speak to you.  God’s, your own, and Satan’s.  The more you sin, the louder Satan’s gets.  The more you pray, the louder God’s gets.  Whichever one you choose to make your own and you internalize and believe becomes how you interact in the world.  If you internalize God’s and walk as a loved child, you bring that love to the world.  If you internalize Satan’s you bring hate, death and sin in the world and you call it love but it’s a lie.

One of the things that brings a barrage of demonic voices to anyone is getting stuck in unforgiveness.  This is a wide open door that will let those voices pummel you with fiery darts of suggestion.  I know I have an area of forgiveness to work on when my anxiety rises and the images and thoughts make me feel out of control.  They make me accuse and suck all my joy.

So that brings me to my story.  I finally got to go on vacation after several months of feeling like I was on a treadmill.  I was so very very excited!!! Until I got to our destination…

My wonderful, loving husband booked us a room on the 9th floor of a high rise in Florida.  Now anyone who knows me knows that I have a grave fear of heights.  It isn’t just the healthy caution that one should have, it is an irrational anxiety that keeps me from doing things.  When I walked in the condo I cried.  Which promptly made the 17 year old roll his eyes and go out on the balcony of death to look over the railing.

Now I will say that in my journey I have come a long way about a lot of things.  There was a time when I would have LIT MY HUSBAND UP for booking a place like that.  I would have taken it so personally like he was malicious.  But I knew he wasn’t malicious, he was clueless.  Apparently my fear of heights did not occur to him when he was booking our vacation.  He worked hard to plan it, and at a nice place.  I wasn’t mad.  He sheepishly looked at me and said next time we wouldn’t stay up this high.  I knew God had something for me to work on.  I knew God wanted me there.  So it was time to take it to prayer.  I hugged my husband and retreated to prayer.

I had to shut the blinds as the balcony was like a magnetic pole to my children who must have been wearing metal clothing.  They wanted to be no where else but there.  So here’s where I tell you all about the “voices in my head.”  I would get barraged with image after image of my children falling off the balcony.   Then if I even tried to go out myself a voice would whisper, “jump”.  Now this one voice made me angry because it was so bold and I KNEW IT WASN’T MINE.  And I knew instantly Satan just wants me dead.  But God wants me to figure something out.  I wasn’t always afraid of heights, at some point something had changed.

I knew I could command the voices and images to go away in Jesus’ name, but that if I had an area of unforgiveness they would just come back immediately.  That’s why Jesus says;

But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Matthew 6:15

So I set to my task of asking God because I didn’t want to hand myself to the torturer’s any longer.

“Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to.  Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’  In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

 “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.” Matthew 18:32-35

He showed me a moment in time.  It was September 11, 2001.  I was newly pregnant with my firstborn.  The one I would suffer post-partum depression with.  I was watching the TV in my living room, watching the towers burn.  Watching people jump to their death.  I held my stomach tightly and I said, “my God, what kind of world am I bringing this child into.”  And I questioned having a child in a world filled with evil.   Like speaking a curse over the blessing God was giving me.

And I knew immediately who I needed to forgive.  I actually needed to forgive the terrorists for the trauma.  I needed to forgive myself for the doubt of life I spoke over my child.  Once I did this I could command those demons to leave and break any curses in the name of Jesus.  Thank God for confession.

I felt God further say that he wanted me to share this story so people would know how to discern the voices, and how to make them leave.

I could have spiraled into a wild amount of control, refusing to let my kids on the balcony.  But God let me know that we were on the 9th floor for a reason, because 9 is the number of the angels.  They surround me and my children, and if I don’t trust God with my children, then I don’t trust God.  These voices are barraging everyone, but not everyone recognizes it.  And even when you do, it is often a struggle to make it stop.  Don’t let a stronghold of unforgiveness keep you stuck.

By the end of the week I could sit on the balcony and have coffee.  I wouldn’t say I am ready to climb the Empire State Building, but I would say the voices left and the fear subsided.  And I rested in the love of God, and relaxed on my vacation.  In the months ahead I think it is important not to get stuck in our own control, and unforgiveness.  You are not your Savior, Jesus is, and he has left us so many tools to fight this battle.  If you think you have it figured out on your own, He will let you know you don’t.  If you find yourself in fear and accusing others, there’s probably something you need to work on.  Remember forgiveness does not mean no consequences.  Forgiveness just means you can be free.  Totally free.

The demons are so active right now.  My friend Charlie also had a vision on December 20, 2014.  These demons are actively trying to take us down.  So RECOGNIZE IT and fight intelligently.  Put your Holy Hatred on Satan where it belongs.  Don’t be afraid, be MAD, at the right entity and put on the Armor of God.

 

 

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The Work Still to be Done

Posted on June 23, 2019 by veilofveronica

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Poussin – The Institution of the Eucharist

Everyone who commits sin commits lawlessness, for sin is lawlessness. You know that he was revealed to take away sins, and in him there is no sin. No one who remains in him sins; no one who sins has seen him or known him. Children, let no one deceive you. The person who acts in righteousness is righteous, just as he is righteous. Whoever sins belongs to the devil, because the devil has sinned from the beginning. Indeed, the Son of God was revealed to destroy the works of the devil. No one who is begotten by God commits sin, because God’s seed remains in him; he cannot sin because he is begotten by God. In this way, the children of God and the children of the devil are made plain; no one who fails to act in righteousness belongs to God, nor anyone who does not love his brother. For this is the message you have heard from the beginning: we should love one another, unlike Cain who belonged to the evil one and slaughtered his brother. Why did he slaughter him? Because his own works were evil, and those of his brother righteous. Do not be amazed, [then,] brothers, if the world hates you. We know that we have passed from death to life because we love our brothers. Whoever does not love remains in death.  Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life remaining in him. The way we came to know love was that he laid down his life for us; so we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.  If someone who has worldly means sees a brother in need and refuses him compassion, how can the love of God remain in him? Children, let us love not in word or speech but in deed and truth. 1 John 3:1-18

 

As you all know I record what pops in my head as a letter from God.  If the church came out today and said all I have written is wrong, the church is correct and I am wrong.  I always want to be clear about that so you can discern what I write.  Here is what I felt the Lord say to me on this weekend of the Feast of Corpus Christi;

Beloved Lily of the Father,

I have come for your sanctification.  I reveal nothing to you that I haven’t revealed in and through others, you are a connector, connecting things I have revealed.  I died on the cross for your Redemption but my promise is still to be fulfilled.  I came to destroy the works of the devil.  This was done and completed in My Mother.  My Kingdom was established in her.  But I came to establish My Kingdom in each of you, this is the work still to be done.  Your baptism and belief bring you Redemption but the fullness of what I came for is Sanctification.  Purgatory sanctifies.  However, if you do MY WILL on earth as it is in heaven you partake in sanctification as co-redeemer.  My Mother is Co-Redemptrix because in order to Redeem,  I came through a soul where My Kingdom was established already.  It was established in her.  Redemption is for all baptized who believe and sanctification is subject to each soul who is willing to be purified by surrendering their human will to us.  The levels of purgatory are the degree to which a person hands themselves to our will while on earth.  Purgatory is my Mercy.  Being purified of what kept you from complete sanctification.  Nothing imperfect can be in heaven.  Those who reject my mercy for themselves and others and remain in pride of mortal sin unto their death blaspheme the Holy Spirit and are lost to the fires of hell.  You can be sanctified on earth.  I make you holy when you surrender all to me.  I completed Redemption your cooperation determines your level of sanctification.  Some realize this to a great degree.  They partake in my cross.  When you partake in my cross you have access to MY CREATION.  Full domain over creation.  The more you give yourself to me, the more you have access to creation and are not limited.  Healing, bi-location, raising the dead.  You can do things that seem impossible because it is no longer you, but I who have established My Kingdom in you and I am not limited.

I am raising Saints like you have never seen before.

Many fear my chastisement.  I tell you, DO NOT FEAR, EMBRACE IT AND YOU WILL SEE POWER LIKE NEVER BEFORE.  I AM POWER MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS.  TAKE UP YOUR CROSS AND FOLLOW ME.  My Will will be working in and through you.  IT IS PERFECT LOVE and perfect love casts out all fear.  This is how you operate as the Body of Christ.

Isaiah 60:1

– The Most Holy Trinity

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Storm Watching

Posted on June 21, 2019 by veilofveronica

downed tree

Downed Tree from storms in Middle Tennessee June 19, 2019

 

You who dwell in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shade of the Almighty, Say to the LORD, “My refuge and fortress, my God in whom I trust.” He will rescue you from the fowler’s snare, from the destroying plague, He will shelter you with his pinions, and under his wings you may take refuge; his faithfulness is a protecting shield. You shall not fear the terror of the night nor the arrow that flies by day, Nor the pestilence that roams in darkness, nor the plague that ravages at noon. Though a thousand fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, near you it shall not come.You need simply watch; the punishment of the wicked you will see.  Because you have the LORD for your refuge and have made the Most High your stronghold, No evil shall befall you, no affliction come near your tent. For he commands his angels with regard to you, to guard you wherever you go. With their hands they shall support you,lest you strike your foot against a stone. You can tread upon the asp and the viper,trample the lion and the dragon.  Because he clings to me I will deliver him; because he knows my name I will set him on high. He will call upon me and I will answer; I will be with him in distress; I will deliver him and give him honor. With length of days I will satisfy him, and fill him with my saving power. Psalm 91

 

Yesterday, I spent the day getting ready for my family to go on vacation.  I didn’t turn on the news or look at the weather for the day at all.  I just went about my day, doing laundry and getting ready for travel.  Around 4:00 p.m. I wheeled our trash can out to the curb and felt a spit of rain on my arm.  I looked up at the sky, it was cloudy and a little bit eerie.  I knew a storm was coming.

I like to watch storms.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not a storm chaser, though I have been in the eye of a hurricane before.  I was in Thibodeaux, LA when hurricane Andrew hit back in 1992.  I had never seen a sky that color before.  Weather often lets us know we are not the ones in control.  But back to yesterday, I don’t chase storms, but I will watch storms from my front porch on occasion, as long as they aren’t too scary.

Yesterday’s storm was weird though.  I knew it was coming from the time I took the trash can out.  But 5:00 p.m. came and it didn’t hit us, and 6:00 p.m. came and it didn’t hit us, and 7:00 p.m. came, and it didn’t hit us.  Somewhere around 7:30 p.m., the sky stopped it’s occasional spitting and opened up into a downpour.

I went to sit on the front porch.  I grabbed my bible and a candle in a glass jar.  I lit my candle and sat in my rocking chair.  I held my bible and prayed.  God told me to pay attention.

He said, “you knew the storm was coming, I warned you for quite awhile.”  The rain began to fall very hard and very quickly and in a flash of lightening,  it got nasty wicked out.  It almost looked like a hurricane as the rain was full on sideways because of the wind.  I thought I better go inside.  God said, “no, stay and watch.”  The wind was blowing so hard a mist of rain was getting me wet.  I was becoming very cold and very uncomfortable.  Rain poured from my home’s gutters, threatening to soak the entire porch if they broke away from the house, but they held firm.  I was wet but I wasn’t soaked.  My candle blew out.  It was dark.  He said, “this is what it will be like, it will be dark like a hurricane.  You will be uncomfortable, you will suffer, but you who dwell in the shelter of the Lord will be rescued.”  Psalm 91 was coming alive.  The storm was fierce but ended rather quickly, as quick as the bolt of lightening that had unleashed it.  I had a sense of total peace about me, even though most people would have come inside long before I did.  I felt as though he was giving me a glimpse, a small glimpse, of what is to come.

We are in a storm, still the warning phase, much is yet to come.   What will come will not be what we have envisioned in our heads.  I actually don’t think we can fathom it, the immensity of it all.  But what I do know is God is in control and we should have no anxiety.  It isn’t like me to stay out in a storm that was as bad as last nights, but I KNEW God was with me and I didn’t need to fear.  He is giving us time, time to pray, fast, and align ourselves with His Will.  His Mother is interceding for us.  Time is short, don’t waste it.  We shouldn’t wait until the storm is full blown before we start listening to God.  Pray now.

May the Peace of Christ be with you.

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On Motherhood and Fatherhood and Calling No Man Father

Posted on June 7, 2019 by veilofveronica

Divine Child

 

As for you, do not be called ‘Rabbi.’ You have but one teacher, and you are all brothers.  Call no one on earth your father; you have but one Father in heaven.  Do not be called ‘Master’; you have but one master, the Messiah.  The greatest among you must be your servant.  Whoever exalts himself will be humbled; but whoever humbles himself will be exalted.  Matthew 23:8-12

The other day I was sitting in my office pondering Our Blessed Mother and thinking about the Litany to Our Lady Healer of Families.  And in a moment it struck me that one of the Dogma’s of our faith is Mary the Mother of God, or Theotokos.

I pondered this for awhile, that Mary, who is the daughter of God the Father, the spouse of the Holy Spirit, and Mother of the Son, all things relationship with God, but the preeminent definition of who she is in relation to God is MOTHER.  That is the essence of who she is and is a defined dogma.  And I realized with my heart (not just my head) that this means she isn’t just the Mother of Jesus’ humanity (Nestorian heresy), but the Mother of the his divinity, his whole person;  And since the Spirit by the action of the Holy Spirit we receive him in the Eucharist and he dwells in us, she is LITERALLY OUR MOTHER and not just spiritually.  The more we turn to her, the closer in union we become with God.

Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?

1 Corinthians 3:16

And so it was here that I knew God was trying to tell me something more.

Our existence is about our very relationship with God and how we relate to God extends outward to our fellow man.  When we recognize our source, and that it is a source outside of ourselves, but that dwells in us, we become Christ-like.

The very first relationship we have is that of daughter or son.  This is a relationship of receiving.  We are young, weak, unable to care for ourselves, and so we must receive what we need in order to flourish.  A child that receives from his or her parents what is needed is a child that flourishes.

The next relationship we have is two-fold – it can be brotherly or sisterly – or it can be spousal.  These relationships are giving and receiving.  These relationships are intimate, not in a sexual way (though with spouses that intimacy is also physical), but in a way, that when the good of the other is sought, these people can know who you are and continue to give love and receive love from you.

The next relationship is that of Mother or Father.  This relationship is one of giving.  When a child is in the womb, and later born, they are completely weak and helpless.  They cannot give of themselves.  Mothering and Fathering requires much sacrifice.

This is the ultimate expression of God in us because it requires total giving.

Motherhood and Fatherhood are life giving.  I have written before of how women give life from their wombs and men, as Priests, give life to us in the Eucharist.

The relationship cycle is meant to purify us and draw us closer to God.  Throughout our lives it is an ebb and flow of these relationships, but union with the will of God is Motherly and Fatherly.  It is self-giving love.

We need first to receive, and then give and receive, in order to be brought to this union of giving the way that God did.  When we walk this path, when we walk in the authority God gave us, we become confident Mothers and Fathers that the devil will flee from.  This self giving love does not require actual Motherhood or Fatherhood, it requires the recognition that the Love of God is sacrificial and giving and can dwell within each of us.  It is TRUE CHARITY and does not expect reward.

Mary as Theotokos, is the ultimate expression of the love of God.  Defining Mary as the Mother of God defines who Jesus is and how He wants to fill us and what we are to become.

If a society looks down upon Motherhood and Fatherhood the society will collapse because it is a society that doesn’t know how to give.

Jesus came as the Divine Child to show us the SOURCE OF CHARITY, to show us how to give.

Mary and Joseph were essential to this plan because they had to give of themselves in order for the rest of us to receive HIM and grow into Mothers and Fathers whether literally or spiritually.

He started as a child to show us who we are to become.

Looking at the Divine Child you are looking at the SOURCE.

Which brings you back to the will of God;  The source, the giving tree, the Tree of Life.

There is a reason Satan attacks Motherhood.  There is a reason even Catholics are now attacking calling a Priest Father.

Destroying Motherhood and Fatherhood destroys CHARITY.

In a twisted diabolical form they claim to uplift women by attacking the very essence of what forms her in LOVE.  They take what Jesus said about calling no man Father and twist it to destroy what Christ is trying to teach us about LOVE.

The Fatherhood of the Priest is NOT a Fatherhood of man.  Remember no one is good but God alone (Mark 10:18). The Priesthood is the Fatherhood of God.  A Fatherhood of giving.  A SOURCE OF CHARITY.  Priests are giving us DIVINE LIFE LITERALLY. The devil wants nothing more than to destroy this.  And he is working inside the church to do so.

It is why Mary is so needed right now.  And her sons, the Priests, who are also FATHERS of GOD because they give us the SOURCE OF CHARITY in the Eucharist.  Look at the Divine Child.  The Divine Child mirrors Christ on the Cross and the Eucharist… a person totally in the hands and control of others…How will you LOVE HIM?

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The Tree of Life

Posted on June 3, 2019 by veilofveronica

Tree of Life

 

Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love Him.  1 Corinthians 2:19

 

As you all know I record what pops in my head as a letter from God.  If the church came out today and said all I have written is wrong, the church is correct and I am wrong.  I always want to be clear about that so you can discern what I write.  Here is what I felt the Lord say to me today;

Beloved Lily of the Father,

The Garden of Eden had both the Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.  The Tree of Life is My Will, the will of the Father.  This tree nourishes and is an ever flowing source of life drawing from the endless river of Divine Love.  This is because this is a giving tree, a tree of perfect love.  The Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil is Free will, wherein lies your human will.  Eve saw that the tree was good for food and a delight to the eyes.  It was both of these things because it’s source was Divine.  But it was not a source in and of itself.  She had been convinced it would make her wise, instead of to the tree of life and she convinced Adam of it as well, who failed in giving of his protection.  The devil who looked only to this tree of knowledge of good and evil himself, convinced them to partake and stole what had belonged to Me and what I had given to those who dwell with me.  He who was a Seraph and knew from where he came because he was so close to me, in his pride and his envy, he tried to become the source.  He can never be the source.  He can only mimic the source, and they handed their will to Him, their authority, their domain.  The veil of self knowledge shrouding the source of Divine Life, shrouding my will.  But this tree is not self sustaining, it cannot live on its own without the tree of life.   To try to live on this tree alone begets death and destruction because apart from living in the divine will, the human withers and dies.  The effect of this original sin is the continual concupiscence, looking to self, to human will, to accomplish what only I dwelling in you can accomplish.  You miss the fact that you no longer walk in authority because you have handed it over and you try to sustain what cannot be sustained because you have rejected the truth from where you came.  You can never truly be apart from the Tree of Life, because if you were you would cease to be.  But you can reject it as the source from which your life, your will- came, and in doing so, you choose an eternity that is empty of love.  I never severed you from the Tree of Life, the story of Salvation is my cry to you to turn back to it.  Back to unity of with my will.  In my love for you, I continue to be the source, but all of my creation cries out to move you back in union with your source of life.  In my Providence because I AM THE UNCREATED IMMACULATE CONCEPTION, outside of time I withheld original sin from the Woman of Revelation. I breathed the breath of Life into the CREATED IMMACULATE CONCEPTION, one who was never shrouded from MY WILL and so never experienced concupiscence.  Born full of grace, recognizing the source of Life and walking always in union with My Will.  She still had to choose and she chose perfect love.  I created a human being who chose to be totally sustained in the will of the Father.  Drawing only from the Tree of Life.  Her yes to My will enabled me to come.  To send My son who is consubstantial with me.  Taking on the humanity and human will in the person of the eternal Son who is God.  The Holy Spirit, who is God, dwelt within her.  She became Mediatrix of all Grace so I could come and you could come back to unity with my will.  Everything coming forth from me and returning to me.  Just as I came to you through her, so too it is through her that you come to me.  You too can be Immaculately conceived anew by handing yourself to her who is in total unity with us.  The more you hand yourselves to her, the more you receive the Sacraments, the more you pray, the more full of grace you become, raising you and glorifying you to do even greater things with the Spirit dwelling in you.  You were meant to be powerful as the Body I created you to be; Drawing straight from the Tree of Life.   

A great sign appeared in the heavens, a woman clothed in the sun, with the moon at her feet, and on her head a crown of twelve stars.  This has taken place.  She has come to guide you to the Tree of Life.  The one to which her Son was nailed, uniting once again humanity’s will and the will of the Father.  You will experience a pouring out of the uncreated Immaculate Conception to unite you with the source of Life that extends beyond Pentecost to all the earth.  The hour to reap the harvest has come.  Look for fire from the skies.  Stay awake and do not fear.

  • The Most Holy Trinity
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You are a priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek

Posted on May 31, 2019 by veilofveronica

Father Luke Wilgenbusch praying over Susan

Newly Ordained Priest Father Luke Wilgenbusch gives me a blessing.

…“The Lord has sworn
And will not change His mind,
‘You are a priest forever.”   

So much the more also Jesus has become the guarantee of a better covenant. Hebrews 7:21-22

Recently I was saddened to read about a popular Priest who has asked to leave the Priesthood.  I am not here to judge him and whatever his journey may have been that led him to this conclusion.  That is for God to deal with.  I will say though that the catechism teaches;

1582 As in the case of Baptism and Confirmation this share in Christ’s office is granted once for all. The sacrament of Holy Orders, like the other two, confers an indelible spiritual character and cannot be repeated or conferred temporarily.

So it is with great sadness to me to hear of a Priest who no longer wants or perhaps cannot perform the duties of his office.  It is a hard time we are living in.

I recently went to the ordination of 5 new Priests.  I thought about how courageous they must have to be to become a Priest in these times.  But God told me, it is grace, because it is He who called them and He who carries them.  They just have to keep their eyes on Him.  You all know that I have felt called to pray specifically for Priests.  I pray every day for a specific Priest God called me to pray for, for the Priests of my parish, and for my cousin who is also a Priest, along with prayer for my Bishop and the Pope.  I keep a list of Priests who have asked me to pray and I ask God to bless them.  In the past I have used prayers I found online to pray for them, but last week I felt God tug at my heart to write a prayer that can be used to pray for a specific priest by name.  I publish the prayer here because I do think they desperately need prayer, especially the holy ones who are under such attack.  And because there are also so many who failed in their duties that can be called back to the glory that God wants for them.

Lord Jesus you have asked me to pray specifically for the sanctification of your Priest Father (Name).  In obedience to your most Holy will, I ask that you pour the Holy Spirit over him and increase all of his gifts.  I ask our Most Blessed Mother to wrap him in her mantle.  I ask Saint Michael to protect him from the harm of the evil one.  Specifically I ask he be protected from calumny, ridicule, suspicion, and false accusation.  I ask Lord that you pour blessings on his labors and guard his chastity.  In his suffering and sorrow, purify him, comfort him, and draw him closer to your heart.  Lord Jesus, may the people who hear his preaching receive your word and have their hearts and minds opened to the Gospel of your love and mercy. May the power of your presence in the Eucharist he consecrates transform the hearts of the people who receive.  May those who receive your absolution from him become totally healed and reconciled with the fire of the Holy Spirit.  I ask all the Saints in heaven to pray with me for him that through him you will be glorified and praised and may he one day be counted among the Saints in heaven. I ask this in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen.

“I, Jesus, sent my angel to give you this testimony for the churches. I am the root and offspring of David, the bright morning star.” Revelation 22:16

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Standing on Sand

Posted on May 29, 2019 by veilofveronica

sand storm

 

The Law came in so that the transgression would increase; but where sin increased, grace abounded all the more,  so that, as sin reigned in death, even so grace would reign through righteousness to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. Romans 5:20-21

The past couple of months have interiorly been difficult for me and I have been trying to talk to the Lord about it.  There was a barrage of things that took place, starting with the dog, to some family turmoil, to sickness.  All of it was coming at me from outside.  From other people, places and things.  There were just so many things I could not control.  I was feeling pummelled.  Couple that with the the state of the world and it’s deterioration, and the internal battle began raging.  The enemy was at the gates, trying to break in and get me to believe the lies.  The enemy tries every tactic he can to get you to walk away from God.  If he sees your interior growing in holiness, he will pummel with exterior things.  This is how I know that I am actually doing what God wants, when the attack gets fierce.  God was wanting me to wrestle with and figure out a very big question.

WHO AM I?  Have you ever asked yourself this question, or even asked another person?  Almost always you get an answer of what a person does.  I am a teacher.  I am a doctor.  I am an accountant.  But this is not what God wanted from me.  He did not want to know what I did.  He wanted to know WHO I AM.  What is it He sees?  This is vastly different than a job.  When you start asking who you are in God’s eyes, you can also see where you are standing on sand.  What do I mean by this?

The walk with God is one of purification.  It is one of perfection in virtue where you become attached to God alone.  When you are attached to God alone, you operate in the very essence of who you are.  All of your gifts become apparent and they are used in service of God which brings you in closer communion to other people – regardless of what they are doing.  You learn how to interact lovingly, how to pour God’s life and truth out into the world.  But the closer you get to God, the more you see what you cling to that is not Godly, and how the devil can even use things that are inherently good to draw you away from God by twisting that inherent goodness into something self serving.

Let me give you an example.  I could use any example, but I want to use one I see a lot of fighting about in Catholic circles; the Liturgy.  I am a stickler for Liturgy.   I like the Liturgy to follow the rubrics because they were written by the authority of the church, which we should be obedient to.  This is all good.  I have noticed Catholics can “church shop” as much as Protestants in this regard.  If we like one Priest better than another we leave and go to another church.  Now please understand what I am saying here – we should have a proper liturgy this is good.  But what happens when it gets abused?  We leave and go elsewhere.  That is not necessarily bad to do that right?  Right.  But here’s the thing; WHAT IF IT ALL BECOMES BAD?  What do we do then?  The catechism tells us;

“Before Christ’s second coming the Church must pass through a final trial that will shake the faith of many believers. The persecution that accompanies her pilgrimage on earth will unveil the ‘mystery of iniquity’ in the form of a religious deception offering men an apparent solution to their problems at the price of apostasy from the truth. The supreme religious deception is that of the Antichrist, a pseudo-messianism by which man glorifies himself in place of God and of his Messiah come in the flesh.  – Catechism of the Catholic Church 675

So what if we have all left all of the places where there is abuse and we find ourselves with no place left to go?  Do we lament and call ourselves the remnant as we watch “those people over there” self destruct and hide away hoping to avoid their fate?  That seems to be what the Apostles did to Jesus.  Only one stood with him when it all fell apart.

I had to ask myself that question seriously, and what it means to know WHO I AM in God’s eyes and what exactly is He asking me to do?  If I am simply looking for the Liturgy to be better and proper…. what am I actually doing?  It seems to me I am clinging to SECURITY and not to God.  What if God wants me in the middle of a place filled with ABUSE?  I need to know WHO I AM so I can remain standing.  I need to know I AM THE LOVED DAUGHTER OF A KING.  And my security doesn’t come from RUBRICS but GOD. Who will hold me up when the world starts crumbling?  If everyone else is disobedient, where will I turn?

Why is this important?  Because if I do not rest securely in GOD and the fact that who I am is HIS CHILD WHO HAS BEEN GIFTED, I will run away from every uncomfortable situation, cling to my worldly security, and shut down the gifts that he gave me and wants me to use.  I will be operating OUT OF FEAR.  Satan feeds on fear.

If I avoid abuses-which are rampant except in a few places -in church, I cannot minister to the church, and I become bound to my security rather than to God – if the whole church falls apart – I will not be standing at the foot of the cross because I too will have run away until there are no more places to run to.  If I want to be standing I must be secure in God even when everything falls apart.  I must have PENTECOSTAL COURAGE, which God wants to pour on us.  It’s about being the living sanctuary, so when the sand gets blown away – you’re actually standing on rock.

Maybe God wants to flourish me with gifts that he gave me smack in the middle of abuse – why? BECAUSE IT IS SO NEEDED THERE.  And when sin abounds, grace abounds all the more.  This is the place where the miraculous happens.  Read the book of Acts, the beginnings of the church.  The foundation of what they had all been standing on WAS BLOWN AWAY.  But they were left on a rock, and sent the Advocate and the gifts they were given were plentiful, and grace abounded all the more.  They performed the miraculous all the while having stepped out of their comfort zone and into the deep with the Anointing Fire inside their souls.

Ask God WHO YOU ARE.  Listen intently because He is trying to make a living sanctuary of you and me so that we are rock solid in the storm.

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Lighthouse of the Divine Will

Posted on May 27, 2019 by veilofveronica

lighthouse

 

I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight  Isaiah 45:2

BY: ASHLEY BLACKBURN

 

Today I was in the lake on a paddle board. As I stood up, it took me a minute to figure out my balance, then I began paddling. As I switched the oar from side to side to paddle straight away, I began to hear God speaking in my heart.  Here is what I heard Him saying;

This board represents the ship I am guiding, which is the church, the body of Christ.  You are a part of this body on your own journey, both individually and with the ship as a whole.  All these things are on the same path whose destination is towards the lighthouse of my Divine Will, where you can safely harbor. They reflect one another in a mystical way because they also reflect me. On this journey I require your cooperation.  When you listen to me and to what your soul needs, I direct the movement. Likewise for the church as a whole, the Spirit guides the movement. When you paddle on the right side you are directed forward and slightly to left. When you paddle on the left side you are directed forward and slightly to the right. You begin to realize that no rowing motion of your own moves you in a straight line. You are either going slightly left or slightly right, but still you move forward. This is because in your limited humanity, I realize what you need and work with you to make straight the path.  Some days you need more mercy, paddling left more often to keep straight, while other times you may need to be reminded that I am also justice, paddling right more often to keep straight. Through it all it is a delicate dance of give and take, left and right, tough and easy, mercy and justice, your human will working in cooperation with the Divine. It is I that keeps you moving straight while you paddle to the left and right and when you truly seek me in your hearts, and as the Spirit guides, I keep you always moving forward toward the lighthouse, the ultimate destination.

All the while on this journey, the current is moving in its own direction. The current represents the culture. If you stop paddling, that is, you stop listening to me, the current will carry you away in an unknown direction that does not seek safe harbor. If you do not cooperate with me, you will eventually end up on the bank where trash and broken tree limbs entangle you and rocks can destroy. This is a life without prayer and sacraments.  A life where you aren’t actively listening and seeking guidance from me. The current that seeks to steal, kill and destroy will swiftly lead you astray. It is why I ask for you to cooperate and listen to me, so you don’t get carried away by the culture. You must pay attention and stay awake because the current is always trying to carry you in an unknown direction and it never ceases in its efforts. Some days the current is rougher than others, but it’s never completely still. Always keep the current in mind when paddling along your journey, but never let it make you quit or carry you away.

Lastly, there will be times when the current is so strong that you will keep paddling to counteract its strength of carrying you in the wrong direction, but it doesn’t work, no matter how hard you try, the current is too much for you to take on. In these times you must make a drastic move to get yourself back on track. You must row backwards. And with a few swift rows, you are brought to an abrupt halt, and you are quickly turned back in the right direction. This is necessary from time to time; to stop abruptly or take a step back in order to redirect yourself.  You must not be afraid to do this, to let go of control and trust in me. When you do not do this, the full force of the current comes at you, and the destruction it can wreak is like a hurricane, because you have ventured on on your own. Some who find themselves in this storm are tempted to jump from the ship in order to save themselves, but you must always remember, I will never let the ship sink because the ship belongs to me. Remain on it. If you jump off of the ship, surely you have removed yourself from me. If you keep your eyes on the Lighthouse, you can have peace, even if the ship seems out of control.  Put your trust there in the Lighthouse of the Divine Will that is unchanging and doesn’t move because it is built on solid ground where the current cannot take it away. Trust always completely in me.

Jesus wants nothing more from us than our hearts to be turned toward Him. When we seek Him in all things we will find the road to our salvation

 

Psalm 27

Triumphant Song of Confidence Of David.

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?  When evildoers assail me to devour my flesh—my adversaries and foes— they shall stumble and fall.  Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident.  One thing I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after: to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in his temple.   For he will hide me in his shelter in the day of trouble; he will conceal me under the cover of his tent; he will set me high on a rock.  Now my head is lifted up above my enemies all around me, and I will offer in his tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing and make melody to the Lord.  Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud, be gracious to me and answer me!  “Come,” my heart says, “seek his face!” Your face, Lord, do I seek.  Do not hide your face from me. Do not turn your servant away in anger, you who have been my help. Do not cast me off, do not forsake me, O God of my salvation!  If my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will take me up.  Teach me your way, O Lord, and lead me on a level path because of my enemies.  Do not give me up to the will of my adversaries, for false witnesses have risen against me, and they are breathing out violence.  I believe that I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!

 

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The Kingdom of God is at Hand

Posted on May 7, 2019 by veilofveronica

Fr Terry saying Mass

 and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand; repent and believe in the gospel. Mark 1:15

I had a question asked of me in the comments of my last post.  The essence of the question was about the confusion swirling all around us.  The question was about what we should do.  I want to take a minute here to reflect on a Gospel passage.

Then he made his disciples get into the boat and precede him to the other side toward Bethsaida, while he dismissed the crowd. And when he had taken leave of them, he went off to the mountain to pray. When it was evening, the boat was far out on the sea and he was alone on shore. Then he saw that they were tossed about while rowing, for the wind was against them. About the fourth watch of the night, he came toward them walking on the sea.  He meant to pass by them. But when they saw him walking on the sea, they thought it was a ghost and cried out. They had all seen him and were terrified. But at once he spoke with them, “Take courage, it is I, do not be afraid!”  He got into the boat with them and the wind died down. They were [completely] astounded.  They had not understood the incident of the loaves. On the contrary, their hearts were hardened. Mark 6:45-52

This is the version in Mark’s Gospel of Jesus walking on water.  There’s an odd line in it.  He meant to pass by them.  The passage concludes with Jesus telling them “it is I” and then it explains they had not understood the incident of the loaves and their hearts were hardened.

These men had God in their midst.  Jesus, the healer, the miracle worker, the storm calmer.  But they did not fully recognize him.  They continually looked for worldly solutions for everything they came across.  In the prior passage we see the multiplication of the loaves and fishes.  In the passage the disciples want to send the people away to eat, but Jesus tells them to feed the people themselves, and then they start talking about wages.  They still don’t know who he is.  And so HE MEANT TO PASS BY THEM.  Love was standing right in front of them, but fear and distraction took their eyes off of Him.  He exclaims, “it is I,” as if to say, I AM love and I AM right here.  Don’t you know I will provide?

Jesus is telling us don’t be distracted or fearful because of worldly things.  This is where we must surrender and trust so that Love does not pass us by.  I am going to tell a story now that may seem off track, but I promise I will bring it back around.

I want to open up a bit, more so than I probably have before about a personal struggle I went through.  Though I have told it before, I am going to add details that I didn’t before.  I am telling this story because I actually believe it wholeheartedly pertains to what is happening to us as a society, and what will happen in the future to each of us with even greater intensity.

In 2002 I had a baby.  A beautiful baby boy.  It should have been the most joyous occasion of my life, but it wasn’t.  Not through any fault of his, so if he ever reads this I do not want him to ever feel he did anything wrong.  He is a gift from God.  But I had severe post -partum depression and anxiety.  Back then I thought it was purely a physical response to a drop in estrogen.  Today I recognize it as a spiritual attack.  An attack on the very essence of my motherhood.

I don’t think I can fully describe the types of thoughts that were flung at me during that time period, except to say they were awful, and demonic.  I was afraid I would go crazy and harm my child.  I couldn’t be in high places with the baby or anywhere near knives.  If I were near these things the thoughts assaulted my mind and I couldn’t stop them.  I couldn’t control them.  They were constant.  I knew they were wrong, and disordered, and scary.  I reached out to my family and my doctor for help and all of them helped me, but the thoughts were constant.  I didn’t see any light at the end of the tunnel.  I decided that the world would be better off without me.

I was sitting in the bath tub and I was being barraged with the awful thoughts and I honestly knew the thoughts weren’t mine because they were so vile, but I didn’t realize where they were coming from and I couldn’t stop them, so I thought, I will just put my head under this water and never come up, and that will stop the thoughts.  In that moment I got a very clear picture of my sister’s face.  And I had the thought that she would be sad.  So I paused.  I looked to my left and a Rosary was sitting on the bath tub ledge.  I hadn’t prayed the Rosary in a long time and I am not even really sure how it got there.  But God had left me a weapon.  A weapon to fight the demonic attack.  And he had showed me a face, a holy face that reflected His love, my sisters face.  Where one voice assaulted my mind and convinced me to despair, another breathed life and love into me, and so began my long spiritual journey…

It was from that point on I began to climb out of the pit.  Within a year I was back to functioning.  My faith life was a roller coaster, and it would be another 7 years before the murder of Veronica that really changed how I interacted with God and how to recognize what was happening spiritually.

In looking back, I can say that was the starting point of my path to a spiritual world view.   And it was along this path that I discovered mercy and forgiveness can halt the assault on our minds.   Confession is healing.  Forgiving others is totally freeing.  The Eucharist is God in us.  We are called to love.  And love cannot be separated from truth.  I hadn’t believed that I was the loved child of a King.  But Jesus showed me I was.  And so is each one of you.

So in these times now when I feel confused or filled with rage, I know the thoughts are  caused by our enemy. I always start with the premise, when I am confused, angry, rage filled, etc, of– what exactly am I called to do? I start here because this is a way to drown out the noise and confusion.  So, I look at what is in my circle of authority, what I am called to do, what I can control.  I am called to love and pray for people. So my own interior intention for  myself and for anyone else is that they flourish and are blessed, the way that God blesses me. I do not know the intention in other people’s hearts.  And I should not assume I do know. I should never will the demise of anyone else like we see happening so much, especially in politics.   I don’t get to judge the interior heart of another person. Christ does. You see, at the end of the day when all of this turmoil is swirling around us, and confusion is bred everywhere, I actually close my eyes, I sometimes put ear plugs in too, I drown out the world purposefully, to hear the still small voice. This is the voice that calls me to love. It is the voice that says, even in the blindness, I will be the light that guides. I must love the person right in front of me. When I see poison arrows from all sides, I want no part of it. I am not talking about discussing facts and truth, I am talking about ad hominem attacks and wishing willful destruction on someone else. God tells me He has a larger plan, and he often says, “look up” to me when I seem to be looking down. By that I mean God wants me to see the goodness in people and in his creation. He wants me to see how the devil has trained people to think and to put my hatred there on the devil and not on the people. He also points out evil to me and tells me when to stand in front of it. But I am careful to listen and ask Him first because if you fight that which is outside your circle of authority, you will find yourself beaten down. I think when this storm is over, we will all have had the ground come out from under us. We will realize how we all had a false perception of at least some things, and God will reveal the truth. I think about how we are standing on SAND. Think about it, the virtual worlds we have created and that are driving our economic systems and commerce, are fake. Real relationship is missing. My prayer is that all of us turn towards God when he allows the SAND to get blown away, and we aren’t so invested in our own in our perception that we walk away from God like Judas did.

The assault that is happening to us is an all out assault of the demonic on our minds.  Satan is using our need for worldly security and our emotions in a way that has led us into this time where good is called evil and evil is called good.  This is actually the storm we are in.  While it is a global storm for sure, it is also an interior storm of thoughts and ideologies that are flung at our minds.  And we are sitting in a boat in this storm, and the Kingdom of God is at hand teaching us how to love, but He just may pass us by if we don’t recognize Him.  The Kingdom of God is a call to love.  TAKE CAPTIVE EVERY THOUGHT. Be merciful because mercy is a conduit to love.  This is Christ in us.  The indwelling of the Holy Spirit extending love and mercy to our fellow man.  It is an interior battle.  Put on the Armor of God and be battle ready.  Because love is the only way to navigate this storm and Jesus and his Mother show us how to stop the storm and crush the serpent.

….I want you to be wise as to what is good, and simple as to what is evil; then the God of peace will quickly crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you. Romans 16:19-20

 

 

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A Great Time to be Alive

Posted on May 1, 2019 by veilofveronica

Fr D with Mary

 

So Peter and the other disciple went out and came to the tomb.  They both ran, but the other disciple ran faster than Peter and arrived at the tomb first; he bent down and saw the burial cloths there, but did not go in. When Simon Peter arrived after him, he went into the tomb and saw the burial cloths there, and the cloth that had covered his head, not with the burial cloths but rolled up in a separate place.  Then the other disciple also went in, the one who had arrived at the tomb first, and he saw and believed. John 20:3-8

After my morning prayers this morning, I was browsing the news and I came across this article.

I have to say, I found myself extremely distressed.  I felt like I was staring down hurricane force winds, with no relief in sight.  Feeling overwhelmed, I actually decided to crawl back in bed, as I have the day off today.  I said, “Lord Jesus, give me rest.”  But sleep was not to be, as he began pouring over me, though in it, He did give me rest.  As you all know I record what pops in my head as a from God.  If the church came out today and said all I have written is wrong, the church is correct and I am wrong.  I always want to be clear about that so you can discern what I write.  Here is what I felt the Lord say to me today;

Beloved Lily of the Father,

That they may be one as you and I are one. 

I have revealed to you that this storm is over sexual morality and authority.  The devil is devouring.

Obedience is tantamount.  Obedience to my law and obedience to the authority of the church, BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME.

You ask me, what do you do when the authority appears disobedient to my law?

Remember MY PASSION. 

Things are not always what they seem.

The beloved REST IN MY WILL.

John did not run away from the garden out of fear, I revealed this to your friend.  He ran and got My Mother, the one through whom MY GRACE FLOWS.  She is Mediatrix of All Graces.

He brought her to MY PASSION and walked the SORROWS WITH HER.

ALL WHO ARE CONSECRATED TO HER IMMACULATE HEART WILL BE PROTECTED FROM DECEPTION. 

In the garden, Peter still thought like the world did.  He had not recognized MY WAY, TRUTH and LIFE.    I AM THE WAY, THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE.  He still thought like the world did, cutting off the ear of the soldier, and then in fear, denying me.

But Peter repented before my death.

He wept bitterly.

So too will the Church.

Notice that on the day of Resurrection Mary Magdalene goes to tell Peter of the empty tomb.

John and Peter come running.  John stops outside the tomb when he sees my linens and he bends down.  He waits for Peter.

Peter enters the empty tomb first.  This is because John recognizes Peter’s authority and that Peter is who I chose to lead my church after my Resurrection. 

I AM the one who gives all Authority.

I AM teaching you to see through the eyes of God.

I HAVE CALLED YOU BY NAME.

DO NOT BE AFRAID.

THE GATES OF HELL SHALL NOT PREVAIL.

It is a great time to be alive and see the magnanimity of WHO I AM.

You will be blind.  BUT TRUST because I AM teaching you to see differently.

I AM raising great SAINTS. 

Behold, My will shall be one with yours, you shall walk in Mercy.

Pray for the Pope.

Pray for the Bishops.

Pray for the Priests and Deacons.

Pray for the Church.

Testify to what I have told you.

 

  • Your Divine Spouse

 

An update, an excellent article by Jimmy Akin addresses the open letter.  You can read it here.

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